Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Maybe…  maybe it’s that time of the month.  Maybe it’s all the events that happened over the past few days.  Maybe…  maybe a lot of things.  But I’ve been depressed today.

I’m not usually depressed.  I’m a pretty happy girl!  But I’m pretty depressed right now.  I don’t really feel like doing anything.  I just want to sit here and be a lily-vegetable.  Maybe a hamster would find me tasty?

But life… it kinda sucks right now.

Ai doesn’t think so, though.  It’s golden week in Japan and they’re having a good time!  She’s told me about all the fun stuff they’re doing, like fireworks and festivals.  She gorged herself on takoyaki.  Don’t blame her, it’s pretty good.

Beth gave me a hug today.  She told me that after seeing the last couple of days…  she’s not sure she wants a boyfriend.  She still has that guy she likes and she’s still dating him, but she doesn’t want Dave and Sabby as angry with her as they were with me. I don’t blame her.  I don’t want that either.

Jack and I need to have a long talk.  I’m not leaving him!  Perish the thought!  But… we still need to have a long talk.  But I’m waiting until I’m not depressed.  I’m in no mood for that kind of discussion right now.

Even if I’m depressed, life goes on, though, I guess.  We got the engine back in the car.  We’ll put all the stuff back on it over the next couple of days, then see if it starts!

And I have a rehearsal with the orchestra leader in a couple of weeks, so… no time for depression I guess.  Practicing to be done.

Okay.  The wall’s not going to stare at itself.

Love you all!!!

… but not really loving me all that much right now.