This diary entry is part 5 of 32 in Lily's diary dated 05 - November 2021

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

OMG IT’S FRIDAY!!!  It’s been so nice outside!  Cool and sunny and… and… SQUEEEEEE!!!! Such nice runs in the morning!!!

I love Fridays because everyone’s happy on Friday!  It’s even better than Saturday because it’s anticipation that makes things better!  Speaking of which, 16 days to Disney World!  OMG OMG I CAN’T WAIT!!!! SQUEEEEEEE!!!!

Liz is so happy too, she’s been to Disney World before but never with a friend!  She wants to show me all the sights and smells and attractions… and ROLLER COASTERS!!!  OMG!!!!!!  I want to ride a roller coaster!  Or two!  Or three!!!!!  And eat junk food like elephant ears, ice cream, and cotton candy!  I better bring a heavy-duty toothbrush!!

I’m bouncing around!!!

My tablet arrived today!  OMG it’s soooooo cool!  I can doot doot on it like the cash registers at work, but I doot doot my stuff instead of prices for customers!  I downloaded a bunch of cool apps!  There are even games!  But Sabby told me I shouldn’t spend all my time with them.  Awwww!  Candy Crush is soooooo great!!!

But it’s so convenient too!!!

We’re going to watch a movie soon!  I don’t know what we’re going to watch.  I hope it’s good!!  Liz is coming over too to watch with us!  Her parents seem to be relaxing a little – she still has to do her classes and stuffs but she can come over and eat and watch movies with us!  It’s soo nice!! Liz is so nice to spend time with, and she seems to be relaxing a little too!  I’m glad for that!

Anyway, I have things to do before the movie!!  Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 11 of 11 in Lily's diary dated 01 - July 2021

Hi again!  It’s me!  Lily!  Silly Billy Lily!!!

I’m feeling loads better today.  Yesterday was hard, but Sabby helped me get through it.  I love her!  Dave also took me aside and told me to tell him if I ever need anything.  He’s not a hugger like Sabby, but he is a gentle man and I love him too.  If I ever have a boyfriend or a husband, I hope he’s like Dave!  Nerdy, balding, lovable, huggable, gentle, kind, silly…  all those things and more.

Oh, if Dave reads this I’ll be embarrassed!  But I hope he does anyway.  He should know.  He’s a silly Billy, but he’s my silly Billy.  Well, I guess I can share him with Sabby.  Haha!  Don’t kill me Sabby!  I’m kidding!!!  I won’t share!  hahaha!  Kidding again!!!

No, seriously, I was serious about not wanting a boyfriend, and particularly not a married one I consider like a father.  I could never see him that way.  But I love him dearly anyway.

Last night was movie night again!  This time we watched a movie called 50 First Dates.  It was about a woman who had no short term memory.  It hit really home to me, and I cried again.  That poor girl!  But she found a man who loved her anyway and was willing to put up with a lot to be with her.  I hope maybe I find someone like that someday!  But I hope more that I find my memory.  That’s a lot to ask of a boy!  It’s one reason I don’t want a boyfriend.  It’s asking too much, I think.  I’ll be a single woman with lots of cats and nieces and nephews and cousins!

But is that what I really want? No!  No more sad!  Not today!

But you know what the best thing was?  Beth came up and cuddled with me.  Beth!  The girl who hated me when Dave and Sabby first found me!  She crawled up next to me, looked into my eyes, and asked “is it like that for you?”

“Not completely, but pretty close,” I replied.  She was warm and smelled like fruit.

She snuggled into me.  “I’m sorry,” she said.  “I shouldn’t have been so mean.”

I didn’t know what to say, but I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her close.  She looked up at me and cupped my face in her hand.  “You can be my sister,” she said, quietly, but in a manner like the proclamation of a queen.  A cute, awkward woman-child queen.

I sniffled and wiped away a tear.  I think Sabby was about to blow a gasket, she was so surprised.  But before she could say anything, Beth was asleep.

Sabby’s mouth snapped closed.  “She’s always wanted a sister, you know.”

“I didn’t,” I whispered, and my hand found its way to Beth’s hair of its own accord.  Her hair was stringy, but also soft.  She shifted and mumbled softly.

Sabby smiled.  “I bet you didn’t know you wanted one either.”

I shook my head.  “I didn’t.  But…  but, I’m glad.”

Sabby smiled.  “So am I.”

David tried to jump on us but Dave “headed him off at the pass”, grabbed him, and took him squealing to his room.  “Bedtime for you, champ.  Let’s let the new sisters have some time to themselves.”, I heard, as they receded up the stairs.

Sabby kissed both of our foreheads, and went up to tuck David in.  I got a pillow and stuffed it under my head, careful not to disturb Beth.  My new sister.  My… new sister.

Oh God I’m gonna cry again.

I didn’t move until I had to.  Until I absolutely had to.  Add another precious memory to the ever growing list.   Of the time I gained a new sister.

Love you all!!!  ❤️

This diary entry is part 3 of 11 in Lily's diary dated 01 - July 2021

Hi again!  It’s me!

Oh my God, yesterday was so much fun!!!  Liz and I went to a local museum, and afterwards we went to a burger place and had a burger and shake!  Normally I don’t get to eat out much, It’s very important to Sabby that we eat at home, but every now and then I’m allowed a treat.  I love chocolate!  It’s my favorite thing!  It’s like if you were to take sunshine and rainbows and skittle and kittens and mix them all up into a glass of chocolatey goodness!  OH MY GOD it’s so good!  But it’s not healthy to eat too much of that kind of food.  So it’s a treat.

Liz doesn’t really like chocolate, can you believe it??  She was raised on Chinese food (she’s very vocal that Chinese food is not “kung pao chicken”, but heavy on rice and veggies).  But every now and then she does enjoy a nice burger.  Where we live, there are lots of burger places.  She just has a plain vanilla shake.  I love her anyway.

Every Friday night Dave likes to have a movie night, where he watches movies that I haven’t seen before with the family.  Or at least I don’t remember seeing before.  He likes silly comedies, like “Airplane!” or “Blazing Saddles!”.  Everyone was laughing so hard at Blazing Saddles, but I didn’t see what was so funny.  That poor Sheriff!  And why did they end up in modern Hollywood?  The ending made no sense!  But Airplane! was funny.  Dave says that they don’t make movies like those anymore.  I don’t know if he’s right, but I hope they don’t make another like Blazing Saddles!

But just because Dave’s choice in movies is suspect doesn’t mean he’s a bad guy.  He is very family oriented.  It’s important to him and Sabby that we do things as a family, and they see me as a part of their family.  So we’ll watch a movie tonight.  Dave tells me it’s by a guy called “Monty”… ummm… Viper?  Rattlesnake?  I don’t remember.  But maybe it’ll be funny.  I know I didn’t think Blazing Saddles was funny, but I do like funny things!  Honest!  I just didn’t understand the jokes, I guess.  Sabby makes popcorn on movie nights, and some yummy things to drink, so even if the movie’s not all that great, I love just spending time with everyone.

Oh, while we were at the museum, a boy was checking Liz out!  She was so embarrassed!  She doesn’t know what to do with boys, they are almost as confusing to her as they are to me.  He even told her she was pretty, and he was really shy about it.  She said thank you and giggled like a maniac!  The boy looked disappointed for some reason, I don’t know why.  She is pretty though!  I don’t know what I would do if a boy were to do that to me!  I don’t want a boyfriend.  How can I give a boy all of me when I don’t even know what all of me is?

I want my memory back.

But if I got my memory back, what would happen?  I would remember my real parents and my real family, and would they be as nice as Dave and Sabby are?  I don’t know.  I want it back, more than anything else in the world, but it would hurt my family now.  I love them.  They are so kind to me.

Look at me, wiping tears from my face while I write.  I’m such a… girl!

Anyway, I need to shower.  Today I don’t have any real plans.  Maybe I’ll do some chores and go to the library.  Love you all!!!  ❤️