Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!
Maybe… maybe it’s that time of the month. Maybe it’s all the events that happened over the past few days. Maybe… maybe a lot of things. But I’ve been depressed today.
I’m not usually depressed. I’m a pretty happy girl! But I’m pretty depressed right now. I don’t really feel like doing anything. I just want to sit here and be a lily-vegetable. Maybe a hamster would find me tasty?
But life… it kinda sucks right now.
Ai doesn’t think so, though. It’s golden week in Japan and they’re having a good time! She’s told me about all the fun stuff they’re doing, like fireworks and festivals. She gorged herself on takoyaki. Don’t blame her, it’s pretty good.
Beth gave me a hug today. She told me that after seeing the last couple of days… she’s not sure she wants a boyfriend. She still has that guy she likes and she’s still dating him, but she doesn’t want Dave and Sabby as angry with her as they were with me. I don’t blame her. I don’t want that either.
Jack and I need to have a long talk. I’m not leaving him! Perish the thought! But… we still need to have a long talk. But I’m waiting until I’m not depressed. I’m in no mood for that kind of discussion right now.
Even if I’m depressed, life goes on, though, I guess. We got the engine back in the car. We’ll put all the stuff back on it over the next couple of days, then see if it starts!
And I have a rehearsal with the orchestra leader in a couple of weeks, so… no time for depression I guess. Practicing to be done.
Okay. The wall’s not going to stare at itself.
Love you all!!! ❤
… but not really loving me all that much right now.