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This diary entry is part 6 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

HI! It’s me! Lily!!!

I HAVE SOME PICTURES!!!!

I was looking through my pictures and found one of Crystal I thought I’d share… and… um… one of cat-girl.

Well, you know cat-girl.  That one’s going behind a subscriber-wall.  I’ll show you her face, though.

Here we go!!!

Crystal

She likes to dress like that.  It’s cute, but I think she’s trying to say something?  I’ve never asked her what.  I should.

And…  here’s cat-girl.

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She… um… likes to dress like that.  See why we have to keep her reined in?  That is…  less revealing than what she wore on Halloween.

WAY less revealing.

Anyway… here’s her face.

 

She’s really, really pretty.  I mean, I guess you have to be to be in, her… ummm… line of work.   But I kinda wish she’d… tone it down.

Anyway, I’m looking for other pics of me and my friends, too.

January 6, 2024

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 5 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

(There’s subscriber content in this post… and it’s not PG-13, it’s R.  I’m not worried about Patreon anymore.)

And I have NEWS!!!!!

You know how usually we have the girls over on Friday nights and we eat pizza and play games and make girl-piles?  Well, that didn’t happen last night.  I think Beth did have the girls over, but Jack wanted to go out with me.  So, well, we went out.

He asked me to his prom!!!!

I’ve never been to a prom!!!

He said he didn’t really want to go, but he felt like it was important, and I was the only one he’d consider going with.

Of course I said yes.

I mean, I’m homeschooled.  I’ll never get a prom if I don’t go with someone else!  And, I don’t think i’d go with anyone but Jack anyway.  So…  add “prom” to my list of things to do this year!!!

I have a nice dress, so I’m not too worried about all that.  He said he explicitly does not want to make it a huge deal where I wear an expensive dress and he wears an expensive tux and rents a limo and all that kinda stuff.  He just wants a memory… with me.

Awww.

I love that about Jack.  Some people might think he’s really lax about things that are important.   I think he takes things seriously that are important, but doesn’t care much about things that aren’t.  Besides, we’re already dating.  We don’t have a whole lot to prove to each other, and he knows it.

We did go back to his house – his parents were off on a date and Grace had a sleepover with one of her little friends, and, well, it’s been far too long since we’ve had time alone like that. 

We talked a while about the future while we were cuddling, and we’re both a little scared.  It’s really easy to play boyfriend and girlfriend, but soon we’re going to have to make some hard and very adult decisions.  I’m pretty sure I’m going to Japan, that is, of course, if I’m accepted, and we’re pretty sure he’s, well, not.  But he tells me he can’t imagine being with another girl, and even if I’m in Japan, he can’t imagine finding someone else that could possibly match up to me.

I kinda feel the same way.  It just wouldn’t feel right if I were with someone else, even if we were to break up.  I don’t want to break up just because it would be inconvenient… that just feels so wrong.  Breaking up with him just so I can find someone who’s there just seems… disrespectful somehow.  Thankfully he seems to feel the same way.

The compromise I’ll probably have to make is… I’ll probably have to bring him to Japan for visits.  He might not be able to afford the trips.  I…  think I can do that.  It’s not that expensive and the shop has been doing well….

His parents came home while we were cuddled up watching a movie together, and we had a bit of a chat before I went home.  They worry about us… and maybe they’re right to, if I’m being honest.  For many different reasons.  But they do approve.  They think I’m a good girl.  Maybe I am.

Anyway, we’re going to practice for the band with the girls tomorrow.  I wonder how much Crystal has improved.  Yuki has been working with Beth too.  Beth’s like a sponge.. she’s good at everything she really wants to do.

Oh.  Today I changed things around a bit on the site.  I think this font is a little more readable, and I finally deactivated a few plugins I wasn’t using.  Hope that speeds things up a bit!!!

Love you all!!! ❤️

January 4, 2024

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 4 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

I GOT RID OF PATREON!!!

Yup, it’s gone.  All gone.  In its place is a subscriber mechanism. Up in the upper right corner you’ll see an account dropdown.  You can register with a new one.  It’ll give you a user profile and everything.  I might need to tweak it a bit, but I’ve never liked Patreon, and it’s gone.  Gone gone gone!!!  YAAAAAYYYY!!!!

And now I don’t have to follow their rules anymore, so I can be as honest as I want!!!!

That was a lot of work, though.  It was pretty mashed in there…

Anyway…

The aidols are back in Japan now.  I got a few different texts all saying they’re home safe and that they’re happy they met me and they can’t wait to meet up again.  They’re so nice!!!  I’ve got more sisters now!!!

Anyway, that was a lot of work, and I’m tired.  This will be a short one.  All that work and I practiced a lot today too.  Time to work up that piece for the concert…

Just so you can test your account if you sign up, I’ll put something right below that only subscribers can see.  Ready?

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Hahahaha!!!!!

Normally that box won’t be there, but I left it this time so you can see where it would go.

Love you all!!! ❤️

January 3, 2024

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 3 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Well, back to the grind.

I was looking back on more of my posts today… was I really like that?  Was I that…  young?  Or annoying?  Or…  lots of things, I guess.  I feel so different now.  I guess I feel like an adult, with adult problems… even if you adults would say “you don’t have adult problems, you’re just a stupid young girl”.

Maybe so, but my problems are important to me.

I tried so hard to do different things.  I tried doing YouTubes, I even did a twitch stream, I did lots of things to try them out… and this diary’s the only thing that stuck.  Maybe it’s because with them I was trying to be something I’m not, and here… I’m never something I’m not.  I’m just Lily.  I’m not a streamer, I’m not a video personality, I’m… Lily.

And I seem to be at my best when I’m talking about my life… and my friends.

Maybe it’s because my friends are the only really important thing I have.

There’s Liz… my best friend ever who knows me almost as well as I know myself…  has been there almost as long as my actual family… Beth… my sister in everything but name and even in name…  there’s Crystal, my little sister who’s been through so much and is one of the strongest girls I know… and Diana, for whom family is so important and her culture means so much to her.  There’s Rebecca, my half sister who I just got to know…  she’s pretty well off but doesn’t let it go to her head…  Ai, my cousin who is so Japanese and such a sweetheart too…  and so many others as well… all of them my sisters and my friends…  and they’ve been the only constant in my story.  Every day I think I say something else about my sisters, or my parents, or someone else that’s really important to me.  That’s what it’s all about, that’s what it’s always been about.

And Liz and Beth always remind me that somehow I make peoples’ lives better just by existing.  I mean, look at Minami.  she came here to Texas kind of a mess, and so sad because she saw how my family was and how broken hers was… and somehow she left with an audition with a Japanese recording studio…  and I know I didn’t have anything really to do with it, but somehow I also had everything to do with it.  And that happens all the time.  Yuki gets to be an idol a little bit here and she seems so much happier than when I met her… Crystal is such a broken girl but she’s also so strong and I’ve watched her blossom since the first time I met her, when she smushed food in Beth’s face (Beth deserved it!).  And Beth too… she’s learning to sing now and she wants to be in a band, and she’s gotten so much better with her jealousy…

I’m not really taking credit for it… but the aidols told me I was like a walking shrine, and maybe… maybe that’s what walking shrines do.

And of course there’s Jack, too…  who I love in a very different way, but just as much.  None of the girls will ever be allowed to touch me like he is allowed to.

Some days I wonder who will be there for me, when I’m there for everyone else… and then one of my sisters gives me a hug or talks about something silly with me or makes a girl pile and cuddles up to me and lets me hold them like a big teddy bear… and I know they’re there for me too and they love me too.

That’s what it’s all about, that’s what it’s always been about, ever since I started this diary, and before.  I’ve done a lot of things.  I helped start a business, I started going to community college classes, I performed piano in front of a lot of people…  but the only thing that really matters… and ever will matter…  are the people I know, the people who I love, and the people who love me too.

Love you all!!! ❤️

January 2, 2024

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 2 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! it’s me! Lily!!!

So we took the aidols to Houston today.  It was bittersweet – they had a good time and they said they really liked spending time with all of us.  The aidols hadn’t really hung around many gaijin and they like how expressive and warm we can be.  They also think we’re a bit intimidating.  Maybe we are.  But they all gave us a hug before we went home, and I stopped in to say hi to Emiko and her family too for a little while.

I was looking through my old posts, and I feel a little sad.  It’s funny how much I’ve changed in the past couple of years.  I used to be so bright and cheerful and happy… I still am, but not in the same way.  I’d bounce around the mall and just be happy… and now I’ve got stuff to do and things to think about and a rapidly approaching graduation that frankly scares me.  And there were a few things that I talked about that I mentioned were going to happen and never talked about again.  Like David learning a language, for example.  I never told you how that turned out!  Basically, he tried for a few weeks, got sullen, and Sabby just gave up.  That was around the time she sent him to the summer camp too for the first time.

But they kind of gave up on trying to make me all mechanical too, so it all evens out.  Even though I did rebuild that engine.  I guess that was just a matter of necessity, though.  The engine needed to be rebuilt, and it was a good learning experience.  But I could say the same about David – he went to Japan and knew very little Japanese, and he could have learned a lot more!

I’ve written so much stuff here I’m compiling it into a kind of book!  So there will be some changes here once that’s done.  I’ll let you know how that turns out.

And I wonder when I’m going to stop posting here.  I can’t do it forever.  Eventually I’ll just have too much life.

Aww.

Maybe you’ll miss me.

Anyway…  I’m tired.  And a little lonely.  It was nice having four girls sleeping in here every single day.  They’d chatter or say “sharekoube” or just fall asleep and it was nice to hear them breathe.  They mostly didn’t girl-pile but that’s okay.  It was still nice having them here.  I’ll miss them.

But onwards.  There are a lot of things coming up.  There’s the culture festival, and sports day, and…  oh wait.  This isn’t an anime.  But there is a concert I need to prepare for, actually two, and then there’s Beth and the band, and applying to Meiji, and…  and it was a nice holiday, but it’s over.  Time to move on.

Love you all!!! ❤️

January 1, 2024

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 1 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

2024!  How about that!!!

So this morning we got up early – well, some of us did, the adults were pretty fried.  We got bundled up (it was pretty cold) and went to a nearby park to watch the first sunrise. It’s not something we usually do in America, but we have five and a half (Yuki stayed over) Japanese people here, so I thought it’d be a nice thing to do.

And, actually, it was.

It was like all the possibility of the year was in that sunrise.

Sometimes the Japanese do pretty cool stuff, I think.

So after that, we went back, and crashed some more.

We had a late breakfast.  They would have visited a shrine, but there isn’t one.  I let them bow and clap at me, and they were surprisingly not embarrassed to do it. I was, but I knew they weren’t doing it to me, they were doing it at me, and if nothing else, we know I represent someone, so it was fine.  I didn’t ask what they prayed for.  They didn’t tell me.  But sometimes that’s how it works.

I felt a little left out.  I can’t really bow and clap at myself.  I can’t have a shrine visit when I am the shrine.  Aww.

2024 will be a year of change.  I will graduate.  I will probably go to college.  Maybe even in Japan.  Something… will happen with Jack, and neither of us knows what.  And who knows what kind of stupid things those those Very Smart People in charge of countries will do.

But there’s no point in worrying.  Things will happen or they won’t.  At the end of the day… 2025 will come.  It is inevitable.  It’s just what our situation will be when it does that’s up in the air.

Tomorrow we’re taking the girls down to Houston to spend a day with Emiko.  I hope they have fun.  Emiko will take them to the airport.

I’ll miss them.  They’re fun to have around.  I don’t want them to miss me… but I hope they do.  You don’t miss people you don’t care about.

They spent much of the day packing their stuff up and getting ready to leave.  Minami was a little teary.  I asked her why.  She just said that she’ll miss being around a real family that cares.

I understand.  Maybe more than she thinks.

I did ask her why she doesn’t feel the same way about Mariko’s… or Yuuko’s… or even Ai’s family.  She just said they treat her fine, but they’re Japanese.  People don’t really work that way there.  They treat her like…  their daughters’ friend.  Not family.  That’s sad.

Love you all!!! ❤️

December 31, 2023

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 26 of 26 in Lily's diary dated 30 - December 2023

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Happy New Years!!!

You know I forgot to change the banner on this site, it’s said “happy new years” for a whole year.  But…  the great thing about that is, it all came around and now it’s correct again!  Haha!!!  We’ve got lots of people here, and lots of snacks, and a little booze, but that’s just for the adults.  I guess in Japan you have to be 20, but Yuki’s the only one old enough to drink there.  So it’s root beer for us.  I don’t mind!  I like root beer!  But… Japanese people don’t.  They say it tastes like medicine. Yuuko took a sip, and, well… we found something she won’t eat.

Anyway, we have snacks, and ordered pizza, and it’s a party!!! We’re all playing games and waiting for the countdown and eating snacks.  Grace is here and trying to stay up, but she’s already getting droopy eyes, aww.  But we’re gonna let her try!  Allison is here too, with her parents, and she and Grace are having fun trying to stay up.  It’s cute.

I expect we’ll be putting blankets on them soon.

The aidols love Grace!  But everyone does, really.  Minami is playing with her and Marie, it’s cute.  Minami’s doing a little better.  I think she’s just kind of accepting how things are, and she’s looking forward to her audition when she gets back to Japan.  I guess they already have it scheduled and everything.  She told her father and he’s happy for her, though he’s too busy working to talk much, I guess.  He’s on her side, though.

Her mother isn’t too happy with it, but there was a bit of a yelling match on the phone, and, well, she’s doing it anyway.  She says it’s like she lives on her own anyway, if she has to actually live on her own, well, she won’t be taking care of her useless mother anymore.

Japanese people usually don’t say stuff like that.  She must be really annoyed.

I should go.  There’s a card game starting and I want in.

Love you all!!! ❤️

December 30, 2023

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 25 of 26 in Lily's diary dated 30 - December 2023

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

New years is almost here!  Can you believe it’ll be 2024?

A few years ago, I was wondering if we’d make it to 2024.  But so far I guess we have.

There’s a big eclipse coming in 2024, and I’ll be in the path of totality!!!  Woo!!!

Okay.  So today we went to Lake Travis and did lake stuff.  Dave rented a boat and we went out boating.  It was fun.  I mean, not like it was in Orlando, but it’s still a nice lake, and the Aidols had lots of fun.  I kind of wish there were like an amusement park or something but it is what it is, right?  We stopped at a place on the shore for lunch and Yuuko, of course, pigged out.  At least she’s pretty polite when she’s packing it away, David isn’t as much so.  Hah!!!

They’re taking a lot of pictures.  Hai cheee-zu!

Anyway.  Tomorrow’s our big party.  It’ll be a little less…  chaotic… than our Christmas event, but it’ll still be nice.  Jack is coming over, and Grace too!!!  We got a few of those 2024 cat ear headbands and…  I guess the adults will be boozing it up a bit.  I’m not worried, they’re usually responsible.  I’ve seen Sabby tipsy, but never really drunk.

She got close once…

Given her childhood, I guess I can understand why she doesn’t want to be truly drunk ever again.

Anyway, I guess I should go to bed.  It’ll be busy tomorrow and we’ll be staying up till midnight.  Often in Japan, people visit a shrine for new years, and will also go to see the first sunrise.  We can’t do the first.  We might be able to do the second.  I’ll see what the girls think.

But, if they’re right, and I’m a walking shrine… maybe I’ll let them pray at me.  Just this once.  I can dangle bells from my chest… okay, that’s too far.  Haha!!!

Pray at me.  Not pray to me.  I know what I am, and what I’m not.

Love you all!!! ❤️

December 29, 2023

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 24 of 26 in Lily's diary dated 30 - December 2023

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

And today was so much FUN!!!!

So yesterday morning we woke up, and they had a very nice breakfast waiting for us.  You know how in anime where one of the characters takes a bite of food, then exclaims “oishii” in that way that suggests that they just got a tingly in places that you don’t want tinglies in public?  Yuuko did that!  It was funny!!!  But it was delicious.  Robert was working from home, so he went off to his (rather fancy, actually) office and we just did our own thing.  We put on our swimsuits and used the pool for a while, and then hopped into the hot tub.  Mariko said it was like an artificial hot spring.  I guess so.  After that, we got dressed up and went to the arcade, and had a blast playing arcade games.  That’s the one thing Rebecca doesn’t have in her house.  We had lots of fun playing bowling and coin pusher and all the other fun stuff they had.  They did a “test your strength” and Larissa beat all of us.  Combined, I think.  I came closest, though.

We went to a steakhouse for dinner, and got to see Yuuko have a food paroxysm again.  But it really was delicious, and the aidols really enjoyed their steaks.  Then we came back, and we camped out in the big indoor tent again.  No pillow fights this time – Rebecca’s mother still isn’t a big fan of pillow fights.  We got yelled at a bit.  We drove back today, and stopped at Buc-ees again so Yuuko can load up on snacks some more, and now we’re home.  It was a lot of fun and everyone likes Rebecca and her friends.  They got added to the sister rotation and we’ll add them to our video calls when they’re available.

Larissa wanted to show us her horses but we didn’t really have time.  It’s alright, maybe next time.

Sabby’s setting up for our new years party – it’ll be a little less busy than the Christmas party was.  Then on Tuesday we’re taking the aidols to Houston to spend a couple of days with Emiko and her family – Emiko wants a little time with Ai and her friends are just… the more, the merrier.  Emiko will take them to the airport.

Yuki saw her parents off while we were gone.  They had a pretty good time, Yuki showed them some places around Austin, and I guess they had a lot of fun.  They want her to come back to Japan but she’s really afraid to.  And I don’t blame her, I’ve seen how some of her fans act, and they’re the good ones.  But I guess she can’t avoid it eventually.  I’ve kind of made up my mind that when she decides to go back, I’m going with her.  When she steps out of that plane, she needs someone to lean on.  Maybe we’ll hire Larissa to be a bodyguard.  Haha!  Only part kidding though.

I did see her acting a little bit like a baby with her parents though, it was hilarious.  She’s not really embarrassed, though.  She says “If you can’t act a little bit like a baby with your parents, who can you?”  I couldn’t really argue that.

Anyway, I’m tired, and we’ve got some stuff planned for tomorrow, so

Love you all!!! ❤️

December 27, 2023

Posted 1 year ago by Lily
This diary entry is part 23 of 26 in Lily's diary dated 30 - December 2023

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

We made it up to Dallas, and we’re at Rebecca’s house now.  It is HUGE.  The one in California wasn’t this big.  Rebecca tells me that Dallas is a lot cheaper than LA (especially in that area), so they were able to get more house.  Wow.  There’s a pool, and a hot tub, and a small movie theater, and even bowling and a tennis court!!!

Everyone’s amazed.  I gotta admit, even me.  I don’t really care about those things but when something’s amazing, it’s amazing.

Anyway, we stopped at the Buc-ees in Temple, and loaded up on snacks.  Everyone got something, but Yuuko pretty much bought the store out.  Haha!!!  They all got a souvenir with a beaver on it.  Anyway, after our pit stop, we finished driving up.  I’d never driven in Dallas by myself before, but with Beth telling me where to turn and get off and slow down and stuff, we made it safely.  Once we entered the metro area, the aidols were so busy looking out the window at all the sights that they forgot to be annoying, so it all worked out.

Rebecca was really happy to see me.  She invited some of her new friends, too.  She’s still friends with her other friends in LA but they don’t see each other as much, so she had to make some new ones too, because of course she did.  There were two girls – One about my age named Larissa, and one a little younger named Becky.  They’re both really nice, kinda down to earth.  Larissa is smaller, and Larissa’s really thick with lots of muscles.  I guess she’s into horses and does a lot of riding and stuff.  You know, a sports-girl.

They’re both down to earth, though.  I guess they’re good for Rebecca because she seems a little more down to earth too.  Like her little bubble in LA has been punctured.  I mean, she’s still got a huge house and lots of money and stuff, but Dallas isn’t full of rich people like Calabasas is, and her school is more… ummm.. diverse is a good word, I suppose.  Doesn’t hurt that Larissa doesn’t take crap and has a bit of a foul mouth, but they seem to be pretty good people.

They don’t speak Japanese though, so I ended up translating for the most part.

They got pizza though, which was a hit with everyone, and after we ate pizza and drank soda, Rebecca took us into the movie room to watch a movie.,  Of course, we chose an anime movie.  Rebecca wasn’t sure, but they were pretty engrossed by the end – it was one of those sad movies and we all cried.  Even Larissa.

So now we’re all camped out in the indoor tent with lots of blankets and pillows, telling stories and chatting.  The language barrier is a little bit of a problem, but we’re working our way through it.  Larissa and Becky are really interested in Japan and they’re asking all sorts of questions, which the aidols are answering with a lot of my help.  And the aidols are curious about high school life here too – I can’t really answer their questions about it because I’ve never gone to high school – I was found when the virus was in full swing and then Sabby took me out to homeschool me.  They were curious about the college classes I’m taking now, though.  We’ll probably go to bed soon.  I’m not sure what they’re planning for tomorrow but I’m sure it’ll be fun.

Maybe Larissa will let us meet her horses, but I’m not sure how that will work.  Ai did enjoy it when we took her riding last year.

Oops, gotta go…  turns out ten girls make for one massive pillow fight.   OW.

Love you all!!! ❤️