This diary entry is part 4 of 32 in Lily's diary dated 05 - November 2021

Hi!  It’s me, Lily!  And I HURT!

Let’s just say cayenne pepper doesn’t just hurt going in and leave it at that.  Dave got me so good.  Credit to him.  I haven’t decide if I’m going to escalate, but he sure does give as good as he gets.  Maybe I’ll find a prank that’s a little more jokey and a little less scary.  But hey, it was Halloween.

It’s…  what, 17 days to Disney World?  I lost count but it sounds right.  My tablet should be arriving any day!  Sabby’s going to buy Beth one too!  She’s not getting David one, though.  He’s too young, and he doesn’t need another excuse to be irresponsible with his electronics.  I still don’t know what she’s going to do with Beth, but they’re both really looking forward to it.  I’m glad.  Both Sabby and Beth seem to feel like their relationship isn’t going as well as it used to, and they need this time together.  Plus, I’ll be at Disney World!!!  It’s not exactly like I’m left out!

I think Dave is going to have a fishing trip with David.  They’ll camp out somewhere and get up early and catch the fishes.  If they’re successful, we’ll have fish for dinner for days!  If they’re not, well, at least it’s bonding time for the two of them.  It makes me happy that they’re making the effort.  You know, that’s how you can tell a bad parent from a good parent.  Both good parents and bad parents make mistakes.  Sometimes a lot of mistakes.  Sometimes good parents can hurt their children deeply.  But the difference is that good parents try.  They listen to their children when they are hurt and course correct if they have to.  And both Sabby and Dave are course correcting.  That’s what makes them good parents.

I think if someone truly loves you, almost anything can be forgiven.  And if they don’t, almost nothing can.  Probably a little bit of an exaggeration, but I think it’s right.

I talked to Sabby and I think I’m going to get my hair done this weekend with a new hairstyle.  I can’t wait!  I like my hair as it is because it’s easier to maintain, but it’s kind of boring.  I like being cute!  And if I don’t like it I can always go back.  I’ll post a picture too!!!  Maybe not the same day, but soon!!!

Anyway, I need to go to bed!  Bed is so nice!  It’s soft and warm and when the sheets are freshly washed, smells so nice!  I like bed!  But I like brushing Beth’s hair too!  And when she brushes mine!  I love having a sister, did I say that??  And chocolate!!!

Love you all!!! ❤️

This diary entry is part 3 of 32 in Lily's diary dated 05 - November 2021

Hi!  It’s me!  Lily!

So I’ve been a busy Lily!  I decided I wanted to do something a little more useful with this site, so I made a few tweaks and twizzles and pulled some strings and spat on something, and ta-daaaa!  I haven’t really changed the look of the site yet, but I added a page of my family and friends!  I need to add an entry for chocolate!  I’m not even kidding!!!

I also started going through my old posts and adding tags just so I can keep track of what I’ve talked about before!  I’ve written so much stuff that I feel like I’m going to talk about the same things over and over!  This should help!

While I was going over some photos to put in my family and friends page (do you like mine?  It’s cute!  I love that dress!!!) I thought “I’ve had this hairstyle forever.  What if I change it?”  I might do that!  What do you think?  Do you think I’d look good with a different hairstyle?  I do!  it’s been growing a little long lately anyway, it might be fun!  I’ll talk to Sabby.

Things have calmed down in the Smith family!  So there was a little bit of strife because of the election, but it all calmed down and everyone’s back to their old selves.  They might squabble and fight and stuffs, but at the end of the day, they love each other more than they care about their differences, so it’ll all work out.  Besides, they agree on more than they disagree.  They’re good people!  But there’s nothing wrong with being passionate about something.

So otherwise it was a boringly boring day.  I ran, I did school.  Oh!  How could I forget this!  Dave got me good!

So I went out into the kitchen, and I found a bowl of chocolate pudding in the fridge, just sitting there, tempting me with its chocolatey goodness.  I, naturally, was so happy, and got myself a nice heaping bowl.  Then I took a bite.

The…  silly billy…  put cayenne pepper in it!  And not a little bit, either!  I screamed and drank so much water!  Dave sauntered in, and said “I told you to watch your back”.  My face was so red!

I stomped over to him and punched his arm with the fiercest look I could muster.  “Chocolate is sacred!  Don’t mess with chocolate!”

He laughed and rubbed his arm.  “So is my sleep.  Poke the bear and get bit, kiddo.”  I lowered my head.  DAMMiT.  I stomped out of the kitchen, his laughter in my ear and burning in my mouth.  I’ll get him!

… or will I?  He messed with CHOCOLATE!!  Nothing’s sacred!!!  Who knows what he’s capable of???

Anyway, time for bed.  Love you all!!!  OW MY MOUTH.  Still burns.  ❤️

This diary entry is part 5 of 11 in Lily's diary dated 01 - July 2021


Sabby was right!  It was a big day!  After I took my shower I came downstairs and Sabby told me to get dressed to go out.  I asked her what was going on, and she smirked.

“You’ll see”, Dave said.

So I got dressed, and Liz had somehow shown up, and we went to a pancake place for breakfast.  I LOVE PANCAKES!  Almost as much as chocolate.  And chocolate pancakes!  With chocolate syrup!  So we went there and Sabby told me that today was Lily day and we would do whatever I wanted!

The children were a little upset because they don’t get days, but Dave and Sabby explained that they get birthdays but no one knows what my birthday is, and I deserve a day, and today was going to be my day.  They seemed to understand, but they got pancakes, so they knew better than to complain too hard anyway.

I’m not gonna lie.  I cried.  I cried like a little girl.  I was so happy!  I’ve never had a day of my own before!  I had chocolate pancakes and chocolate milk and chocolate EVERYTHING and it was so good!  Liz had something lighter but still enjoyed herself.  They even had the staff come over and sing “Happy Lily Day!”  It was embarrassing, but so great!

Afterwards, they asked me what I wanted to do, and I said I wanted to go to the new waterpark in the area.  It’s a huge indoor waterpark.  It was going to be a hot day anyway, and it sounded so nice.  So they took me home to get our swimsuits, and we went there, and we spent the whole day splashing and swimming and having fun!  Even the kids had a good time!  They said that if it meant they got to go to the waterpark, they would be fine with more Lily days.  I think Beth (one of the children, she’s 14) even got sweet on a boy!

After we got home, there were presents!  Everyone bought me a present!  Dave bought me a new computer, and not a cheap one too!  Now I can YouTube!  Sabby bought me a beautiful dress I can’t wait to try on!  Even the kids got me things!  It truly was the best day ever!  Then we had the best dinner ever!  I can’t wait for next year, I love Lily days!

But it’s not about the presents, or the waterpark, or even the chocolate pancakes.  They love me.  They really love me!  I’m crying again!

Love you all!!!  ❤️

This diary entry is part 3 of 11 in Lily's diary dated 01 - July 2021

Hi again!  It’s me!

Oh my God, yesterday was so much fun!!!  Liz and I went to a local museum, and afterwards we went to a burger place and had a burger and shake!  Normally I don’t get to eat out much, It’s very important to Sabby that we eat at home, but every now and then I’m allowed a treat.  I love chocolate!  It’s my favorite thing!  It’s like if you were to take sunshine and rainbows and skittle and kittens and mix them all up into a glass of chocolatey goodness!  OH MY GOD it’s so good!  But it’s not healthy to eat too much of that kind of food.  So it’s a treat.

Liz doesn’t really like chocolate, can you believe it??  She was raised on Chinese food (she’s very vocal that Chinese food is not “kung pao chicken”, but heavy on rice and veggies).  But every now and then she does enjoy a nice burger.  Where we live, there are lots of burger places.  She just has a plain vanilla shake.  I love her anyway.

Every Friday night Dave likes to have a movie night, where he watches movies that I haven’t seen before with the family.  Or at least I don’t remember seeing before.  He likes silly comedies, like “Airplane!” or “Blazing Saddles!”.  Everyone was laughing so hard at Blazing Saddles, but I didn’t see what was so funny.  That poor Sheriff!  And why did they end up in modern Hollywood?  The ending made no sense!  But Airplane! was funny.  Dave says that they don’t make movies like those anymore.  I don’t know if he’s right, but I hope they don’t make another like Blazing Saddles!

But just because Dave’s choice in movies is suspect doesn’t mean he’s a bad guy.  He is very family oriented.  It’s important to him and Sabby that we do things as a family, and they see me as a part of their family.  So we’ll watch a movie tonight.  Dave tells me it’s by a guy called “Monty”… ummm… Viper?  Rattlesnake?  I don’t remember.  But maybe it’ll be funny.  I know I didn’t think Blazing Saddles was funny, but I do like funny things!  Honest!  I just didn’t understand the jokes, I guess.  Sabby makes popcorn on movie nights, and some yummy things to drink, so even if the movie’s not all that great, I love just spending time with everyone.

Oh, while we were at the museum, a boy was checking Liz out!  She was so embarrassed!  She doesn’t know what to do with boys, they are almost as confusing to her as they are to me.  He even told her she was pretty, and he was really shy about it.  She said thank you and giggled like a maniac!  The boy looked disappointed for some reason, I don’t know why.  She is pretty though!  I don’t know what I would do if a boy were to do that to me!  I don’t want a boyfriend.  How can I give a boy all of me when I don’t even know what all of me is?

I want my memory back.

But if I got my memory back, what would happen?  I would remember my real parents and my real family, and would they be as nice as Dave and Sabby are?  I don’t know.  I want it back, more than anything else in the world, but it would hurt my family now.  I love them.  They are so kind to me.

Look at me, wiping tears from my face while I write.  I’m such a… girl!

Anyway, I need to shower.  Today I don’t have any real plans.  Maybe I’ll do some chores and go to the library.  Love you all!!!  ❤️