Hi! It’s me! Lily!
So tonight, as promised, I met Kevin. We all went to a nearby chain restaurant and ate and talked.
I… wasn’t impressed. And now Liz is mad at me.
Oh, don’t get me wrong. I can see why she likes him. He’s really cute! Not quite Jack cute, but cute nonetheless! And he is smart. He ticks all the Liz buttons, so I can see why she likes him. But… something about him just hit me the wrong way. It’s like… he was too polite, too nice. He complimented me, said all the right things, was charming and engaging, and something still just felt… I dunno. Off.
So after dinner I went home, and Liz came by a couple of hours later after, I assume, they’d eaten each others’ faces. She asked me, excitedly, what I thought.
I hesitated.
Bad move.
She asked me why I couldn’t just be happy for her, that she’d found what I did with Jack. She was hurt. And I don’t blame her. But I told her that I wasn’t going to just mindlessly approve of everyone she fell in love with just because she fell in love with them. She said she doesn’t need my approval, and I agreed, but if she was going to ask me what I thought I was going to tell her honestly. She stomped home and isn’t talking to me now.
Sigh.
But… but I don’t regret it. Something still feels off. I hope she doesn’t get hurt. Sabby told me when it comes to boys and men to always listen to my gut, because it will listen to red flags that my heart won’t. I truly hope I’m wrong.