Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!
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And Katie’s baby shower was today!!!
I’m… actually a bit confused, if I’m being honest.
So all the girls from the shop, and Sabby and Beth and I, and a few other folks showed up, and we all had gifts… and truthfully, I think the gifts were the whole point. She got cribs, and bottles, and diapers, and all sorts of stuff you’d need for a baby. And there were games, like “pin the tail on the baby” (not a real baby) and some other games that required a lot of squealing women to play. Katie seemed a little down, though. I waited for a quiet time when all the girls were stuffing their faces with cake and asked her what’s wrong.
She sniffled a bit… “It’s all becoming real now”, she said. “I’ve been pregnant, but… soon I’ll have an actual baby. And… and I don’t think I’ll be a good mother.”
“Why not?” I asked.
“Because I don’t have a good job or a degree or even a boyfriend, and I can’t really afford to have a baby. I don’t know what I’m going to do,” she sniffed.
I gave her a hug. “You’ve got us,” I said. “We’re not going to let you fail.”
She gave me a big hug and I could feel her sobbing against me. Aww. But then she wiped her eyes, found a tissue, blew her nose, smiled wanly, and we went back out to get some cake ourselves.
I told Sabby what happened, and what I said. She told Katie we’re not going to let her fail, and that’s a promise. And more sniffles all around.
It’ll be hard. Maybe we should try to find Katie a boyfriend. One who likes babies.
It was a pretty fun time, though. My ears were ringing from the squealing, Dave went over to her apartment after and put the crib together for her. That was nice of him.
I think Sabby’s gonna be doing some baby sitting.
Sigh… I think we’re all going to be doing some babysitting.
I have no idea what to do with a baby.
Well, I guess time to learn.
I think I’m going to talk to the pastor tomorrow.
Anyway, Jack and I had a date tonight, and it was fun. I went over to his new house, and his parents had taken Grace to the kid’s pizza place.
OMG I missed him. He, ummm…. did that thing with his tongue I love so much. My body just gets so hot and it feels so good…. and after I helped him with his “little problem” too, taking all the precautions, of course. I don’t want to end up like Katie. But aftwards, when he just holds me close to him and runs his hands down my body… I don’t know if there’s anything that feels that good. And when he tickles my floppy bits… OMG. And then he finds my girly bits and rubs them so perfectly… I lose myself in him. Aww. It feels like he sets me on wonderful, wonderful fire and the fire just comes right out my girly bits. Soooooo, soo good.
I wonder so much how it would feel to have him moving around inside me. I bet it feels even better than when he uses that buzzy thing he bought. Shivers. That never fails to get me going. Hard. I love him so much, but I can’t deny I also really love it when he just goes for it and makes me completely lose my mind with pleasure. And each time he does, he learns a little more about how to make me scream. And then I learn a little bit more about how to drag it out for him, you know, bringing him right to the edge and then slowing down and making him wait a little… he seems to absolutely adore that.
He loves doing that for me too. He told me it makes him feel like a man. Awww. He’s my man.[/um_loggedout]
We watched a movie and had some dinner. Lily decided to lay across both of us, it was really cute. She’s a good dog. Then his parents came home, and Grace wanted to play a game before bed. So we played a game of “hungry hungry hippo” with her. Such a strange game, but she loves it. She had so much to tell me, and she did make some new friends!!! Just like I told her!!!
Of course she did. We all know, say it with me – everyone loves Grace.
And now I’m home, ready for bed, and I feel so relaxed. I don’t spend enough time with Jack.. but maybe I spend just enough time with Jack for right now. Oh, he got a new job! I guess he could transfer to a different HEB!!! He likes it there too.
His parents want to send him to a vocational camp. I told him that’s a great idea. He doesn’t seem enthused. But he’ll be alright.
Japan’s coming up!!!
Love you all!!! ❤