Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!
(There’s subscriber content in this post… and it’s not PG-13, it’s R. I’m not worried about Patreon anymore.)
And I have NEWS!!!!!
You know how usually we have the girls over on Friday nights and we eat pizza and play games and make girl-piles? Well, that didn’t happen last night. I think Beth did have the girls over, but Jack wanted to go out with me. So, well, we went out.
He asked me to his prom!!!!
I’ve never been to a prom!!!
He said he didn’t really want to go, but he felt like it was important, and I was the only one he’d consider going with.
Of course I said yes.
I mean, I’m homeschooled. I’ll never get a prom if I don’t go with someone else! And, I don’t think i’d go with anyone but Jack anyway. So… add “prom” to my list of things to do this year!!!
I have a nice dress, so I’m not too worried about all that. He said he explicitly does not want to make it a huge deal where I wear an expensive dress and he wears an expensive tux and rents a limo and all that kinda stuff. He just wants a memory… with me.
Awww.
I love that about Jack. Some people might think he’s really lax about things that are important. I think he takes things seriously that are important, but doesn’t care much about things that aren’t. Besides, we’re already dating. We don’t have a whole lot to prove to each other, and he knows it.
We did go back to his house – his parents were off on a date and Grace had a sleepover with one of her little friends, and, well, it’s been far too long since we’ve had time alone like that.
We talked a while about the future while we were cuddling, and we’re both a little scared. It’s really easy to play boyfriend and girlfriend, but soon we’re going to have to make some hard and very adult decisions. I’m pretty sure I’m going to Japan, that is, of course, if I’m accepted, and we’re pretty sure he’s, well, not. But he tells me he can’t imagine being with another girl, and even if I’m in Japan, he can’t imagine finding someone else that could possibly match up to me.
I kinda feel the same way. It just wouldn’t feel right if I were with someone else, even if we were to break up. I don’t want to break up just because it would be inconvenient… that just feels so wrong. Breaking up with him just so I can find someone who’s there just seems… disrespectful somehow. Thankfully he seems to feel the same way.
The compromise I’ll probably have to make is… I’ll probably have to bring him to Japan for visits. He might not be able to afford the trips. I… think I can do that. It’s not that expensive and the shop has been doing well….
His parents came home while we were cuddled up watching a movie together, and we had a bit of a chat before I went home. They worry about us… and maybe they’re right to, if I’m being honest. For many different reasons. But they do approve. They think I’m a good girl. Maybe I am.
Anyway, we’re going to practice for the band with the girls tomorrow. I wonder how much Crystal has improved. Yuki has been working with Beth too. Beth’s like a sponge.. she’s good at everything she really wants to do.
Oh. Today I changed things around a bit on the site. I think this font is a little more readable, and I finally deactivated a few plugins I wasn’t using. Hope that speeds things up a bit!!!