This diary entry is part 25 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Happy Leap Year!!!

Ummm… what’s leap year?  The last one was…. before the “accident”.  So I don’t remember.

Oh well.

So Yuki came over tonight and I asked her about my question.  You know, the one I had last night.

She took a while to think about her answer.

“No idol ever becomes an idol because they want to be part of the idol industry”, she said.  “Or very, very few do.  Most idols become idols because they like singing and dancing and being famous for singing and dancing, and… if you’re an idol, you get to do all those things.”  She looked a little wistful.  “You get to shine,” she said softly.  “Thousands of people you are shining for.  You’re in the business of making people happy.”  Then her face turned darker.  “Then producers get their hands into it, and you, and…” She sighed.  “That wasn’t your question.”

“And you?”

“Some producers aren’t nice people,” she said.  “My parents taught me martial arts.  They only tried it once.”

She was quiet for a bit.  “You get to shine,” she finally said.  “I miss shining.  A lot, sometimes.”

We just sat there for a little while.  She said, finally, “I watched you play, last week.  You play very well.  You play better than any idol I’ve ever met.  But… you don’t dance.”

“What do you mean?”

“You don’t dance,” she said.  “We dance to express things through our bodies, to say things that we can’t say with words.  You do that with music.  But you don’t dance.  Your fingers don’t dance, your body doesn’t dance, your piano doesn’t dance.  Here, let’s go play something.”  So I went downstairs with her, and she told me to play something.  It didn’t matter what, just something.  So I played the opening chords of the concerto I’m practicing.  And she started dancing.

I don’t think she was doing anything really special.  Just an idol dance where she waved her arms around and pranced a bit.  And…  it made the music better.  It was like she was taking everything the music was saying and turning it into motion, and it was so fluid.  I just stopped playing and looked at my fingers and the piano.  She was right.  It was dull.  The music was dull.  I wasn’t dancing.

“Dance,” she said, softly.

“I don’t know how.”

“No,” she said.  “Sit there, play, and dance“.

And… it was like the music exploded.

Things came out of it I’d never heard before.  Textures, colors…  it was beautiful.  And it was coming from my fingers.

She just looked smug.  “That  is why I became an idol,” she said.  “Maybe… maybe there were better ways.  But…  that’s why.  That’s why we become idols, that’s why we sing and dance for producers who don’t care about anything but money and just use us until we can’t be used anymore and toss us away with a big, fake tearful graduation concert.  That’s why we do it.  We get to sing and dance, and we get to make people happy with our smiles.  Do you understand now?

“Not exactly,” I said, softly.  “But I think so.”

Now I had to completely start over with my piece.  Thankfully I don’t have to relearn any of the notes.

Sigh.

I called my piano teacher and asked her about it, and she just sighed.  “Sometimes…  there are things we can’t really teach.  We try, but sometimes…  we have to wait for a time when you’re able to listen to what we have to say.  You weren’t there yet.  But I’m glad Yuki was able to explain it to you.  Now I’m really looking forward to your concert.”

“Yuki…  do you want to dance again?”  I asked her, later.

She looked wistful.  “Maybe someday.”

“I’ll talk to the conductor.”

“That’s…  ”  she ran up and glomped me.

“He’ll probably say no,” I said, while being glomped.  “That’s not really typical for a classical concert.  It’s… unheard of if it’s not ballet.”

“But I love you for trying”, she said, softly.

Putting idol style dancing in a classical concert.  That might be a hard sell.  But I’m going to try anyway.  Not just for Yuki.  Not just for anyone who might be dancing with Yuki.  But because, maybe, sometimes…  you do something that’s never been done before.  Maybe it’ll work.  Maybe it won’t.  But at least it’s never been done before.

As far as I know, anyway.

Love you all!!! ❤️

From the creator:

This could be an absolutely terrible idea.  But… this is who Lily is.  Supporting her friends to the end, and not afraid to push the envelope.  And who knows?  It might work out better than she ever thought.

One downside is, it’ll take attention from her.  But… maybe she doesn’t really see that as a downside.  I mean, whether or not pretty girls in cute costumes are prancing around, being a piano soloist requires exactly as much skill.

Plus…  once word spreads, Japanese fans of Yuki might come to see it, and “train onee-chan” to boot.  It’ll almost certainly be a full house, and the conductor will love that.  Even if she’s just dancing and not singing.  Though maybe the conductor can be convinced to do an orchestral rendition of one of her idol songs…  Sigh.  I actually have no idea whatsoever how this will turn out.

This diary entry is part 24 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

More practice today!!! I think it’s bugging the heck out of everyone, but there’s not a whole lot I can do about that, I guess.  It needs to be done.  Maybe I can see if there’s a piano or practice room at the college I can use… but I doubt it.  I don’t think they have a music program.

Aww.

They posted a video of one of Miki’s concerts on YouTube.  I’ve been watching it.  I also wathed some of Yuki’s concerts… and I’m a little conflicted.  I really am.  The thing is, I know these girls.  I know Miki, I know Yuki, I know Minami, and I know… a little, anyway… of the other girls in after-school friends idol light music club.  They’re such beautiful, sensitive souls who are so hurt, sometimes, by their life as an idol.

But…  their videos.  They’re amazing.  So much happiness, cheerfulness… they’re dressed in bright costumes, smiling, singing, dancing… and their audience loves them.  Waving their glow-sticks around, chanting, even doing wotagei in the audience.  I mean, I get it…  it’s kind of a cut-throat industry.  But I also get why they’re so popular.  Who doesn’t want that kind of happiness in their lives… and its their job to provide it?  Maybe I need to ask Yuki about it.  I can’t be the only one who wonders about this.  It’s such a… conundrum, I suppose.  Like two opposite things are true all at once.

So, in other news.  The police staked out Anathema’s old apartment… and they caught the guy who was trying to find her.  So that’s good.  I have a feeling – and Joe agrees – that it’s not like there’s this huge cabal of unbalanced men.  Just a couple who are causing all the trouble.  And, well, two are off the street now.  One was… well…  he had a personal reason, I guess.  Oh, btw… he hasn’t been released.  The judge set bail very, very high.

Well…  I’m not sure what else to talk about right now.  There hasn’t been a lot going on.  Just practice, practice, and more practice.  I can’t wait to actual play it!  You know how Miki said that there’s nothing like being on a stage in front of twenty thousand people?  Well, I wouldn’t know.  But… I kinda do.  I’ve been in front of a couple of thousand people, when I played that Schumann concerto last year.  And she’s right.  There.’s… nothing at all like it.  All those people cheering for me.  Well, and the orchestra, but me.  There’s no feeling like it in the world.  Not even when I’m with Jack.  No feeling at all like it.  I guess I understand why they stick with it even though it’s a hard and sometimes lonely job.

Oh, btw.  Speaking of Miki.  It seems their group had a team meeting… without the producer.  They were talking about their future… what they want out of it.  They decided they were going to try to be more unified in the future… to enjoy themselves as a group… as friends.  I don’t know how that will turn out, but I have a feeling it will be…  a very different group if they can pull that off.  A much better one, too.  You can have a group full of rivals singing and dancing and they can be cute and fun… but a group of friends looking out for each other?

I think the audience will be able to tell.

And I wonder if Nakamoto-san will know what hit him, haha!!!!

Anyway

Love you all!!! ❤️

From the creator:

There is a reason that Lily and friends have had an idol group, and a former idol, as a side story.  It’s because of the song “Idol” from Yoasobi.  There’s something about that song that really struck me, and I kind of wanted to explore that world a little.

But then, I’ve been watching “Love Live”, and it kind of struck me in the opposite way.  “Idol” is about the underbelly of the idol industry, the lies, the loneliness, the parasocial relationships and the complete lack of genuineness – to the point where Ai doesn’t even know what it means to love someone.  “Love Live” is about the fun aspect of being idols, where nine girls get to know each other and learn to sing and dance and claw their way to the top, but have all sorts of fun doing it.  There’s none of the underbelly of the idol industry, or, well, very little of it.  They’re school idols, all about having fun and, well, being schoolgirls and idols.  It’s a bright and shiny world without the darkness, and that has its own appeal.

I don’t really plan this story.  Sometimes the storylines track what’s on my mind (general themes, anyway) pretty closely (though very much filtered to come from the mind of an eighteen year old girl rather than a nearly fifty year old guy).  It’s both one of the strengths and one of the major weaknesses of what I’ve created here.  So what happens to the after-school friends idol light music club over the next few months might be really interesting.

Or, not.

By the way, “after-school friends idol light music club” is intended to be a pastiche, a parody of sorts.  It’s kind of what I would expect an idol group to be named if it’s kind of tracking K-on and Sakura Gakuin, et al., and has absolutely no sense of shame or moderation.  But then, what idol group really does have a sense of shame or moderation?  I mean, have you seen those costumes?  My eyes!!! My eyes!!!!

By the way.  At least until Lily gets to Japan for school, her involvement in the world of idols will only ever be ancilliary.  At least at the present time, she has no interest in being an idol, and very little interest in being in a band.  She just wants to support her friends.  That’s Lily, and that’s why we love her.  But, as we saw when she went to Japan to film that video, she’s not opposed to dipping a toe in the world and “riding the wave” of her small and very fleeting popularity.  She’s pretty smart.  She’ll keep her head on straight.

But it’s fun!!! And Lily’s always been all about the fun.  That’s just how she is.  I wrote her like that on purpose, because she’s…  not like me.  And that’s what makes her fun to write.

This diary entry is part 23 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

OMG I’ve been so BUSY!!!!

Practice practice practice practice practice practice eat sleep practice practice practice… and if I’m lucky, I get time to write a post.  Aww.

So… ummm…  what’s been going on.  Well, it turns out Anathema was right to move.  Someone broke into her old apartment.  It was empty.

But the security system at her new apartment is good.  They’ll detect someone trying to get in long before they succeed.  Joe installed one of those door stops too that prevent the door from opening at all if it’s locked from the inside.  So she’s feeling okay.  But I wish people would just give up.

The cops hanging around the shop seem to have deterred people there, anyway.  A couple of cops have taken to watching the bands perform, too.  It’s like free security… sort of.  We’re considering hiring an actual guard… but haven’t decided yet.

I’m going to play for the conductor again next week.  I think I’ll have it ready be then to work with the orchestra, but he wants to work with me a little first.  He and I both know why I was chosen, and it’s not because I’m the world’s best pianist.  But I’m good enough, I think.  He says he has faith in me.  I hope it’s not misplaced.

Yuki and Liz are over tonight.  They’re getting along pretty well… thankfully.

Well…  I guess time for bed soon.

Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 22 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

It was a day, I suppose.  Much like any other day.  I got up, ran, went to church…  I didn’t really have a message but the pastor and I did a little skit, which was fun.  He’s not a bad guy, especially since he’s kinda pulled the stick out after the supernatural beatdown he got through me.  I practiced a little, and the girls came over to do our band practice.

Crystal is still improving so much.  She’s nowhere as good I am musically, but technically… she’s better than all of us at the guitar.  That’s not hard, I suppose… but she’s also probably better than all of us at songwriting, and she’s still improving.  She also wrote a song for Beth.  It was just as sweet as the one she wrote for me, but it was a little more…  friend-romantic, I suppose.  If that’s a word.  She’s not interested in Beth that way but her feelings run very, very deep and very, very broad.  She loves Beth.  I mean she really loves Beth.  She would do anything in the world to see Beth smile, and…  she said as much in her song.

In fact, she apparently feels really, really bad about… what she did a couple of years ago.  Because it hurt Beth.  She really hates that she hurt Beth.  Beth slapped her, and she thinks she deserves it, and thinks Beth should have done worse.

Anyway, I saw her give the song to Beth, and then she kind of turned away, blushing a little, and picking at her guitar.

Beth read it…. tears sprang out, she ran over to Beth, took the guitar, put it down, and then crushed her in the biggest hug I’ve ever seen, crying hysterically.  Then Crystal started crying too, and, well…  we all did too.  It was one of those beautiful sister moments that you can’t plan but you always treasure.

I’m Crystal’s big sister.  Beth is.. just Crystal’s sister.  In every meaning of the word, and a few that don’t apply to me (a few meanings of “big sister” don’t apply to her either, but they’re different).

She promised Diana one, too.

I don’t know how deep her feelings are about Diana, but if they’re anything like the rest of us…  sisterhood means something to her.

And I love that about her.  I really love that about her.  Crystal is such a rough girl sometimes… battered, beaten down, hurt, hurt badly…  to the point where any one of us might not have survived.  She almost didn’t.  But her heart survived.  Her heart survived and it is so big, and…  all of her sisters mean everything to her.

I hope Crystal puts all these songs to music.  I think….  those songs may be her ticket.

Beth wants to write one, now, too.  I wonder how that’s going to turn out.

Maybe someday I’ll share the song she wrote for Beth, but they don’t want me to right now.  I guess it’s a bit personal for now.  I understand.

Anyway…  It’s a nice day out.  Marie got a long walk this afternoon, which, of course, she loved.  Dave grilled, which is always delicious.  And then the girls and I spent the evening watching anime.  They ended up going home, though, they have school tomorrow.

And I have school… and a LOT of practice.

Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 21 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

It’s 2/24/24!!!  Haha!! All the 2s and 4s!!!

Well…  today was Saturday.  Not a whole lot going on.  I played the concerto for the girls today.  It’s not the easiest thing with no orchestral part, but I guess it works out – they still thought it was really pretty.  I think it is too.  And pretty difficult, too.  Miki had the day off, so she was on a video call and listened too.

It’s funny how impressed they get.  Even Miki.  She’s a professional idol.  She’s been in front of 20,000 people, or more.  So has Yuki.  And both of them still seem to think I run rings around them.

Maybe I do?  Maybe we just measure success differently.  Maybe they have the right of it.  And, well, maybe not.

Later in the day we all went to help Anathema move.  She’d already boxed up all of the stuff that she didn’t want us to see (what, you expected her to just throw out all of her expensive costumes?)  and we helped pack up the rest of it.  Joe was around to make sure no one tried to mess with her while she was moving, and enlisted a few of his coworkers to make sure no one followed her to the new place.  She has a lot of stuff but it was pretty easy to box up, so it all worked out.  I guess she’s got the apartment for a little longer, anyway, but she’s not going to live in it anymore.

I don’t blame her.

It’s kinda sad.  I mean, it’s true, in a sense she brought it on herself by carrying on, but some people just take it way, way too far.

I do think she turned over a new leaf.  I really do.  But, at the end of the day, she’s still Anathema, and a little bit of cat-girl, and that will always be the case.  You don’t stop being you when you change, you just be a better you.  I guess.

She’s got a better security system at her new place than the shop, and, well…  I think it’s really necessary.  Unfortunately.

Anyway, Diana found a game at the drugstore called RoundRock-opoly, so we’re going to play it now.  I wonder who gets Dell Diamond?

Love you all!!! ❤️

From the creator:

I think I figured out today, why I started Lily, and why I still write her.

But I’ll tell you some other time.

This diary entry is part 20 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

I didn’t post last night… because I didn’t.  I’m not sure what else to say, I just didn’t feel like it.  I guess it happens sometimes.

All the girls are over tonight.  Of course there’s pizza and chocolate and all the stuff we love, but…  there’s each other too, and that’s better than all the pizza and chocolate in the world, I think.  Only a little bit better than chocolate, but it is, anyway.

I showed Miki the song Crystal wrote…  She wants Crystal to become an idol.  I’m not sure how I feel about that, and I’m not even sure it’s possible, but… I see why she’d feel that way.  Crystal has…  something.  Something important.  Something I didn’t see in her until recently.  She’s been through a lot in life, but it doesn’t really define her… she defines it.  This isn’t a quality everyone has.  She’d get up on stage and sing and dance and smile, and she wouldn’t do it to hide all the bad stuff, she’d do it in spite of all the bad stuff, she’d sing and dance and smile to tell all the bad stuff to go to hell and she’s going to have a good life anyway and take everyone along with her.

I thought she was learning guitar because she was scared of being homeless again… and it’s one reason.  I mean, she told me that.  But I think another reason is that she wants to take those homeless days and turn them into something beautiful.  She didn’t write me that song because she wanted to flatter me, she wrote me that song because that’s how she feels.

Maybe, of all my friends, of all my sisters… she might go the furthest.  If she can manage to survive it all.  That’s not a given, I guess.

But tonight, we’re just playing games and having fun. 

Anathema found another place to live and she’s moving in this weekend.  NOT with Joe – she asked and Joe flat out told her no.  Not because he doesn’t want to, but because she talks the talk, and she needs to walk the walk before he can fully trust her.

She understands.  She doesn’t like it, but she understands.  She spent a lot of time carrying on and making a reputation for herself.  It’s going to take her a while to live it down.

He is going to help her move, though.

And we’re getting a state of the art security system installed for her.  I think she’s proven need, and so does Sabby.

Anyway, I should get back to it.  They’re starting to call me onee-chan, and that never leads to anything good.

Tomorrow I’m going to perform that concerto for all of them.  First time I’ll have played it through for people.

Love you all!!! ❤️

From the creator:

I frankly just didn’t feel like posting last night, so I didn’t.  I try to keep that to a minimum, but some days are like that.

I’ve been watching “Love Live”.  It’s really good.  So far I’ve seen all sorts of things about how awful the idol industry can be, seeing how fun it can be is thought-provoking.  I guess it’s like Miki says, it’s not all bad.

This diary entry is part 19 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

I’m still a little floored by Crystal’s song.

One reason is, she added in some Japanese symbology I didn’t even know she knew!  And it’s.. ummm… interesting symbology.  She brought up Princess Kaguya, who was taken home to the moon, leaving someone behind.  That she might have picked up from “Love is War”, they did bring that story up.  I didn’t think she was paying attention!

But the other was… she said “the moon is beautiful”. That’s something Japanese people usually say just before, well, confessing.

I asked her if she knew what that meant, and she said yes, but she didn’t mean it quite that way.  She said the song is a confession of love, but in the Kumiko kind of way from “Sound! Euphonium”, not in the other kind of way.  But she said that all that being said, she meant what she wrote and doesn’t regret it and is going to be putting it to music soon.

How did she know that, though??

It’s not like she’s been studying Japanese culture… has she?

Hmm.

I feel like I’ve created a monster.

But the good kind.

I feel bad, really.  I love Crystal, but I didn’t think she was that intelligent.  I thought she was just this sweet girl who’d been thrown a lot of curveballs by life, but was really just average in most ways.  But…  I’m starting to think that’s really not the case.  She’s proving that when she really wants to, she can rival… well, maybe not Britni, but maybe Liz.

Maybe that’s a lesson to me, I guess.

Anyway, it’s been a pretty quiet day.  Yuki is over tonight.  Liz would be, but she has lessons and homework.  Maybe next time.

Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 18 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Crystal wrote me a song!!!

Here it is…

 

It’s dark outside, and the moon is shining

The frogs have much to say

If I could only understand them

I’m walking down the path of life

Death is all around me

But I’m not afraid

For some reason

I see a field

It stretches as far as I can see

No, farther than that

It’s red, or it would be red

If it were daytime

All these lilies are speaking to my heart

 

Chorus

The moon is beautiful tonight

And so is the field of lilies

They’re shining in the moonlight

Telling everything will be alright

The moon is beautiful tonight

I’m dancing in the field of lilies

Shine on me, moon, Shine on me

Keep the darkness away

 

I picked a lily

It’s red and beautiful

And it shines in my hand

Like the moon

That princess Kaguya returned to

But I won’t stay here

I won’t stay here and grow old

I’ll go to the moon

I’ll go to the stars

I’ll go to the ends of the universe

To keep this Lily

This close to my heart

 

Chorus

 

This Lily will grow old

It will wilt and fall apart

The leaves will fall off

And they will fall to the ground

But it doesn’t matter

It will protect me

It will always protect me

Suki yo… Daisuki yo

I love you, my big sister Lily

 

OMG…  I wonder if she even knows what she wrote there.

Maybe… maybe she does.

I don’t think her guitar is a flash in the pan anymore.  I think she’s going places.  Lots of places.  And maybe… I’ll be lucky if I’m the one who gets to follow her around sometimes.

Love you all!!! ❤️

 

From the Creator:

Yeah, I wrote this.  Sue me.

This diary entry is part 17 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Another boring Monday.  Monday Monday boring Monday.  Getsuyoubi!  Haha!!!

Getsuyoubi nanoni kigen warui no dosuruyo?  Natsufuku ga ii no desu kyawaii!!!!!

Well, they are!  Or they can be…

Some days my school uniform is pajamas, so…

Well.. mostly kidding.  Sabby wouldn’t let me get away with that.  But sweatpants?  That’s on the low end, but I’ve done that several times.

Not at college though…

Anyway… not a whole lot going on today.  Everyone’s just humming along.  Anathema seems like she’s on top of the world!!!  Even though… well.  That guy?  He’s getting the book thrown at him.  Let’s see if I can remember the charges.  Aggravated burglary (for having broken in to wait for her).  Menacing.  Stalking.  Intent to inflict grievous bodily harm.  Theft of a bullet…  I mean, they really threw the book at him.  I mean, Joe did get his bullet back, but it was damaged…

He’s not getting bail.  He’s been arraigned and is being remanded for trial.

Whatever that means.

He’s out of the hospital, but he’s not in much better shape.  He can’t really use his leg, and he’s stuck in a jail cell.  Poor guy.  NOT.

Anathema doesn’t have to testify, thank goodness.  Joe will, though.  I guess that’s one condition for the local police not trying to go after him for his use of lethal force (even though it wasn’t lethal) and letting his military chain of command deal with it.

He doesn’t mind.  He hopes the guy gets life.  And, well…. he just might.

Anathema is looking for another apartment, though.  Now that she knows she can be found, she thinks it’s better to go somewhere where it’s harder to find her.  That’s pretty smart.  And Joe’s teaching her to, well…   conceal carry.  I hope she never needs to use it.  So does she.

Joe’s being pulled off of detail, though.  Everyone involved (including his CO and Mrs. X) thinks everyone’s well guarded enough that he’s not needed anymore and he can go back to being security detail elsewhere.  We’ve got cops coming over to the shop constantly for free pastries, Anathema is staying with us until she can move, and I… well, I guess I can take care of myself.  I wonder how well my “gifts” work for defense.  I hope I never get to find out.

But, hey, he got a girlfriend out of the deal, so I guess he’s a winner after all.  And maybe a child too – though Anathema is absolutely going to find out who the father is after it’s born.  He’s not shirking responsibility that easily.  She just needs to find out first.  Joe’s open to adopting, but we’ll see.

I’ve almost got my piece down well enough to play it for the conductor.  Still working hard on it though, there’s a lot.  And Beth wants me to rehearse with her too, she’s really getting pretty good.  She wants to sing “idol”, as I said.  That’s great, I guess… I hope she doesn’t try to do the dance.  It seems disrespectful to the piece somehow to dance to it…

Anyway…  guess that’s all.

Love you all!!! ❤️

From the creator:

Not much going on in the story right now, we’re in kind of a lull.  Some fun stuff coming up for sure, but not every day can be fun and games, right?

Right?

No, Lily, we’re not going to a yuuenchi.  But she hasn’t been to a waterpark for a while, maybe we can fit that in for her.  Truth is, when I first started this, she went to the waterpark all the time.  I throttled that back, not because she lost interest, but because I looked up how much they cost.  The Typhoon Texas in Pflugerville is pretty cheap comparatively, but it’s only open from Memorial Day to Labor Day, give or take.  The indoor one in Kalahari is open year round, but is like $80 per person.  I was trying for realism, and even though Dave has a pretty good job, there’s no way they could keep that up at the same pace as they were.  So, that got axed.

I guess that’s realism, huh.

She still loves the waterpark though.  I think we’ll fit a visit or two in before the story ends.  Maybe as a graduation present.

Anyway…  gotta go.

This diary entry is part 16 of 25 in Lily's diary dated 32 - February 2024

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Well, it happened.  Joe and Anathema made it official.

It’s not like they’re rushing into anything.  Apparently Joe is very mindful of her past, her current condition, and, well…  the clothes stay on (well, mostly).  She seems a little frustrated by that but also seems to understand.  But he seems to have decided he can look past all that.

I’m happy for them.  I hope it works out.

Jack and I went out, too, last night.  This time we did go back to his place.  And we… ummm… played board games.  Yeah.  That’s the ticket.  We played board games.

I won.

Hahaha!!!!!

But that’s why I didn’t post last night.

Today we did the usual… went to church (I didn’t have any “messages” but I did have a pretty good joke), and after that, Crystal had us play through her new song.  Not gonna lie, it’s pretty good, actually.  Crystal seems to have a bit of a gift.  I hope she can find a healthy way to develop it.

Otherwise, just the usual.  Practicing, that kinda stuff.

Anyway… Yuki and Liz are over tonight, but it’s otherwise pretty quiet.  Guess I’ll get ready for bed.

Love you all!!! ❤️