Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!
Today we had our outing with the idols!!!
There were so many of us that we split into groups!!! There were like three groups, with three or four idols each. I got the group with Miki and Minami. We all decided what to do and took a camera crew along. We all went to the space center. Other groups went to the theme park, and the beach (though Houston’s beach is kind of ugly). It was pretty fun, Miki was amazed at all the rockets.
After we all got back, we had some free time, so all of us just hung out in the studio with a few pizzas and other take out food, and we pigged out. That was fun too, we all just chatted and danced around and listened to j-pop, etc. Some of the idols spoke, well, semi-passable English, so there was a lot of chatting between the “onee-chan girls” and the idols. It’s like I keep saying, at the end of the day, we’re all humans, right? The camera crew hung around and got some footage of us goofing off, and had some questions to ask too. I imagine they’ll subtitle the English answers.
Tomorrow we all head for the actual convention center where we’re going to rehearse on the actual stage – they just built it and we need to do sound checks and stuff.
Jack’s a little excited about his interview in Japan. I hope it goes well for him. Selfishly, too. I’m trying to work it out so I’ll be there when he arrives, but I don’t know the exact timing yet.
Honestly… I hope this marks the whole onee-chan thing running its course. It was fun but I think it’s milked dry.
It’s not long before I leave for Japan… for good.
Jack and I talked more last night. I think… I messed this up. Badly. But… all I can do is apologize and move forward from here. Thankfully, he’s willing to try, still. My feelings aren’t where I messed up. My, well, lack of respect for him is. Maybe he’ll be happy modelling and then can feel like he can stand toe to toe with me, and maybe he’ll be a little more accomplished and motivated, but that doesn’t change things much. He does love me, though. And I love him. As much as we need to learn what that really means, I still think it counts for a lot.