Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!
I’m tired.
I mean.. I’m really tired.
It’s not that I’m physically tired… Sabby calls it being “burnt out”… but right now I just hate practicing. Sabby told me she was expecting it to happen… but it’s awful. I’ve got so much to do and my motivation went to crap.
Awww.
So Sabby says I should take a few days and not practice. I told her I need to. She said do I want to power through now and maybe make myself sick for the performance, or do I want to take a break and maybe get my motivation back?
Well, when you put it like that…
So for the first time in months, I didn’t practice today. Didn’t touch the keyboard. I went to class, then I went to the park and played with Marie. I threw the ball and she was happy.
I asked Liz how she deals with being burnt out, and she says sometimes she powers through, but sometimes she just can’t, and that’s when she takes a break and does something fun. When’s the last time I did something really fun?
Even in Japan it was mostly work…
So we’ll figure something out, I guess.
Sabby says that’s why we call it recreation. Re creation. She’s pretty smart sometimes.
I’m surprised Crystal hasn’t burnt out but she’s pretty driven, in some ways in ways I’m not, so… I guess we’ll see.
Anyway, I’m going to bed.