Hi! It’s me! Lily!

Well…  I didn’t write last night.  There was a pretty good reason for that.  I’m ok, don’t worry.  Well, I’m mostly okay.

So yesterday was Friday.  I didn’t sleep well.  Every time I’d drop off to sleep I’d wake up with a start.  I woke up pretty bleary eyed and not feeling too great.  But I did my run anyway.  Everything just feels… off.  Like I’m living someone else’s life.  I mean, why do all these things happen to me?  From what I was told, I was just a bystander, and stuff…  happened.  It’s not fair.  It’s not fair!!!

But it does explain a lot, I think.  I’ve wondered often why I never seem to fight too much with my sisters, or more accurately, why they never really seem to fight with me.  I just seem to attract people.  Even before, I thought it was the weirdest thing.  The owner told me I was like his own daughter (and we still keep in touch).  Even the guys who assaulted me seemed attracted to me for some reason.  Karens, well, they’re gonna karen no matter what.  But I just collect sisters like some people collect trading cards.  Even Katie wanted Sabby and I to be in her baby daughter’s life!!!  That never happens!!!

Well… don’t say never… but it’s really unusual, isn’t it?

And then what happened in the Japanese garden, with Crystal!  I mean, yes, it’s a peaceful place, and yes, it’s a place many people go when they want to find peace and healing, but I just touched the back of her neck and it all got better!  Isn’t that weird, after all?  I’ve never heard of that before!

And Beth!!!  Beth hated me!  And then one day, she just decided she wanted to be my sister.  Even though she’s been jealous a little after that, she’s always been my sister from then!!! That doesn’t happen!  Usually they either hate you forever or it takes long time for people to trust you, but it was like a light switch with her.  Remember?  She just said “I always wanted a sister” and got all cuddly.

It doesn’t seem to quite work the same with boys, (THANKFULLY) but Jack knew he wanted me from the moment he laid eyes on me, and that usually doesn’t happen either.  Of course it’s not unheard of, but it’s not usual.  And he’s stuck with me for almost two years now.

And I’m pretty sure it’s not because I have nice floppy bits.  Okay, not JUST because I have nice floppy bits.  They are nice..  Firm and squishy and… ummm…

Ahem.

So I was in a funk yesterday.  I still kind of am.  Sometimes I look at that lycoris radiata – I still don’t exactly know what it’s made of, it’s not like anything I’ve ever touched before – and there’s a very small light shining inside it, almost imperceptible even at night, but it’s there.  I guess I could have it tested, but…  that might ruin it, and it’s a gift in a way, so I just have to live with it.  It doesn’t seem harmful, in fact, it’s a little warm to the touch and a little bit comforting.  I did have Dave run a geiger counter next to it just to be sure, and it’s perfectly safe radiation-wise.

My “benefactor” did send a courier, along with a note.  Apparently, our terms are acceptable.  Which is good, because I’m not sure what would have happened if they weren’t.  We sent back an address and time, as well as a few cookies.

Anyway, the girls came over last night.  You know how some nights we make about one of the girls?  Like a few times Crystal became the guest of honor and we pampered the snot out of her?  Well… that’s what they did for me last night.  They put me in my pajamas and then washed my hair and massaged my scalp (oh I looooove it when people do that) and gave me a makeover (they didn’t change much but oh how good the hair and face feels) and one even rubbed warm oil on my feet and I just turned into a warm gooey puddle of melted-lily.  No, silly-billies, it was all perfectly innocent, but I’ll tell you, having four girls just doting on me like that, by the end I had no sensible thoughts in my brain except “oh, this is sooooooooo nice”.  One even fed me chocolate!!! Then after they were done, they sandwiched me in a girl pile and whispered soothing things at me and played with my hair until I went to sleep.

And oh what a restful sleep it was.  Sometimes I’d wake up and they’d be right there, plopped all over me or snuggling with me or whatever, and I just went right back to sleep again.

That’s why I didn’t post.  They wouldn’t let me.  Every time I tried they just found something else to do and I just drifted off into a haze again.

Anyway, I woke up pretty rested.

I love my sisters, and it seems they really love me too.

Maybe…  maybe having this kind of a “gift”, whatever it is, isn’t such a bad thing after all.  Not because of what they do for me, but because…  because we want to do that for each other, you know?  We really are sisters.

Today we spent the day together – it feels so much, sometimes, like there’s nothing that can hurt me while they’re around.  It’s hot, as usual, but we just went to the mall and did girl-stuff together (boys have this stupid idea of what girl-stuff is, but…  do you boys really think browsing the feminine hygiene aisle and stocking up is hot?  silly-billies) and I feel a lot better tonight.

But I still have no idea what’s going on.  There’s still stuff that I don’t know, and I might find out in a couple of weeks, and that actually scares me a little.

But I didn’t really find out anything today, and…  I’m very happy about that.  The last few days were a bit much, don’t you think?

Maybe my “gift” (I don’t know for sure) helps me attract sisters.  And i love them and do everything I can for them.  But…  it works for me too, and I’m very, very thankful for that.

Tomorrow is Jack’s birthday party.  I’ll get to meet some of his other friends!!!

Love you all!!!  ❤️

Especially my sisters!