This diary entry is part 3 of 29 in Lily's diary dated 17 - November 2022

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

So Crystal’s out of her therapy program for now, but she’s on some medicine and still has a lot of work to do.

I hope she can come over tomorrow.

But I’m worried.

The thing is, that none of the bad stuff that happened to her, was her fault.  Whose fault was it?  Well, her family ended up homeless.  Could they have made different decisions?  Could they have made better decisions?  Did she have to be homeless?  Couldn’t her family have found her a place to live for the short term?  I can’t help but feel that someone messed up bad somewhere, and she’s the one who had to deal with it.

And the past is the past, but is it?  Are they one or two paychecks away from being homeless again?  We can’t let that happen!  Not to Crystal!  Not again!

So I’m worried.  Are we helping Crystal fix her problems, just to throw her into the deep end again if or when things go south?

And what if Dave were to lose his company, and Sabby’s business were to not work out, and we were to lose our house.  Where would we go?  What would we do?

It’s in the news today that a lot of tech companies are laying people off.  Twitter’s going to lay 2,500 people off tomorrow, and a couple of other companies are too.  We seem to be fine now, but what if we’re not?  Will I end up in a homeless shelter, with creepy men doing bad stuff to me too?  What if I hadn’t been taken in by Dave and Sabby?  Maybe I would be in a homeless shelter, and what then?  Am I just really really lucky?  It hurts to think about.

I mean, I’ve got that trust that I somehow got and probably don’t deserve, so there’s that, but still.  I’m worried.  It’s too easy for everything to fall apart.

I think…  I think I might know a little how Beth feels.

Love you all!!! ❤

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