Hi! It’s me! Lily!
Dave’s doing a bit better today. I guess some days are just harder than others. Sabby wasn’t upset at me. I didn’t think she would be, but I’m still a little careful. Maybe I shouldn’t be, but I am.
You know, I don’t think I’ve ever been truly angry when I’ve written here. Hurt, yes, sad, even frustrated… angry at the virus, maybe, but no one’s ever made me angry enough to want to vent here. I’m just not an angry kinda girl, I guess. What’s the point in being angry? You hit something, or someone, or yell, or scream, and generally things are worse than when you left them. But, I guess anger can be a good motivator. Sometimes when Sabby’s pissed off stuff gets cleaned. There’s no clean like rage-clean. Dave just goes quiet and walks away. Somehow that’s worse, because you get the feeling that he’s barely controlling himself.
But he does and that’s the important thing. He usually snaps out of it. But it can take a little bit.
Of course, I’ve seen Beth angry. We won’t say any more about that.
There’s so much to be angry at, but why? I can’t think of a single thing that will get better by getting angry at it.
Anyway, I started looking for a part time job today. Well, that’s how the day started. It’s an odd world out there right now, Dave tells me I’m in a really good position, I’ve got pretty much my pick of jobs, just for the taking. There are help wanted signs everywhere. So I decided I didn’t want to do fast food if I could avoid it, instead I went down to the convenience store down the street and applied there – you know, the one Beth hangs out at. It’s a nice store, with a gas station, well lit, all that kinda thing. I just basically walked in and said “I need a job, are you hiring?”
I thought the owner was going to roll the red carpet out! His only questions were “can I depend on you?”, “what hours can you work?”, “are you legal to work?”, and “when can you start?” He’s gonna pay a really good starting wage, and will train me up! It’s a little scary, but I think it’ll be alright! Dave’s happy for me. He took me aside and gave me this advice: “Showing up on time and working your full shift really is half the battle, the rest will just determine how well you can advance.” I didn’t really believe him, but he said “I’ve been working for many years, trust me. Just be dependable and willing to learn, and any good manager will bend over backwards to keep you. And if they don’t, then they’re a bad manager and move on.” Both he and Sabby said they’d have my back if I keep my end of the bargain and it doesn’t work out.
I really appreciate that.
So I start next weekend. Yay! Their lawyer tells me that being adopted by them makes me legal to work, there’s just a few hoops to go through, but should be a piece of cake.
I’m only going to work weekends for right now. The manager wanted me to work more but school comes first, and we’ll see how it works out. Maybe once I’m trained up I can work a few hours a week in the evenings. I’m limited by state law how much I can work anyway. I just got the feeling he just needed a warm body.
Plus I get to keep an eye on Beth and her friends!
Anyway, I should get some sleep. I’m not gonna stay cute with bags under my eyes!
Love you all!!! ❤️