Category: Diary

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Jack’s in Toledo, and Liz is in SoCal.

And I’m still in Round Rock.  For now, anyway.

Allison came around to say goodbye this evening.  She had a little gift, and I appreciated it.  It’s not fancy or anything, but it’s going on the fridge in my apartment in Japan.

Otherwise, Yuki and I went to the waterpark (Beth would have come, but school’s started and, well, Sabby takes that seriously).  She was a little disappointed but there’ll be lots of trips to the waterpark for her, and we had fun.  I got her some chocolate to make up for it.. only took a small “finder’s fee”.

Yuki’s already enrolled in her voice actor school…  so she’ll be starting as soon as she makes it to Japan.  I’m at the English track in Meiji, though I’m definitely going to be studying more Japanese and Japanese studies while I’m there…  I might major in business administration, but I’ve got a little time to figure it out fully.

Otherwise…  I guess I’m just winding things down here.  Yuki’s in her futon snoring, so I guess I’ll go to bed too.   Yes, famous idols snore like a buzzsaw…  you wouldn’t believe it.  Hahaha!!!!

I told you Yuki’s not her real name… this is why.  Haha!!!  The weebs would never forgive her!!!  … for being human.  Sigh.

Love you all!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Jack and Liz are gone.  Jack’s in Memphis right now (or just outside), and Liz is in El Paso.  They both left early this morning.  I was able to say goodbye to both of them, and, well, they’re gone.

I popped over to both places to see how their trip went and if they needed anything, but… it’s time I pulled back a little, I think.  That’s why I’m not planning on leaving Japan as much as I could.

I asked Mrs. X if it’s possible to pop into a moving car.  She said yes, it’s not nearly as bad as popping out of a plane, but she wouldn’t recommend it.  Popping into a plane is possible, but even more difficult than that because the speed difference has to be accounted for somehow… well, no use getting into details.  Let’s just say it’s not advised and leave it at that.

So, ummm…  that’s that, I guess.  Jack should arrive in Toledo tomorrow, Liz should arrive in SoCal, and, well…  yeah.

Yuki and I are planning for our trip.  She’s actually really happy I’m flying along with them, especially because I don’t have to.  We went to the mall today and to the Mart of Walls and a few other places to pick up things we need…. and a few conveniences we’d like that it’s hard to get our hands on in Japan.  I have the apartment now, so I popped a bunch of stuff in there and made it a bit homey.

I’m, well…  I have very mixed feelings.  But I’m looking forward to my time in Japan.  They say that we westerners can get tired of it really fast.. and that might be true, but at least I have a bunch of friends to hang out with… and I’m hafu too, so it’s not like I’m a blonde-haired fair-skinned tall girl.  I’m a little tall, but that’s about it, most other things about me look Japanese except for my chest and hips.  Can’t hide that…

I guess when I speak it’ll be obvious though.

Anyway…  Yuki and I are just kind of chilling here, she’s reading a manga I got for her when I popped over (saves shipping) and otherwise… it’s a quiet night.  It’s comfortable but neither of us really feels like doing anything exciting.  The atmosphere is actually a little… somber.

Oh well.  I guess we’ll get our excitement this weekend, such as it is.

Love you all!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Jack and I went on our last date… for a while, anyway… tonight.

It was a very bittersweet moment.  We know we’ll see each other again, but.. we really are going our separate ways again.  I know we’ll meet up – sometimes I’ll come back to see him, sometimes he’ll have to come to Japan for work and he’ll see me too, but…  but it’s a chapter of our life that’s closing.  He’s getting in the car tomorrow with some of his family and he’s going to Ohio.  His father has to work but his mother is coming along.

I guess Grace is going too – they’re going to stop by and visit relatives and friends in Columbus.

I said goodbye to Grace too.  She started bawling, too, poor kid.  I told her I’ll see her again and she’ll always be like my little sister, and she just clung to me like a stuffed animal with velcro paws.  But, it is what it is.  She’ll always be a special little girl to me.

Liz is staying over tonight with me and Yuki.  She’s leaving for California tomorrow, too.

She looks a lot sadder than she usually does.  But she says she’s looking forward to college.  The one she’s attending is pretty prestigious, so she’s kinda hopeful too, so there’s that.  But she’ll miss all of us here.

Next weekend, it’s my turn.

Yuki’s camped out on a futon in my room and we’re all going to sleep soon.

Love you all!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

The girls and I had our last Friday night together for a while…  and maybe for a long while.  So they pretty much threw me and Liz a goodbye party.  I, well.. bawled again.   And, well, so did Liz.

They gave us both some gifts and lots of chocolate.  Awww.

Anyway…  our girl-pile last night was really, ummm….  bittersweet.  They were all a little more clingy than usual, and that made me a little sad.

So today we went to the mall to pick up some stuff for Liz’s trip…  I thought she was flying but she’s packing up the car with her family and driving to California.  Jack is doing the same.  So…  I’m going to pop over to wherever they’re staying overnight and spend a little time with them.  They both leave Monday.  Liz is heading for California so they’ll be staying in El Paso, Tucson, or Phoenix…  Jack’s heading for Toledo so he’ll probably be staying around Memphis.  And me, well, I’m hopping a plane to a small island nation…

I actually kind of wish I could take people with me when I “pop”, and I’m also kind of glad I can’t.  I can’t be exploited as easily if it’s just simply something I’m unable to do.  Beth has some ideas as to how to get around that restriction, but the Boss was clear.  Don’t play around, it’s dangerous.  Mrs. X. told me some stories a while ago of what it was like to pop out of a plane.  I think I mentioned this, but you basically have to just freefall for a few seconds while the air resistance slows you down to a speed that it can then make use of properly.  It can shield you somewhat, but it’s still really unpleasant and there’s always that worry of “what if it can’t match up?”  It always does, but it’s awful when it’s happening.

Anyway, this is happening.  I think I’m going to be kind of lonely next week.  Well, Yuki will be here.  I mentioned she’s staying over?

Yuki’s become a surprisingly good friend.  Not surprising because she’s a bad person, but because, well, she’s kind of unexpected.  I mean, a former idol who just happened to find her way into the same community college that I did?  And the funny thing is that for all of her idol cred, she really didn’t have much to do with my other interactions with idols, those happened entirely differently.  I guess I’m just destined to be a part of the idol world, even if just on the fringes.  No way I’d make a good “real” idol.  Beth might, though.  I don’t think Crystal would.  She’s too talented at the things that don’t matter for an idol, and not at the things that do.  She’d be terrible at pretending to like the otaku, for example.  She’d tell them to “zakennayo” and not think twice about that.  Not a good look for an idol…

I think Yuki will be a decent voiceover artist.  Suzuka does a bit of that, and she thinks it’s fun.

I haven’t said much about Suzuka and Haruna.  They had lots of fun here, but they’re glad to be back in Japan.  We’re all planning a big ol’ party (tasteful, of course) once Yuki and I get to Japan.. the aidols, the idol group, Suzuka, Haruna…  it’ll be fun.  But no drinking.  Not all of us are of age and, well, drunk Japanese people are only sometimes fun.  Jack probably won’t be there for that but we’ll have our own private party when he is.

It’s about a week, and I leave, and, well…  this all ends.

Alright…  I should go.  I’ve got much to do tomorrow and it’s late.  The girls are staying over tonight too.  They kinda don’t want to leave.  I completely understand.

Love you all!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

I’m kinda sad.  Not “staring at the wall” sad, but.. sad.  I’m sad because everything I do with my sisters, and family, and even Jack.. it feels like things aren’t going to be the same in a few days, because they aren’t.  Is this what it feels like when something dies?

We all went to the mall today.  I needed to get some stuff for my trip, and, well, I just want to spend as much time as I can with everyone.  That’s why last weekend was so nice, everyone was together and we all just had a blast…  the aidols, the idols, all of us, Rebecca, her friends, Emiko’s family… everyone was there.  And all the singing and dancing was fun, but I just treasured all the time we were spending together…  all of us.  I wish I’d been able to say proper goodbyes but I had to support Jack.  Putting my sisters before Jack is a mistake I don’t want to keep making.  They’re all important to me, but my sisters are my sisters and Jack (hopefully) is my future.  I’ll always be able to spend time with my sisters, but if I lose Jack I don’t know how I’m going to replace him.  I mean, sure, I probably could, but, well, he’s Jack.  I didn’t just choose him because he was convenient.  I chose him because he’s Jack.  Besides, I popped over really quick to say goodbye to everyone (at least everyone who knows my secret).  And the idols/aidols, well…  I’ll be in Japan soon, so it’s not goodbye at all, not really.

I’m still sad, though.  I don’t know if I’m going to not be sad, at least for a while.  I can’t imagine I won’t be bawling like a baby when I get on the plane with Yuki and Emiko… but…  it needs to happen.  I need to go.  I need to look towards my future.

I just wish it didn’t feel a little like my sisters are the past.

How much my life has changed over the past three years.  I remember when I was found, how lost and confused I was, how I didn’t even know my name.  How every memory I have, I made here, with my new family and friends.  Even the bad memories, of which there thankfully aren’t too many, I made them all here.  And all the discoveries I made about myself, discoveries that changed my life and the lives of others (like Anathema), and I’ll never, ever be the same.  And all because of a stupid accident my birth parents did because they couldn’t be bothered to follow protocol.

I cried so hard that week, the week I was found.  I cried so hard that I ran out of tears and I still wanted to cry but I just couldn’t because there wasn’t any cry left.  But Sabby always made me feel welcome, like I was part of the family, and then I officially became part of the family.  And I don’t know if I’ve ever cried that hard since.  I mean, I cried, and sometimes a lot, but I’ve never cried so hard that I ran out of tears and just walked around like a zombie.  And then there’s the others as well, the owner, who supported me so well when I was working for him (I need to go and say goodbye), Robert (who I’ve pretty much forgiven, but he’ll never be a father to me like Dave is), and, well, the Boss, who seems to have had an outsized role in all this.  It turned out well.

For some of us, well, it didn’t start out that well either.  We found Crystal at a homeless shelter.  She’s grown up so much too, like I said yesterday.  She’s had a different set of challenges, but we all.. we’re all human.  All of us.  I have a few abilities most people don’t, but it doesn’t really matter, not really.  I’d give them all up in a second if it meant Crystal would be happy.  It wouldn’t and I can’t, but that’s how I feel.

The last three years have been so hard, but so…  so…  wonderful.

Love you all!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

The end is near.

But other than that really ominous statement, everything’s mostly back to normal.  The Aidols are on their way back to Japan (I didn’t need to say goodbye because I’ll see them as much as I want in a couple of weeks), the idol group is back in Japan, Jack’s got his offer and is having a lawyer here look it over too…  one that specializes in international business.   But otherwise, things are a lot quieter than they were.  Liz, Jack, Yuki, and I are preparing for our moves to our respective places.  Yuki’s already said goodbye to her host family.  They were sad to see her go, but understood. They were actually a bit worried about how she didn’t seem to be making any friends here, so they were just happy she came out of her shell and had people to hang out with.  They were pretty nice, but low-energy, and Yuki was kind of working through her issues too.  But she’s going to be staying with me until we leave.  Sabby’s just happy she gets to spend as much time with me as she can before we go.

Jack’s preparing for his move to Toledo.  He’s not sure how that’s going to work out with his modeling job, but he and I agree that education is important.  He’ll just talk to his professors and make sure there isn’t a problem.  If there is, well, he’s a big boy, he’ll deal with it.

And Liz is preparing to move to California.  She’s hit it off a bit with Rebecca’s old friends, so she’ll have people to hang out with until she gets established, but she’s looking forward to it.

None of us are really looking forward to leaving each other, though.

It’s sunk in for the other girls, and they’re…  you can tell it’s weighing on them.  Crystal told me that she doesn’t know how they’re going to live without me.  I thought that was a weird thing to say, but she explained that I’ve been such a part of their lives over the past few years and was always there for support or hugs or whatever they needed that they were sad that I’d be gone.  I told them I wasn’t going to be completely gone, but she said she knows that when I go to Japan I’ll be busy and even though I can come back, that I probably won’t except on special occasions.  she understand… but it hurts.

It hurts me too, if I’m being honest.  It really hurts.  I’ve grown to love all of them too.  It’s not so much that they’re my best friends.. but they’re my sisters.  All of them.  I know I use the word “sister” a lot… but I’m not using it lightly.  I mean it.  they’re my sisters, and I love them deeply.  I don’t know what I’ll do without them either.  My bed will seem so lonely when there are no girl-piles in it.  Maybe Yuki will want to cuddle every now and then, and she’s welcome to, but it won’t be the same.  It won’t at all be the same.

Crystal is such an amazing girl.  She’s gone through so much, having been homeless when I met her, and experiencing the kind of trauma and abuse that I can only imagine, and I can’t really imagine it, really.  She even tried to kill herself.  But now, she’s blossomed.  She has her moments, but she’s turned out to be an amazing musician, and I know she’s going to go far once she gets to spread her wings.  I admire her so much, she’s so strong, and vulnerable, and…  and beautiful.  So beautiful.

Diana is such an amazing cook, and has such a big heart.  She’s the kind of girl that would make an amazing wife someday, you can just tell that when the right guy comes along she’ll give him her heart utterly, and without reservation.  She’s got a fiery temper, yes, but only when it’s really needed, and for the most part she’s calm and just loves to cook and do crafty stuff.  She’s a little like the mother of our group, always making sure we’re fed and fussing over us.  I love that about her.

Beth…  how do I describe Beth.  My beautiful sister Beth.  When I first met her, I never even thought we’d be friends, but now we’re sisters…  completely sisters.  She’s so intelligent, she thinks about things I can’t even imagine, and so much talent for math and science.  And yet, there’s music in her heart, too, and when she sings it’s almost enchanting.  Plus, she’s beautiful – like supermodel beautiful.  She’s got so much going for her, the only thing holding her back is herself.  But sometimes, I wonder if she’s really holding herself back.  I worry about her.

And Liz.  Beautiful Liz.  She’s not just my sister but my best friend.  My other sisters turn to me when they need me, but I turn to Liz when I need her, and she’s always, always there.  Sometimes she’ll just let me snuggle into her chest and let me cry, like Sabby does, and sometimes she’s so happy that it just bursts out and everything around her just seems brighter.  I love her so much, I love all my sisters so much, sometimes it’s scary how much I love them.

And…  it’s all going away.  All my sisters will always be sisters, but it won’t be the same.  We’re all growing up.  In a year, Crystal, Diana, and Beth will be off to college… and that will be it.

And of course there’s Sabby and Dave, too.  Sabby, my mother in every way, even name.  The woman who adopted me, the woman who always has a chest ready for me to cry on, the woman who sometimes gets mad at me and goes all Claire Huxtable, the woman who’s been through almost as much as Crystal but is so strong and so beautiful… how much I love her.  And Dave, Dave, that silly balding man who has pressure washer accidents, but who I can never beat in a prank war… that man who always has wisdom for me, and I know in his own way he loves me every bit as much as his other children.  He’s quiet, and reserved, and loves his family as fiercely as I hope Jack does if and/or when we finally end up together.

And, of course, David.  he’s, well, David.  I haven’t gotten to know him all that well, but that’s mostly because he tends to hole up in his room playing video games and getting into trouble.  But I can already see glimpses of the man he’ll be someday, and, well…  I hope he can live up to his potential.

And don’t forget Jack, my wonderful boyfriend.  Sometimes we have our problems, like lately, but I know his heart, and it’s a good heart.  He’ll make a wonderful husband and a wonderful father someday, I know it, and I think he’s going to find out who he is soon.  When he does, I look forward to meeting him again for the first time.  Well, you know what I mean.  I’m sure I’ll love whoever he turns out to be.  After all, it’ll still be Jack, and I did choose him for a reason other than just how incredibly hot he is.

This is my family, these are my sisters, these are the people I love.  I left a few of the people I talk to less often out, but I love them too… I love everyone, so, so much.  My heart bursts sometimes with how much I love everyone, and… and, even when I go to Japan, I’ll still love them, I’ll always love them, I’ll always love them.

But it’s time to start my new life.  My new, grown-up life.  It’s time to make new friends and meet new sisters and learn all about a culture that is half my heritage.  This is growing up, this is what growing up’s about.

And all of you.  The ones who’ve been following me on my journey for the last three years.  You’re family to me too.  Don’t forget me, don’t ever forget me.

Love you all!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Jack’s on his way back from Japan now, and I’m pretty tired.  He got the “job”, such as it is.  Right now they just want to use him in some advertising shoots and that kinda stuff, and if it works out, they’ll have more for him to do.  They said they’d work around his college, though he might have a few weekends with some long commutes.  He just shrugged, and said a long plane flight is a great time to get homework done.  Plus, some classes are remote, and with wi-fi… he might be able to actually attend on the plane.  Wouldn’t that be weird…

He’s probably right about that, though.  Can’t really do much on a plane but homework.

I had to find him a Japanese lawyer/agent on very short notice, but thankfully I know some people, and they were able to pull strings to at least get someone who could look over the contract and look out for his interests.  I could translate, but no way am I giving legal advice.  This is ALL him, and I promised both him and me that I wouldn’t interfere.

He’s not making a huge amount of money to start, but it pays pretty well, and they’re paying for his flights.  So there’s that.  All he really had to promise was that he wouldn’t sign with anyone else for a while.  He wasn’t even going to sign with them, so he was fine with that.

After his business meeting, we went to see the sights.  I took him to Akihabara where he got some gadgets, he seemed to have a lot of fun. I took him to a maid cafe too, frankly, I kinda wanted to show him off, and also to see if the maids would start blushing and tripping over themselves.  Spoiler:  a couple did.  MINE.

He seemed to like the attention, and I told him it was fine to look, but don’t touch.  He did that little frantic nod nervous guys do.  Besides, it’s a maid cafe.  They don’t usually much like touching anyway (though apparently when David’s around they make an exception, hah!)  One of them was stammering like a nervous schoolgirl and ran away blushing when he gave his order.  Hahah!! MINE!!!  And, well, let’s be honest… a couple of those girls are quite a bit more stacked than I, so I don’t blame him for looking.  I caught a few peeks myself, being honest.  and their maid costumes are cute too.

He’s still not, well, happy, but I think he does appreciate that he has his own reason to go to Japan now, and, well, he’s learning a skill.  Personally, I’d never be a model like that, but nothing wrong with it.  I’ll support him.

Well, while I was off in Japan (I hated having to leave as abruptly as I did), the rest of the girls had a blast.  The next day was another meet and greet, this time, a combined one with the idols and the onee-chan sisters, and the weebs were having a blast.  They signed merch (and everyone got a small cut of the merch they were on), shook hands, answered a few questions…  and then everyone dispersed home.  So while Jack’s in the air, I popped home, and now it’s time to sleep.  My body clock is a little wacked out now – another reason why I don’t really want to head home too much.

Now, I guess….  it’s time to make the final preparations with Yuki to move to Japan, at least for a while.  It’s not long at all until this all ends, and the new chapter of my life starts.

I wanna cry.

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Jack’s in Japan now, he arrived late this afternoon.  I’m going to pop over to see him in a bit.  He’s got an interview, etc., tomorrow, though I told him not to sign anything without a Japanese lawyer to look it all over.  I’ll find him one in the morning.

He can’t speak Japanese so he’ll need me for a bit.  But I’m not going to interfere!  Promise!  Just going to make sure he doesn’t hit any unexpected roadblocks.

Anyway, the performance was really fun.  So they did a few of their songs and dances, and half way through they did a little video presentation, of the original video that someone took, and then some footage of all of us goofing around together during the week (they edited that fast).  Then they said “welcome…  train onee-chan and her sisters!!!”  And we all got up on stage and everyone cheered, and started chanting “onee-chan!  onee-chan!”.  That was a little embarrassing.  All I could do was bow.

I think that’s the first time we actually took that role.  You know, train onee-chan and her sisters.  We’ve done a few other things similar, but this is the first time we actually all stood in one group with that moniker.

I thought Rebecca was going to faint, and Crystal was going to, well… ummm…  she likes attention, apparently.

So they had us all introduce ourselves, and apparently a couple of us were really cute because the audience yelled “Awww” and “ganbatte!”.  I didn’t know Diana could blush that deeply…

Then we did our performance.  It went okay.  It’s such a different feeling than playing in front of an audience for the symphony, or even when the idols were doing their performance in front of the symphony.  There were hundreds or thousands of people, all with glow sticks, who were waving them around and chanting and doing wotagei, and it was so high energy!  They love the idols and you could see the idols love them, too.  We just did our routine that we’ve been practicing for months for, and afterwards everyone was cheering and we were all hugging each other and dancing around as we exited the stage.

We’re still a little wired.

And then it was over.

We went backstage…  and I cried.  I couldn’t help it.  I sobbed like a baby.  I guess it finally actually hit me that it’s all ending now, we’re all growing up.  A couple of the otaku saw me and asked me if I was alright….  I said I was but one of the wives stayed with me until I felt better.  Married otaku.  Maybe I assumed too much.  She had purple hair and lip rings (and was dressed like Marin Kitagawa in her succubus costume) but she seemed nice.  I wonder what Sabby would have thought of her.

The girls kind of mobbed me too, well, we mobbed each other, and a couple of them were gushing about how happy they were and how much they love me and how much they appreciated that kind of opportunity, and it just made me cry harder.  I’m happy, yes, but I’m sad too.  So sad.

It’s over, and we’re about to go out separate ways.  Of all of us, I think Liz understands the most, because there were tears in her eyes, too.

I need to get ready to go to Japan for a little while.

Love you all!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

And you get a daytime diary!!!

Well, actually, I’ve been so busy the past couple of days I forgot.  There’s been so much to do we’ve barely had time to sleep.  And I can’t imagine what it’s like for the idols!!!  So today we’re all dressed in our “school uniforms” (except for me, who’s wearing something cute like I wore on the train) and we’re getting ready for our big performance.

Anyway… the past couple of days… lots of practice.  The idols had a sound check to do for all their different songs, and then we had stage blocking and all that stuff to do, it took a long time.  But we’re all well enough practiced that it went okay.  There hasn’t been a whole lot of drama, when we weren’t actually up there, then we just kinda sat in the “audience” and watched them do their stuff.  They’re not professional in the same sense as the symphony I worked with, but they knew what they were doing and got lots of different instructions from the chorographer and producer.  They even brought Yuki up to help, because she’s kinda their “senpai” and they respect her, so she had some pretty good ideas as to how to make their performance better.

Today we have a handshake event before the performance, and that’s going to start after lunch, so I have to make this short (like I ever do!)

Anyway… Crystal kinda had a meltdown last night.  All her anxiety and, well, trauma, kinda caught up with her, and she started hyperventilating and stuff.  They texted me and I actually ended up popping over and we all comforted her.  She was so stressed out she actually came on to me, but I told her to cut that out and just let us hug her, or go into the bathroom and take care of business and THEN let us hug her.  Thankfully, she just let us hug her..

Yeah, that actually can help, but we’re not helping her!

She’s not really like that, but she’s a little more, well, free with that than the rest of us, I guess it’s because of her experience, and she just really needed comfort, and that’s mostly how she knows how to get it.  But none of us took the bait (and we’re not really like that either, it just never really occurs to us).  It took a little while but she finally calmed down and went to sleep, but I could tell it was fitful, so I explained to jack that Crystal needs me and that I’ll be back later.  He understood – he likes Crystal, too.  He feels pretty bad for her, even though they don’t interact as much as the rest of us do.

She’s never done that before, but she’s also never been quite this stressed before.

She woke up in the middle of the night sobbing, but we talked her through it and she went back to sleep.  She’s not as much of a mess this morning as you might think, I think it really helped her.  She actually seems a bit cheerful this morning.

Jack is flying off to Japan right now – they got him a ticket far faster than I thought they would, and it helps that he’s already in Houston.   He’ll be there this evening my time.  I need to do the performance so I can’t meet him, but I can meet him after, and he’s okay with that.  I want to show him a few sights, when he’s not doing his interview/scouting.

Truthfully, this isn’t what I want him to do for a living, but if it helps him feel better about himself and to feel like he can stand toe to toe with me, I’ll support him.  And, well, there are worse ways to make money, as long as you can save up for when your looks fade…

Okay, we’ve got to get lunch, then do our meet n’ greet.  There’s a surprising number of actual Japanese folks here today, and a lot of them know who we are, so they’ve bene stopping us as we go through the convention hall.  We don’t get security like the idols, but truthfully, we don’t really need it all that much.  Someone groped Crystal and he got laid out pretty fast – Crystal doesn’t mess around and she’s got some muscles on her.  Then security came and took him away and that’s all that happened.

He was cosplaying as a demon lord and she as a Japanese schoolgirl, so as awful as that was, the video already went viral.  Too many people around thought it was a skit…  even when security came and dragged him away.

Love you all, I’ll let you know how it goes!!!

I got my revenge!! Hahahaha!!!!!

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Today we had our outing with the idols!!!

There were so many of us that we split into groups!!!  There were like three groups, with three or four idols each.  I got the group with Miki and Minami.  We all decided what to do and took a camera crew along.  We all went to the space center.  Other groups went to the theme park, and the beach (though Houston’s beach is kind of ugly).  It was pretty fun, Miki was amazed at all the rockets.

After we all got back, we had some free time, so all of us just hung out in the studio with a few pizzas and other take out food, and we pigged out.  That was fun too, we all just chatted and danced around and listened to j-pop, etc.  Some of the idols spoke, well, semi-passable English, so there was a lot of chatting between the “onee-chan girls” and the idols.  It’s like I keep saying, at the end of the day, we’re all humans, right?  The camera crew hung around and got some footage of us goofing off, and had some questions to ask too.  I imagine they’ll subtitle the English answers.

Tomorrow we all head for the actual convention center where we’re going to rehearse on the actual stage – they just built it and we need to do sound checks and stuff.

Jack’s a little excited about his interview in Japan.  I hope it goes well for him.  Selfishly, too.  I’m trying to work it out so I’ll be there when he arrives, but I don’t know the exact timing yet.

Honestly…  I hope this marks the whole onee-chan thing running its course.  It was fun but I think it’s milked dry.

It’s not long before I leave for Japan… for good.

Jack and I talked more last night.  I think…  I messed this up.  Badly.  But…  all I can do is apologize and move forward from here.  Thankfully, he’s willing to try, still.  My feelings aren’t where I messed up.  My, well, lack of respect for him is.  Maybe he’ll be happy modelling and then can feel like he can stand toe to toe with me, and maybe he’ll be a little more accomplished and motivated, but that doesn’t change things much.  He does love me, though.  And I love him.  As much as we need to learn what that really means, I still think it counts for a lot.

Love you all!!!