Category: Diary

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

And I’m full of chocolate!!!!

I blame Jack!!!

I ate so much chocolate today!!!

So of course this morning I worked.  I don’t mention much when I work because what am I going to say?  People come in, people pick out horrifically unhealthy food, people line up in front of me so they can worship at the altar of doot dooting, they put gas in their car, and go on their merry way!  Nothing much more than that!!  Sometimes things go a bit wrong, but for the most part, that’s all it is.  And when there’s no one lined up, I go in the back and get more unhealthy food and put it out so the whole thing starts all over again!!!

It’s a simple job, but I know how to do it, and I get along okay.

After I got home, Liz came over, and we all went to the mall!!!  No real reason, we just wanted to get out of the house.  I had a Cinnabon for Allison!!!  We walked around and bought a couple of small things but mostly just chatted.

Oh oh oh Sabby and David made up, sort of.  Sabby’s going to teach David how to cook, but not make us eat it until he gets good at it.  I asked her to teach me too, and she said she would, but David’s the one she needs to teach the lesson to, and I have enough going on anyway.

She’s probably right.

She doesn’t think it was a mistake trying to teach him to cook, but the way she did it was like trying to have him drive a race car when he had never even turned a key!  I told her it was a good thing to teach him to cook, but asked her if was going to teach him girls could do what boys could?

She said, no, but it would teach him that boys could do what girls could, and that’s a start.  She’d think of something else for the other way around.

Of course, that’s assuming he even manages to learn how to make edible food.

After we got back from the mall, we had dinner and after, chatted about girl things, like boys.  Liz has a boy she’s interested in!  But she doesn’t know if he likes her too.  She’s not besotted like I was with Jack, but she wouldn’t turn down a nice kiss.

I hope it works out for her.

What other things do girls chat about?  Well if you don’t know, I won’t tell you!  Girls have to have some secrets, right?

Beth and Liz and I are going to stay up for a bit and play games!  It’ll be fun!!!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!!!

And if Jack were here, I’d kiss him within an inch of his life!!!!!

He didn’t forget Valentine’s Day!!!!

And when I say he didn’t forget it – he REALLY didn’t forget it.  You know what that silly billy did?  OMG he sent me chocolate!!!  But not just chocolate!!!  Chocolate with cherry!  Chocolate with cream!  Chocolate with rum flavor!  White chocolate!  Pink chocolate!  Chocolate I’d never heard of before!  Sooooo much chocolate!  But he sent flowers with it too!  Lilies!  Lots and lots of lilies!!!

He got my present to him, too.  I didn’t write about it because it would tip him off.   But he has it now so I can tell you.  I know what he’d really like but I can’t give him that until we’re both eighteen, so I wrote him a story.  A very…  nice story.  About all the ways I love him, and all the ways I’d..  show it.

And I also gave him some very expensive cologne.

I think he liked the first gift better.  Boys.  Hahah!!

He got a job now, did I tell you?  It’s nothing special, he’s working after school at a local Krogers – it’s a grocery store up in Ohio, like HEB here.  I guess he’s doing bagging and cart-wrangling. He doesn’t have as many karens.  I wonder why.  Maybe in a grocery store, they go after the people that don’t work there.  Hmm.

I’m soooo glad he sent me something!  He loves me!!!

Anyway, David-cook-gate is still ongoing.   Why do we call everything -gate?  Dave tells me it was some kind of political scandal in the 70s, but I wasn’t even born then, so I guess it’s just a fitting word.  Cookgate?  Davidgate?  Sabbyscrewedthepoochgate?  She did apologize but David is clearly hurt.  I think he feels like Sabby set him up for failure.  And honestly?  She kinda did.

But I’m not talking to her about it.  I think she knows what she did.  There’s no point in rubbing it in.  I wonder how she’s going to make it up to him.

David certainly has a lesson to learn, but…  maybe a different way.

Anyway, tonight, we watched a movie anyway.  David was a bit sullen, but he watched it with us.  Liz came over too.  She asked what was going on, I just said that there was a bit of drama, but Beth and I were fine.  So we’re going to sleep over again!  I do hope this blows over soon.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

So I can’t fault Sabby’s intentions, but I think she backfired.

So she wanted David to cook dinner to prove that boys could do things that girls are stereotyped for? Well, it turns out that David can’t cook.  At all.  Not even a little.  He, apparently, has found a way to burn water.  Kid can play computer games and knows a lot about computers and tech stuff, but put him in front of a stove and, well, it was an unmitigated disaster.

The food served was pretty much inedible.  He tried to make macaroni and cheese.  He ended up with pasta and cheese soup, and the cheese made little balls that were crispy on the outside.  Ewww!

And Sabby was coaching him, too!

Dave took one bite, and said “Sabby, I know what you were trying to do, and David, I know you did your best, but this isn’t edible.  I’m ordering pizza.”  And he did.  The pizza arrived half an hour later and we ate in silence.  David looked mortified, Sabby looked upset, but at herself more than at David, Dave just looked a bit put out, and Beth seemed a bit gleeful that her little brother finally got a bit of comeuppance.  I…  just felt bad for everyone.

Though I do love pizza.

After, Dave and Sabby went up to there room, and there was muffled yelling, with Sabby doing most of it.  David just sat on the couch looking miserable.  I sat down next to him.

“Ok there kiddo?”

“No.”

“Why not?”

“I don’t know.”

I frowned.  “Your mom embarrassed you, didn’t she?”

he nodded.

 “I don’t think she meant to.”

He just got up and went upstairs.  He’s nine.  He’s not very good at talking about his feelings.  It’s not that he dislikes me, he just… he’s David.

Boy, when Sabby messes up, she really messes up.

And I can’t really fault what she was trying to accomplish.  I know David’s nine, but he really does have some rough edges.  And apparently he thinks girls can’t do some things that boys can.  But if Sabby was trying to kill that idea, well, I don’t think she managed it.

Poor Sabby.

Poor David.

I hate family drama.

But on the bright side, at least I got some pizza out of the deal.  Is that a fair trade for being told I can’t do something because I’m a girl?

Nah.  But it’s a nice down payment.  I do love pizza.

Sabby’s in David’s room talking to him now.  And as much as he needs to be taught a lesson, well, she owes him an apology.  I hope she gives him one.

Tomorrow’s Friday!  YAY!!!!!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

Lily lily la-lilly!!!

Banana nana fofana!!!

I’m dancing in my chair!!!  It’s squeaking!  Beth just came by looking at me funny!!!

Today was..  A wednesday.  Dave was off on a job site, but left some homework for us with Sabby.  I had my project to do with learning how a car engine worked, but we also all filed into the lab and had to build a simple circuit.  But the catch was, David had to keep his hands off and just tell us what we needed to do.

So…  that didn’t end well.  What was supposed to happen was, Beth and I were supposed to plug bits and pieces into the little holey thing as David told us, connect up a battery, and it was supposed to do stuff.  What actually happened was David told us to do something, and both of us refused to do it until he told us what the bit we were plugging in was, what it did, and why it needed to be where it was.  David lost his patience very quickly and stomped off.  Sabby came back, dragging David along a few minutes later, and said “I’m going to watch.  Do what you were doing.”

So we did.

After about a minute, Sabby stopped us.

“I’ve seen enough,” she said.  “David, Beth and Lily have every right to ask you questions and to understand what they’re doing.  Maybe you don’t have the answers but you’re being impatient.  We’re not just teaching you how to do electronics, we’re also trying to teach you how to work together, and David, you’re failing.”

“But they’re so sloooooow!”, he whined.  “And they’re girls!”

Sabby’s face turned thunderous.  “What. Does. That. Have. To. Do. With. Anything”, she asked, punctuating each word.

David had the sense to stay quiet.

“Do you think that girls aren’t as good at this as boys are?”

David turned red, but I couldn’t tell if it was from anger or embarrassment.

“I see,” she said.  “Come with me.  Lily, Beth, you can keep working on this if you want.”

We did.  Both of us knew better than to get in Sabby’s way when she was working up a good rant.  It took us a bit longer, but Beth and I figured it out finally.

We could hear Sabby yelling through the door.

When we had dinner, Sabby told us that since David thought boys were better at some things than girls, it stood to reason that girls were better at some things than boys too, so David was going to be cooking dinner for the next week.  I wasn’t too happy at that announcement.  Why punish us with bad food?  But I kept quiet.

As I said, you don’t want to get in Sabby’s way when she was working up a good rant.

Truthfully, I wouldn’t mind learning to cook too, but let’s let David get through this first.  This oughta be a fiasco almost as bad as Cookie-palooza.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

Genuine Lily Parts!  Oh, ummm…  should probably leave that one, huh?

It’s been quiet.  Too quiet.

Last year, between Thanksgiving and Christmas, it just seemed to be one thing hitting after another.  I went to Disney world with Liz and her family, met Jack, fell in love (against my better judgement), said “oh no” a lot, discovered who my birth mother was, met her, had Christmas, Jack came back for Christmas, had a date…  all that stuff happened.  And since the new year I… well, took driving lessons and had my floppy bits honked.

I like the quiet, but it worries me.  What else is life going to throw at me?  There are still a few unresolved plot points.  I mean, my life is a bit like a story, right?  The plot points can’t stay unresolved, can they?  Who adopted me before Dave and Sabby did?  What happened to them?  Why do I have a few hundred thousand dollars?  Why did I lose my memory?  Why was I found where I was?  I’ve found the answers to a few questions, but not really the big ones.  Why can I play piano and knock fully grown men onto the ground?  What other skills do I have that I don’t know about?

But the question of who I was before I was found isn’t as important to me anymore.  I have my family now.  I have Jack.  I know my given name and birthday.  Do I really need to know?  I mean, really truly?

It’d be nice if I did, but I guess it’s not really all that important anymore.

And my life isn’t perfect, either.  I love my family, but they are flawed.  Sometimes Sabby or Beth go off for no reason, or David gets in trouble, or Dave withdraws into himself and gets a little surly.  Heck, sometimes I get in a stinker of a mood.  Life isn’t perfect.  But people who love you make it better.  Don’t you think?

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!!!

かんばんは！リリーです！

I am Lily, hear me roar!  ROAR!!!!

Ohhh I love nice, quiet days.  It’s warmer!  Ice is almost all gone!!!  YAAAAAYYYY!!!  I worked this morning, and it was mercifully karen-free!  Where do all these karens come from anyway?  Is there a school they all go to?  Do they have “speak to the manager 101”?  “How to make a royal pain of yourself to get what you want 302”?  “Bob Cuts For Fun And Profit”?  I don’t know!  But it’s like there’s a school somewhere!!!

I hear that some women named Karen are upset about karens being called karen!  It’s a title!  Not a name!  You can be a Karen without being a karen, and you can be a karen without being a Karen!!!

Funniest thing:  Karen is a name in Japanese!  It means lovely!!!  So maybe you can just tell a Karen (not a karen) that their name means “lovely”!  Then they won’t have to speak to the manager!  HAHA

So I was curious about something today.  I’ve been playing on this computer for a while now, ever since Dave bought it for me last year, and you know what?  I don’t know how it works!  So I asked Dave.  Dave thought for a bit, and said it’s based on some really simple principles, but it’s hard to explain in one afternoon.  He said it’s just a bunch of really small switches flipping around very, very, very fast.  But he said he’d have to think about how to explain it.  I shrugged.  It does seem pretty complicated!  It’s hard to make something so complicated seem so easy!

So what else.  Not much.  Crystal was here, but she seemed a little subdued.  I asked her why.  She just said simply, “It was cold this week.”

I was confused.

“If your dad hadn’t helped my dad, I might have had to be out in it.”

Aww.  I gave her a hug and I could feel her shake a little.

“If I hadn’t been…  hadn’t been…  then he wouldn’t have…”

I just held her tighter.  What else could I do?  I think it’d bother me too if Dave and Sabby hadn’t taken me in like they did.  Would I be homeless too?  So I just rubbed her back and told her everything would be okay.  But I frowned.  Will everything be okay?

I hope so.  Maybe I’m making a promise I can’t keep.

I fed her a cookie and she seemed to perk up a bit.  Chocolate always helps.

It’s funny how life can be such… how did Ellie put it on Contact…  full of such beautiful dreams… and such horrible nightmares.  Crystal had to live a nightmare, and I can’t really make it better.  Except maybe just by being a big sister.  Maybe that’s enough.

She went home with her parents.  Do they realize how much she hurts?  I should ask them.

Or not.  Maybe I’ll talk to Sabby about it.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!!!

And I’m in a good mood today!!!

It’s still a little chilly outside but it’s getting warmer.  And Sabby had hot chocolate for me when I got home!  Any day with hot chocolate in it is a good day!!! I picked up the mug with both hands!  Now I just have to eat yogurt on a bench in my workout clothes!!!

Haha!  What kind of women are in those advertisements anyway??

But it was good hot chocolate!  Even had those tasty little marshmallows!  I love them!!!

Otherwise it was a boring day!  A boringly boring day!  I went to work, I doot dooted and karen wrangled… oh!  I saw a real karen today!  Most of the time karens are just these wannabe karens, but this one was the real deal!  She got so angry that we wouldn’t give her a discount that she tried to slap the owner!  Well, the owner is a big guy, and he held her down while I called the police!  Maybe that’s why I’m in a good mood!  A karen got arrested!!!

No, it’s the chocolate.

Chocolate always makes me feel better.

I’m such a girl!!!  But I like being a girl!!!  Yes I get moody sometimes and cry a lot, but I get all sorts of friends and get to have fun with them!  Boys just kind of insult each other and ogle girls like me!  It’s much better to be me, I think!!!

Anyway, Crystal came over while I was at work, and she’s here now!  She and Beth are in her room talking.  I guess I’ll go see how they’re doing after I write this.  They really have become good friends!  She doesn’t take any stuff from Beth, and I think Beth appreciates that.  Remember how they met?  Crystal calling her a spoiled rich girl and shoving food in her face?

Well, not much to talk about today, but that’s good!  When there’s a lot to talk about, bad stuff happened!!!  I’d rather days be boringly boring!!! Like this one!!!

みんなさんが大好き!!!

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

So today was a little warmer.  Water was drippily dripping off the roof, and every now and then ice would slide off (crunk thunk whooooosh PLOP).  The roads were pretty bad in the morning, but they got better throughout the day, but now they’re bad again.  Sigh.

Beth and David were working on their project.  I’m not sure what it is, but they seemed to be getting along – most of the time.  Every time David tried to take over, Beth shut him down.  “I know you know more about this stuff than I do,” she said, “but dad put us together because I’m supposed to learn too, so if you can’t slow down and let me figure it out then go get a cookie or something.”

Of course, he didn’t like that much, and went to Sabby, who came over and read him the riot act.  I think I see why Dave put them together.  David doesn’t work well with others, and I think Beth, and maybe I, don’t include him as much as we could.

David wanted to play in the lab but I said no.  I don’t understand half the stuff in there, and until Dave can teach us how to be safe I’m not going to risk it.  David got really upset with me too but I stood firm and Sabby backed me up.  “Think of it as a school lab,” she said.  “Would you be allowed to just do whatever you wanted if a teacher wasn’t in the room?”

“No, But Lily’s not a teacher.”

“She’s not.  But she’s a high school student.  You’re an elementary student.  That doesn’t always count for something, but it does here.  You’ll have plenty of chances to work on stuff.”

“But…”

“No buts.  I’m not going to have you getting hurt because you don’t know what you’re doing.”

As for me, I was putting together my model.  Man, that was hard.  But I got it!  The parts moved up and down and around and it was kinda mesmerizing watching it do its thing.  Now I just have to learn what all the parts are for.

Dave was working again today, but he was working from home.  So later in the day he took me and Beth into the lab (without David) and started giving us some pretty intense lessons on how electricity works.  He taught us about AC and DC, and even showed us on one of the gadgets what AC looked like.  He taught us about voltage and amperage, and what’s safe and what isn’t safe.  He even deliberately popped a circuit breaker – what a spark!

After we were done he asked us what we learned.  I said “Don’t let David near the wall outlets.”  He said “Well, you shouldn’t be near that either right now, but if that’s all you took from it, I guess that’s good enough for today.”

“What are all these little parts?,” I said, pointing at the bins.

“I’ll explain that later,” he said.  “I think you’ve learned enough for today.”

I guess.

I asked Sabby if David chose a language yet.  She said she’s giving him until Monday before she chooses it for him.

Liz came over, we had dinner, and then watched a movie.  After the movie Beth, Liz and I went up – time for another slumber party!  Why do we girls like slumber parties soo much?  Who knows?  They’re funnnn!!!!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

OMG did we get ice!  Icy ice!  Ice on ice!  Sooooo much ice!  It fell and fell!!!  The ground was white and we couldn’t even throw snowballs because it wasn’t snow, it was ice!  When I went to school it would have been a snow day but today it wasn’t!  It was just a regular day!

Not for Dave, though!  Dave has to go to job sites every now and then, and most of his engineers go to job sites all the time!  So he basically closed his company for the day, and let his people take care of the stuff they needed to take care of!  That was nice of him!  I think everyone remembers snowpocalypse last year.

So while I was sitting at my desk putting that enginey thing together (it’s hard!  All sorts of little fiddly screws and metal bits!  I’m learning a lot about how to do project like that) Dave was busy in the garage.  Finally around lunch time he told us all to come into the garage.

He’d built us a lab!!!

OMG!!!

I’ve never seen David so happy!  But I didn’t know what any of the stuff was!  There were bins full of little fiddly parts, there was a small computer that I think Dave had lying around somewhere, there were some gadgets with wires and screens that I’d never seen before!  But David seemed to know!

“Okay, kids,” he said, “I built you a computer and electronics lab.  I know David is the most interested in this, but he’s nine, and I can’t let him use this lab unsupervised.  So here’s the deal.  Beth and Lily, I’m going to teach you two and David how to use all the equipment here – and I expect you to pay attention, you’ll be graded on it!!  The two of you are going to work with David to build projects, which I’ll give you.  You can split up the work how you want, but girls, you have to let David work with you, and David, you must listen to the girls and do as they say.”

David frowned.  “Why do Beth and Lily have to be in charge?”, he whined.  “i know what I’m doing.”

He sighed.  “You’re nine.  You don’t.  When I was your age, I took the back off a television and almost killed myself.  The girls may not know as much as you right now, but they’re older and I’m going to teach them safety.”

“I don’t know anything about all that,” I said.  “I don’t know what that is, or that, or that,” I said, pointing at random stuff.  “How are we supposed to supervise David when we don’t know anything about it?”

“Because you will at least know not to touch stuff when you don’t know what it is.  David here will just plow in and get himself shocked.  Eat some lunch, and then we’ll spend the afternoon learning what all this stuff does.”

“But…  I have that assignment…”

“I’m the teacher,” he said.  “You can do the assignment later.  This is your lesson for this afternoon, while I have some time.”

So he spent the afternoon teaching us the basics.  I still don’t understand nearly any of it, but he was very clear on safety.  That part I think I got.  But I guess it’ll come with practice.

I guess.

After dinner, I just kind of sat on the couch quietly.  Sabby sat down next to me and asked me what was wrong.

“I’m pretty smart, Sabby,” I said.  “Or at least you keep telling me that.  But I understood none of what Dave taught us today.  There were bits and pieces and things with wires and screens and all sorts of stuff that Dave told me and I’ve already forgotten!  It’s like Dave just threw an entirely different language at me!”

She sighed.  “Look, Lily.  You have to understand.  When it comes to school, there’s just the three of you, and you have different interests and you’re rather far apart in age.  You’re sixteen, probably better at languages and art than science and technology.  Beth’s really smart, but her strengths are math and science.  And David has always been really into computers and technology, but he’s too young to play with that stuff without someone older present.  The three of you made clear to us that you needed to be challenged more and, well, this is one way we listened to you.  You think you’re the only one who’s going to get something out of your comfort zone?  David’s gonna learn another language if it kills him.”

“Really?  Which language?”

“I don’t know, but if he doesn’t choose, it’s going to be Spanish and Japanese.  Japanese because you’re already studying it and can teach him.  Just like he can teach you computers and electronics.  And Beth’s learning piano.”

I sighed.  “I don’t like it.”

“It’s not that bad,” she said.  “Who knows, you might decide you like it.  And if not, at least you learned something.”

“I guess.”  I stood up and walked up here.

Maybe I will.  But I’m not good at science!  I’m good at Japanese!  And piano!  And…  and what else?

Sigh.  I so hate it when Sabby’s right.

Love you all!!! ❤