This diary entry is part 5 of 26 in Lily's diary dated 30 - December 2023

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

And it was a pretty quiet day.

I like quiet days.

There are some days when all sorts of fun stuff happens, and some days when all sorts of not fun stuff happens, and then days like this, where not too much happens.  And that’s fine.  We need those kinds of days.  It was really nice outside today, so there’s that.

You know, I don’t really understand it when people get jealous of me.  I know I’ve said it before.  Yes, a lot of good things happened to me, I guess.  I don’t need to worry about how to pay for college, at least.  I have some skills that have gained me a little…  I don’t know what to call it.  Notoriety?  I’ve got all the friends and family a girl could possibly want, and I keep finding more.  My stomach is full, my mind is full, my heart is full.

And all at the low, low cost of all of my memories and apparently personality from before the age of fourteen.

And I still don’t know if it was worth the price.

So don’t be jealous of me.  I don’t like it when people are jealous of me.  Heck, I should be jealous of them!  They have something I’m like 99.999 percent sure I’ll never get back and it’s gone forever.  Was it a good trade?  Maybe it even was.  But that’s not important.  It doesn’t matter if it was a good trade.

So here I am.  I’m playing all the cards I’m dealt.  I’ve been dealt some good cards over the past four years.  And before that?  Ummm…

I’m going to the concert hall in the next couple of days to take a tour and have a conversation with the conductor.  He gave me a few pieces to listen to, and there’s one that really struck me.  I think I’ll choose that one.  But I’ll tell you which one it is later.  It’s beautiful and not awful technically.  Musically, it’s really hard, but I think I’m up for it.  And I have to learn how to use the sostenuto pedal.  Awww.

I think he would have let me choose whatever, but I really like this one.

I wish I could play Rachmaninoff’s third concerto, but that one’s going to be beyond my reach for a very long time.  I’m good.  I’m not anywhere near that good.

I’ll give you a hint.  It’s a well-known composer, but not a famous one.

Love you all!!! ❤️

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