Hi! It’s me! Lily!

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Life is a little scary right now.

I don’t pay much attention to politics and wars and stuff.  I mean, I’m a seventeen year old girl!  My biggest worry should be whether to get the black or pink dress at the mall!  Right?

Well..  kind of.  You know what I mean.

But Dave and Sabby sat us all down last night and told us about all of the stuff going on in the world, how there’s a chance it could impact us, and how we need to be careful and protect ourselves if necessary.

It’s scary!!!  I don’t know who’s right or who’s wrong but the idea that someone can bomb us from the sky!!!  Awww!!!!!!

But they also said that even if that happens it’s not the end of the world, life will go on somehow.  I hope so.  But I hope it doesn’t happen more.  I guess we just move on and hope for the best.

Tonight I drove over to Jack’s house and spent some time with him after he got home from work.  I told them how I was feeling and that I was a little scared.

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His parents suddenly had something urgent to do with Grace for an hour.

Oh God I needed that time with him so badly.  After he did that thing with his tongue I love so much, and caught my breath again, I just started crying.  He just held me and let me cry it out.  It’s so much nicer when we’re…  naked, I think.  It just feels different.  He just stroked my body everywhere and told me it would be okay.  I don’t know if it was what he’d just done to me, or something, but I just relaxed and everything was okay.  Just for a bit, but it was enough.  I was able to return the favor after a bit, and it meant so much more this time.  To him, too, I think.  He certainly didn’t hold back.

I love that boy so much.

After we’d gotten dressed, his parents came home.

“Got it out of your system?”, his mother said conspirationally.  I sniffled and nodded.

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His mother gave me a hug.  “It’ll be alright,” she said.  “It will.”

“I know,” I said sniffling.  I went home, my heart heavy and light at the same time.  I really do love him, and now’s the time to spend with your loved ones, I think.

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