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Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

So…  this morning, I had that chat with cat-girl.  She came over while everyone else was at church.  She usually takes the evening shifts (for what should be fairly obvious reasons) so, it was fine.

I’ve never seen her dressed in “normal” clothing, before.  I mean, it still managed to be a bit risqué, but that’s just because she’s cat-girl.  It’s very cold today, so she was wearing a sweater and jeans.

I made her some hot tea, which she seemed to appreciate.  I’m not kidding, it really is cold out there today.

We sat in the living room… and it was quiet for a bit.

“I don’t know why Sabby wanted me to talk to you,” she said softly.  “I mean, I like you and everything, but you’re…  not like me.  You wouldn’t understand.”

I thought.  “Maybe it’s because I’m not like you that she wanted us to talk.”

She was quiet for a bit, then sighed.  “I guess so.”

“I’m not your boss right now”, i said softly.  “I don’t much like to play boss anyway, and we’re not on the clock, so if that worries you -”

“NO,” she said, a little louder than strictly necessary.  “No,” she said, a little softer.  “It’s fine.  But…  but…”

“But what?”

She was quiet.

“Why do you want to keep the baby?”, I asked.  I was actually genuinely curious.  “I know you’ve… had other chances.  Why now?”

She sipped on her tea.  “Because…  Katie seems so happy.  It’s…  like she was made for this.  And Sabrina’s so…  cute“, she started gushing.  “Those little hands and feet…  and…  and…”  she tapered off.

“Are you happy?”, I asked.  It seemed like the right question to ask.

And the tears started.  She wasn’t crying, but…  she was definitely in the right frame of mind to.

“When I said you wouldn’t understand… you… wouldn’t understand.  Any of it.  I don’t know why I do all the things I do, not really.  It’s fun.  It really is.  When I drink it’s like I can stop being myself for a little while, and when I dress up like someone else, it’s like I can stop being myself for a little while, and…” she looked down.  “And I wake up the next morning and I’m myself again, so I just do it all over again.”

“It doesn’t sound like you like being yourself.”

She shook her head.  “I guess not.  All I’ve got are…” and she looked down and jiggled.  “What else do I have?”

“A lot more than you think,” I said.  “What did you want to be when you grew up, when you were a child?”

“Not this,” she said sadly.  “You’ll laugh at me.”

“I won’t.”

“A housewife.”

I didn’t laugh.  But I gotta admit I snickered a little.  She started blushing.  I waved my arms, you know, anime style.

“No, no, it’s just… it’s the last thing I would ever have expected you to say.”

She seemed to accept that.

“Well…  do you still feel that way?”

“A little…”

“Well, you’re not going to get there from here.”

“I know,” she said, sniffling.

“Do you know what my Japanese friends call me?”

“What?”

“A walking shrine.”

Her turn to snicker.  “A… what?”

So I told her all about what happened to me that made me lose my memories, and what I had to trade for it, and what I got in trade.  And then I told her why so many big things seem to happen around me.

“Can… you…?”:

“I can’t do anything.  But…  ‘walking shrine’ isn’t a terrible way to describe what I am.”  I don’t know why but I reached over and put a hand on her head.  It felt like the right thing to do at the time.

Then…. I started speaking.  It was like that time at church…  but I didn’t seem to mind it quite so much this time.  Maybe because it wasn’t me announcing to the whole world that I’m a walking shrine…

“My daughter Anathema, what a lonely life you life.  Even though you have many ‘friends’, are very popular, and never want for companionship, you are so lonely you don’t know what to do with yourself half the time.  You smile on the outside, and you cry on the inside.  Your life is full of meaningless relationships, shining on the outside and hiding a rotten stink.  It can end today.  Your dream is not out of reach.  What will you do?”

She was… sobbing now.

“I… want… more,” she said, softly.

“Give it all up,” I said, “and more will be returned to you.  Remember, it is not instant, it is a process, but your new life begins today.” And a light came out of my hand, the same kind of light that came out of the machine, and she collapsed onto the sofa.

“She will be fine,” I heard in my head.  “Make her something to eat, she will need it.  And…” I heard a snicker in my head.  “Walking shrine?”

“What else would you call it?”, I asked, softly.

“You are not a walking shrine,” the voice said, though sounding amused.  “That is a way of describing what you are, but not a complete one.”

“Then what am I?”

“Ark”.

And the voice was quiet.

I laid her down on the couch and went to make her some hot chocolate and some instant ramen.

I put them in front of her just as she was sitting up.

“What happened?  I.. I have the biggest headache…  OH.”  She feel quiet.  “Did that really happen?”

“Walking shrine…  remember?”  I frowned.  “Ark.”

“Ark?”

“I don’t know either.  That seems to be what I am.”

She slurped down some ramen.  “That hits the spot… I’m so hungry for some reason.”

“Anathema?”, I said.  “I thought your name was Annie.”

“It means ‘set apart'”, she said.  “I don’t know why my parents named me that.  I….”

“Well, maybe we do now.”

We sat there for a while, while she finished her ramen and hot cocoa.

“What will you do?”, I asked.

“I don’t know,” she said.  “What should I do?”

“When these kinds of things happen,” I said, “my experience is:  just wait and see what happens.  Don’t try to force it.  It’ll be alright.”

She smiled wanly.  “I guess so.”

The family came home from church right then.

“Annie?  Everything….  you look different,” Sabby said.  “What happened?”

“Lily happened.”

“Oh.”, Sabby said, as if that explained absolutely everything.  And maybe it did.

She spent the afternoon with us before going to work. 

While she was here, the girls came over to practice for our band, and she watched.  Diana was pretty wary of her, but I just said she’s spending the day with our family and just let her be, she won’t jump anyone.  They giggled a little, and I guess that was enough, because we practiced.  Crystal keeps improving, but…  she still has a long way to go.  Aww.  Cat-girl – I mean Anathema – was just kind watching, with an unreadable expression.  I think… maybe she was a little jealous.

She has lots of friends.  But the four of us… we’re sisters.

Later, she looked a little conflicted.  “I…  I want to buy something cute today.  Not like I normally wear.  Cute.  You know, like you all wear.  I don’t know if I have anything cute.  All I have is.. skimpy.”  She got a strangely distasteful look on her face.  “Can we go to the mall?”

So…  we went to the mall, all of us girls.   She bought something really…  actually tasteful.  It was still a little skimpy and a little sexy, but…  it was more like something you’d wear to a club than something you’d wear on, well, that site.

And for cat-girl, I mean Anathema, well…  I guess that’s something, after all.

I don’t know if Diana’s warming to her.  I don’t blame her if she doesn’t.  But…  Anathema was oddly subdued, and, well…  she was on her best behavior.  Keep that up, and maybe things will start to change.

Now….  I need to find out what an ark is.

Oh…. in completely other news… I know what to do for Dave on his birthday, and everyone else is all on board.  This’ll be fun.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Notes from the creator

I spent pretty much all day today working on this site, and even then I didn’t get half of what I needed to do, done.  There are still a few CSS errors that I have to stamp out, but I fixed as many as I created.  I added a table of contents so now every diary entry is easy to find, and I’ll be spending the next who knows how long going back and curating all the posts and series so things can be found, etc.  I also, well, added this.  This way I can “break the fourth wall” if I need to.  I’ll try not to do it often, but sometimes it’s necessary.

Today we find out a little more about Lily, and cat-girl, I mean Anathema as well, in the process.  What will this lead to?  We’ll find out.

Also, there is another plot line that occurred to me today, and it had me laughing so hard to myself that I just absolutely have to do it.  So look for something really fun before this diary closes by around September.

Along with that, we have two concerts coming up, probably at least one trip to Japan, a prom, and graduation.  Sakura no hanabiratachi ga saku koro…

And now I’m going to watch anime and forget about this site for tonight.  Only eight hours of work…

This diary entry is part 13 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

HI! It’s me! Lily!!!

A lot to talk about today!!!

It’s getting really cold now.  Supposed to not go above freezing tomorrow.  Aww.  Hope our pipes survive.

So….  now for the interesting stuff…  I found out what’s going on with cat-girl.

She’s pregnant.

Normally, this wouldn’t be a big deal for her.  She has… ways of dealing with it, and has before.  But… she met Katie’s baby.  Now she thinks she might want to keep it.

Sabby told her she’d support her (well, not literally, but you know what I mean) if she does, and that we treat our people like family, but if she decides to go through with it, she’d better shape up her act, because she can mess around all she wants when she doesn’t have a baby to take care of.  Sabby told her that we’re not going to enable her messing around and leaving the baby with us.

She’s…  really being thoughtful about it.  That’s a first for cat-girl.  She’s not dumb, but usually she’s out partying and drinking and… maybe other stuff too… and taking home every man who looks at her twice and some who don’t.  Heck, even a few women who look at her twice (she’s never asked me, she thinks I’m pretty hot but she’s has a good thing with me and Sabby and she’s not gonna mess it up.  Yeah, she told me that directly.  Good plan.  Not that I would anyway, but at least she has limits.  Plus I’m technically her boss, though I don’t need to play that role most of the time).  But Sabby’s right.  If she wants to keep that baby, time for her to grow up.

Sabby wants me to talk to her a little as well.  Not because I have too much life experience to offer, but, you know, walking shrine and all that.

I hope it works out.  I think cat-girl would make a good mother if she can get her act together.  No one’s asking her to stop being herself, just that she can’t be selfish anymore.

She doesn’t know who the father is, though, and she’s not sure she can find out.  That’s… sad in itself.  But, modern genetic testing is pretty thorough (ask Emiko), so, maybe she’ll luck out.

I hope it works out for her.  It’s always nice to welcome another baby into the world, and maybe it’ll help cat-girl grow up a bit too.

Love you all!!! ❤️

From the creator:

Went back through all the posts today and fixed a bunch of errors with the date, and retracted some posts that no longer make sense based on the way this diary has evolved.  All this in preparation for adding a “series” feature that (hopefully) allows for better readability.  These additional notes will be slowly appearing on all entries that need them, and the entries will be slightly reworded so that the “sausage-making” isn’t in the diary entry itself – where it makes sense.  This allows the posts to be extracted into a story while maintaining the tech history in other parts of the database.  Also, you’ll note that this marks a shift in the tone of the story:  I’m sacrificing a little realism for the sake of the story flow.  As the story is beginning to come to an end, this seems appropriate and necessary.

This will not happen for every situation – sometimes Lily will have done something to the site and I want to maintain it as if she did.  In that case, it will be left in the story.

I will also be adding some “creator notes” to some story entries, but only as necessary.  I’m going to do that sparingly.

This diary entry is part 12 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

It’s Friday!  I like Fridays because all the girls come over and we eat pizza and chocolate and play games and do each others’ hair…  it’s fun!!!  Well, not for David but he has his own friends.  I don’t talk about it much but he does have boy friends (not boyfriends!) that come over and play games, and they play multiplayer games from their homes often.  Sabby yells at him a lot for his language…

Anyway…  so we’re all here…  and Sabby’s over at Katie’s house with cat-girl.  I’m not really sure what’s going on, but Sabby seemed a little… not upset, but intense.  I guess I’ll find out eventually.  No point worrying about it for now.  Oh, and Katie is back to work.  She has someone to take care of her baby, and sometimes we do it.  Beth even does babysitting sometimes.  But I don’t talk about it much, not because it’s boring, but because it’s… you know, routine?  Usually I talk about stuff here that’s really top of mind, and when it becomes a part of the furniture, I don’t talk about it as much.

Beth seems to like it, though that’s only for extraordinary circumstances.  A six month old is a lot of responsibility.  At least she’s not quite crawling yet.  Oh that will be fun.

Anyway, I spent today doing classes, and practicing, and other stuff that I do on a weekday.  It’s a lot of work, but fun, so it’s alright.

I know I talk about cat-girl a lot.  I’ve never actually told you her name!  Well, maybe someday.  I talk about her like she’s a… well… I guess I’ll come out and say it.  Slut?  Well, I guess she kind of is, if I’m being honest.  But she’s not bad.  She’s got a good heart, and she really does care about her customers and “fans”.  It’s too bad they really don’t return the favor.  She also kind of… likes to show off, and I don’t really think it’s healthy.  Yes, she makes us a lot of money, but Sabby and I both feel like we’d be willing to take the hit if she’d.. tone it down a bit.  We never, ever pressure her.  She just seems to want to do it.  She’s such a hard worker, too.  She really puts her everything into… it.  Her everything.  If you know what I mean.  We have to actively stop her from putting her everything into it… not just for moral reasons, but legal reasons too.  As our signs say.. we’re a maid cafe, not a house of ill repute.

I’d never do it. Heck, Crystal’s the wildest of us, and even she thinks cat-girl is a bit… too much.  Diana stays far away from her.  I guess I can’t really blame her, if I’m being honest.  I don’t, but I also don’t get involved with her… stuff.  I hope she… umm… grows up a bit eventually.  Maybe that’s part of what’s going on now?  I don’t know.

Speaking of putting her everything into it, Minami’s having a blast right now.  She says it’s hard work but really fun.  They idol agency is working on a marketing blitz for her.  That’ll be fun to watch.  I wonder what her nickname will be!  It can’t be Takamina, that’s taken.  Maybe Minataka?  Hahaha.  Well, we’ll see.  I think she actually needs to be careful, her name comes with a lot of baggage, both good and bad, because she shares it with another much more famous former idol.

Okay, well, they’re calling me back for more games, so… guess I’ll go now.

Love you all1!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 11 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

More practicing today!!!  Awww!!!  But it’s kinda fun.  Maybe not for everyone who has to listen to me repeat the same thing over and over, but as Dave would say, it is what it is, right?  Shikataganai, can’t be helped.  I have a meeting in a couple of weeks with the conductor to go over it.  I’m not expected to have it perfect by then but at least I should understand what the piece is about.

I guess Crystal is busy practicing too.  Gotta hand it to the girl, she’s sticking with it.  I wasn’t really expecting her to.  I mean, I’m sure she meant it, but learning an instrument is hard work, especially if you’ve never played an instrument or any kind of music before.  But she’s picking it up, I guess.  Even if it doesn’t lead to anything – and it probably won’t – at least she’s learning a pretty useful skill.  Maybe it’s hard to make money with it but it never hurts to know how to play a guitar, right?

Oh, Minami heard back!  She’s in!!! She’s going to be an idol!  But she has to go to the facility and do some training first.  I guess they make them do some exercises and learn how to dance and everything.  They were a little critical but said she has a lot of raw talent and they want to see how far she’ll go.  For her part, she’s over the moon!!!  She video chatted me and I thought she was going to glomp me through the screen!  She’s going to have a heart to heart with her father and see if he’ll put her up in an apartment closer to the studios in Tokyo. (She lives in Saitama if you didn’t remember). If not, well, she may find another place to live for a while.

Her mother is upset, but she doesn’t really seem to care.  From what I hear, I can’t really blame her.  Her father isn’t there, but he’s generally supporting her, and has promised to sign any contracts on her behalf that he has to.  Which gained him no favor with her mother, but I’m not sure he cares all that much either.  It sounds like he might work so much just to get away from her, but I don’t know either of them, so I have no way of telling for sure.

Oh well.  This diary isn’t really a place for talking about Minami’s family situation, is it?

Oh, I have a picture of Diana!  First one I posted here!  She’s really pretty, isn’t she? And I found a more safe for work (and everything else) photo of cat-girl too.  I’ll post that too.  We all love cat-girl but she’s, ummm…  something else, sometimes.

It’s supposed to get really cold early next week.  Awww.

Yuki asked me to give me Minami’s contact info.  She wants to have a heart to heart.  She’s happy for Minami, but… she knows some things.  There’s a reason she left the industry.  I’ll ask Minami before doing that, of course.  For my part, I think Yuki being Minami’s senpai is a great idea.

Love you all!!! ❤️

 

 

This diary entry is part 10 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Today was another boringly boring day.  I went to classes and did a lot of practicing, and that’s pretty much all I did.  There’s so much to learn!  There are some parts of that concerto that are a little challenging.  I hope I can pull it off.  I think my constant practicing annoys Sabby, but she never says anything.  I think she appreciates the finished product, even if she’s not too keen on the process.

Dave’s birthday is still coming up.  I need to buy or make or something him a present.  I never know what to get him, though.  Men are so hard to figure out what to give them.  I know he likes to grill and pressure wash.  I’ve given him all the grill stuff I can think of.  Hmm.  I have an idea or two.

I hope they’re decent ideas.  It’s still hard to figure out what to get him.

It’s supposed to get really cold next week!  Awww.  But it doesn’t look like it’ll rain or snow much, so it’ll just be cold.  Cold sucks, ice sucks far worse.  Especially here.

I have some new pictures of me and my friends!  I’ll post them below.  The ones with cat-girl, though…  umm… no.  Crystal’s is scaled wrong – she’s actually the shortest of us all!!! You’ll see in group photos.  She looks angry.  She’s not always angry, but sometimes…  sometimes it shows.  And I don’t blame her at all.

And, of course, Liz is beautiful as always.  She complains sometimes about the size of her chest, but none of us care at all, and neither does her boyfriend, apparently, so it’s all good.

Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 9 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Well, we’re back to boringly boring days.  It was cold and windy today.  Yesterday it rained a bit, but today was nice, just really cold and windy.  I went out for my run and needed a tracksuit!  Aww!!!

But it warmed up a little, yay.

Minami had her audition today.  Well… last night for me.  She said it went very well, but they were going to take some time to talk amongst themselves.  They scheduled her for fitting of a costume, though… so maybe that’s a good sign.  She said her mother’s really pissed off, but she doesn’t care.  She’d feel differently if her mother was actually disabled, but she’s just a useless alcoholic (according to Minami) so as far as she’s concern, she’s made her bed.  If her father wants to man up and take care of her…

Man, she gets a little bitter.

She’s been talking to Yuki’s parents about having a fallback place to stay if she needs it.  They’re not opposed to it but don’t think it’s the right time.  They might be right, but oh well.  We’ll see what happens, I guess.

Apparently idols who are pretty like she is and can actually sing aren’t very common, so she’ll go far.

The shop’s calmed down a lot now that the holiday’s over.  Now we have to take everything to the accountant and get our taxes filed, etc.  I used to do that but I think it’s better if someone more qualified than me does it, I kind of gave up.  At least I tried.  We had a really good year.  I mean, maybe it wasn’t a banner year, but we are well in the black, and we might even be able to afford a bonus (don’t tell cat-girl yet, who knows what she’ll buy before she has the money in hand…  bet it’s naughty… that girl…)  But we’ll see what the accountant says.  As I keep saying.. they’re no denying she and the other girls are a major draw.

We’re getting lots of inquiries from Japan about if or when Yuki’s going to hold another concert.  We’re not sure.  It’s all up to Yuki.  She does seem to have fun, though…  so, I guess we’ll see what she thinks.

Who’d have thought a little shop in Round Rock would be so popular in Japan?  It’s kinda weird.  Maybe it’s another consequence of my being a “walking shrine”.

I don’t think we’re all going to Japan this summer.  For Sabby and family it was a once in a lifetime thing (well, you know what I mean), for my friends it was really fun but they’re not all that interested in Japan like I am… Emiko might want to, but truthfully, if I’m going to college it’ll just be going home and then going right back, and what’s the point in that?  I guess we’ll figure it out.  I might go to Japan to see Minami perform if she ends up as big as I think she might.  That would be fun.  But then it’ll probably be just me.

Alright… I practiced my cute little tushy off today so I’m going to park that cute little tushy in bed with a warm dog to keep me company, so…

Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 8 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Well, back to practicing after the holidays.  I really love the piece I’m learning – Saint-Saens’ concerto #2.  Technically, it’s hard but not that hard.  It’s really hard musically though.  Every note is important and even just messing one up slightly can take you entirely out of the piece.  It’s really emotional too.  I played it for Yuki (well, I found a youtube video) and she started tearing up.  “It’s just so passionate“, she said, softly.,

It is, I  guess.  I really hope I can do it justice.

The third movement is awful though.  Where the first movement is relatively simple but passionate, the third movement is the opposite.  Technically difficult but kind of just smacks you in the face.

Liz wants to start practicing for her recital too.  I don’t know where I’m going to find time!  Oh well.

I would actually buy a real piano, but if I’m leaving for Japan in a few months…

Oh.  Speaking of which…  I started filling out the application to Meiji though.  It’s difficult because I don’t have a real transcript, and I’m not sure what to do.  I guess I need to sign up to take the SAT tests.  I guess there are some times available the end of Feb., so I guess I should get to studying for that too.  More stuff to do!  Arrrgh!

I need to send them a mail and ask them what they require.  I guess they’re a little different than Japanese colleges, because they’re kind of like a western college in Japan… well, kind of.

It helps that I can pay for it in cash, though.  No need for a scholarship or anything.  Though I guess I should see if I qualify for one anyway, why spend money I don’t have to?

Oh well.  Lots to do.  I’ll try to keep posting here though!!!

Minami has her audition soon.  I hope it goes well!!!  It’s funny how I have one friend who was a very famous idol and got sick of it, and another who has a very real chance of actually becoming an idol or singer.  I wonder how that will work out.  Maybe they’re right that I’m just a walking shrine.  Things just seem to happen to me and people around me.  Mostly good… but not always, it seems..  I asked Yuki if her parents would take in Minami if she needs it.  She said they seemed to get along, but…  I don’t think it’s their first option, but she doesn’t think they’d let her be homeless.  Besides, if she gets a job as a singer or an idol, she’d just need a bit of help until she can support herself.

Ganbatte, Minami.  We’re all rooting for you.

Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 7 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Our band stinks!!!

But it’s getting better.

Everyone’s actually been practicing… which actually surprises me a little.  No one’s actually given up yet.  I mean, there’s been a lot of stuff going on this holiday, but Crystal came prepared and she’s been really making progress.  She…  she’s passable now.

I don’t mean good.  She really can only do like three chords, but she’s shifting through them pretty well and seems to be getting comfortable with her instrument, so that’s good.

I’ve been looking back on my posts, and there are so many things I talked about and then let drop.  Some of them were just because life got in the way – I mean, i wanted to learn how to make chocolate, and I got all the stuff, and never really did!  I should go back to that.  Thankfully, baker did, so we still have homemade chocolate, but it’s not like I’d make!  Baker’s a baker, I’m a connoisseur!!! Haha!!!

Minami’s got her audition this week.  I hope it goes well.  I think it will.  She told me she had a big blow up with her mother, and called her father and basically told him that if things didn’t change, she was going to leave soon and if she did she might not talk to either of them much ever again.  He kind of blew her off…  so, well, she might have to call that bluff.  I guess we’ll see how it turns out.  I wonder if Yuki’s parents would take her in.

I wonder if that’s a good idea.  But they do seem nice and they seem like they’d at least support her.

He doesn’t seem horrible, it’s just… he’s got his work and that’s what he does.  He doesn’t really pay much attention to things that go on at home.  But neglect is its own form of abuse, right?

Things are pretty quiet at the shop.  They were bustling for a while, with Christmas and the concert and everything, but now they’ve quieted down.  Sabby had to talk to cat-girl – again – she dressed up for Christmas.  She wore a festive red and green ribbon, and, well….  nothing else.  It covered everything but just barely.  At least it was more than a few inches wide.

Girl just doesn’t seem to get the concept of don’t piss Sabby off.

Sabby puts up with it, though, because, as I’ve said, man does she drive the business.  That was one of our higher grossing days.

Sigh.  It feels like we’re making a deal with the devil, though, sometimes.

I wonder if someday Sabby will be like “if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em”, and that’s when I’ll just throw my hands up and ride off into the sunset, never to be seen again.

Dave’s birthday is coming up soon.  I wonder what we’ll do…

Love you all!!! ❤️

 

This diary entry is part 6 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

HI! It’s me! Lily!!!

I HAVE SOME PICTURES!!!!

I was looking through my pictures and found one of Crystal I thought I’d share… and… um… one of cat-girl.

Well, you know cat-girl.  That one’s going behind a subscriber-wall.  I’ll show you her face, though.

Here we go!!!

Crystal

She likes to dress like that.  It’s cute, but I think she’s trying to say something?  I’ve never asked her what.  I should.

And…  here’s cat-girl.

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She… um… likes to dress like that.  See why we have to keep her reined in?  That is…  less revealing than what she wore on Halloween.

WAY less revealing.

Anyway… here’s her face.

 

She’s really, really pretty.  I mean, I guess you have to be to be in, her… ummm… line of work.   But I kinda wish she’d… tone it down.

Anyway, I’m looking for other pics of me and my friends, too.

This diary entry is part 5 of 28 in Lily's diary dated 31 - January 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

(There’s subscriber content in this post… and it’s not PG-13, it’s R.  I’m not worried about Patreon anymore.)

And I have NEWS!!!!!

You know how usually we have the girls over on Friday nights and we eat pizza and play games and make girl-piles?  Well, that didn’t happen last night.  I think Beth did have the girls over, but Jack wanted to go out with me.  So, well, we went out.

He asked me to his prom!!!!

I’ve never been to a prom!!!

He said he didn’t really want to go, but he felt like it was important, and I was the only one he’d consider going with.

Of course I said yes.

I mean, I’m homeschooled.  I’ll never get a prom if I don’t go with someone else!  And, I don’t think i’d go with anyone but Jack anyway.  So…  add “prom” to my list of things to do this year!!!

I have a nice dress, so I’m not too worried about all that.  He said he explicitly does not want to make it a huge deal where I wear an expensive dress and he wears an expensive tux and rents a limo and all that kinda stuff.  He just wants a memory… with me.

Awww.

I love that about Jack.  Some people might think he’s really lax about things that are important.   I think he takes things seriously that are important, but doesn’t care much about things that aren’t.  Besides, we’re already dating.  We don’t have a whole lot to prove to each other, and he knows it.

We did go back to his house – his parents were off on a date and Grace had a sleepover with one of her little friends, and, well, it’s been far too long since we’ve had time alone like that. 

We talked a while about the future while we were cuddling, and we’re both a little scared.  It’s really easy to play boyfriend and girlfriend, but soon we’re going to have to make some hard and very adult decisions.  I’m pretty sure I’m going to Japan, that is, of course, if I’m accepted, and we’re pretty sure he’s, well, not.  But he tells me he can’t imagine being with another girl, and even if I’m in Japan, he can’t imagine finding someone else that could possibly match up to me.

I kinda feel the same way.  It just wouldn’t feel right if I were with someone else, even if we were to break up.  I don’t want to break up just because it would be inconvenient… that just feels so wrong.  Breaking up with him just so I can find someone who’s there just seems… disrespectful somehow.  Thankfully he seems to feel the same way.

The compromise I’ll probably have to make is… I’ll probably have to bring him to Japan for visits.  He might not be able to afford the trips.  I…  think I can do that.  It’s not that expensive and the shop has been doing well….

His parents came home while we were cuddled up watching a movie together, and we had a bit of a chat before I went home.  They worry about us… and maybe they’re right to, if I’m being honest.  For many different reasons.  But they do approve.  They think I’m a good girl.  Maybe I am.

Anyway, we’re going to practice for the band with the girls tomorrow.  I wonder how much Crystal has improved.  Yuki has been working with Beth too.  Beth’s like a sponge.. she’s good at everything she really wants to do.

Oh.  Today I changed things around a bit on the site.  I think this font is a little more readable, and I finally deactivated a few plugins I wasn’t using.  Hope that speeds things up a bit!!!

Love you all!!! ❤️