Category: Diary

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

And it’s Saturday!!!

Woohoo!!!

But it was a quiet Saturday, thankfully.  I like quiet days.  Did I ever tell you that?  I do!  I like fun days, and I like quiet days!  I don’t like dramatic days though!  Awww!!!

Today was one of those days where Sabby gets a bug up and we’re all cleaning, so we did a lot of that.  She was whirling around like a tornado with a mop, and we had to make sure our rooms were clean too!  I didn’t mind, but David was complainig up a storm.  He hates cleaning.  I guess I don’t blame the kid, it really isn’t fun.

But it’s not too bad, either.

So after all that, Jack came over and had dinner with us.  It wasn’t really a date, but it was nice anyway.  Liz came over too, and we chatted and had a pretty good time.  Dave’s really warmed to him.  Thankfully.  I mean he never really disliked him, but he’s his daughter’s boyfriend, and, well, I guess a bit of confrontation is in the contract.  But we’ve kept to our end of the bargain, and I guess that’s all he could really ask for.

Sabby does occasionally check that we… keep our promises… though.  We do.  We still do.  When I’m weak, he’s strong, and when he’s weak, I’m strong.  I guess it all balances out.  No grandkids yet!!!

No grandkids today.  Grandkids tomorrow.

Hahaha!!!

There are still tree banches sitting there at his complex from the ice storm! Wow!

Okay… time for bed!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

It’s FRIDAY!!!!

And Monday is a holiday!!!  Well, for some people, anyway.

I’m spending some time with Liz tonight, and the girls are over with Beth.  They’re all jealous that she’s learning to drive, even if she smacked a pole, so she’s feeling a little tiny bit better about it.  Dave got some estimates for body repair and it’s coming out of Beth’s paycheck at the shop, when she works there.  Aww.

Liz is gushing about her boyfriend, he gave her a very thoughtful gift for Valentine’s day, and she can’t stop gushing, but I guess that’s a good thing.  At least she’s happy with him, right?

It’s late, so tonight will be a short diary – Liz wants to play a board game then we’re going to bed.  Someone else has to walk Marie tonight!  Hahah!!!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

Beth is still in trouble – kinda.  Dave and Sabby seem to have calmed down enough to realize that that’s what happens when teenagers are learning to drive, and at least it wasn’t another car she hit.  Beth’s a little skittish about driving again, but she needs the practice.  I’m not sure how they’re going to resolve it, but I guess we’ll find out.

Dave did apologize to both Beth and me for his comment about how I’d never do that.  It wasn’t fair to either of us – it just turned Beth against him and against me too.  It hurt Beth.  I could tell.  But there’s nothing Dave can do but apologize – and never do it again.

But now they’re talking a lot more seriously about getting Beth her own car.  So we’ll see how that shakes out.

The driveway is getting crowded!!!

So I guess that crisis is mostly averted.  For now, anyway.

Why didn’t I crash when I was learning?  I don’t know.  Maybe I was lucky.  Maybe I’m just a little more cautious.  Maybe I had a little more practice.  Maybe my martial arts training that I can’t remember gave me good reflexes.  And who knows.  I guess it’s still possible.  Hasn’t happened yet, though.  Which, considering how bad Texas drivers are, is at least a little surprising…

I’m tired and Marie needs a walk.  It’s a little chilly tonight.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

Beth’s in trouuuuuuble!!!!

Have you ever noticed how when a child sees another child doing something wrong, it’s always the same inflection?  “Awwwww!!!!! Someone’s in TROUBLE!!!!!!”

Hahaha!!!

I once had a little two year old yell at me across the street when I was doing something that she was telling my mommy!  It was cute!  She thought I was doing something wrong but I wasn’t!!!

Anyway, I got sidetracked!  SQUIRREL!! hahaha!!!

Beth’s in trouble!!!

She crashed the car!!!!

Okay, well, it wasn’t a bad crash, and she’s not really in trouble, but isn’t it more fun to tell the story this way?

Dave took her out to practice driving and she was driving in a residential area, and she didn’t hit the brakes in time and sideswiped a pole!

It wasn’t a fast hit and she did hit the brakes, but there’s a nice scratch in the car and Dave’s not happy.

But then he said something really dumb to her.  He said “Why can’t you be more like Lily?  She’s never done that!”

Well, Beth came inside, started crying, ran to her room, and hasn’t come out since.

I’m actually not happy with Dave for saying that.  When I heard what he said, I told him I don’t ever want him comparing me to her, not only because it’s not fair to either of us, but I’m adopted and Beth isn’t and he basically just told her that the daughter he chose is better than the daughter he made.

He really didn’t want to hear it, but at least he heard me out.  He and Sabby are in Beth’s room right now and there are some muffled raised voices.

And some of them are coming from Beth.

Awww.

Sabby did give me a hug and told me I was right, and Dave will come around eventually.  He’s just upset because the car is damaged.

David, of course, is just watching the carnage and playing his games.  That’s what David does…

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Have you ever stopped to think what a weird word “February” is?

It’s a weird word!!!

But every word is weird if you say it enough.  Like “Thank”.  What a weird word that is!!!

Anyway, today was Valentine’s day.

I had to think a lot about what to get Jack.  My thinker got sore.  Sabby’s no help.  Dave’s no help.  Beth just smirked.  I even asked Grace!  She said “give him legos”.  Which, actually, I bet he’d like, but it’s not a great romantic gift.

And what’s worse is, I don’t really think he cares all that much.  I mean, he wants to get something from me, but I’m sure he would prefer that it be from the heart rather than something I just buy him because I can’t think of anything else.  He’s pretty cool that way.

There is that purple thing Liz bought me as a prank a couple Christmases ago, but… if I wear that for him, I’m not telling you!  Besides, it looks like it’d be really hard to put on.  They sure don’t make those things for convenience, do they!

I could think of a few things he’d probably really like in that vein, but…  no.  No no no.

So…  I had an idea.  I don’t know if it was the best idea, but it was a pretty good idea.

I got him a very big teddy bear.  You know, the ones at the costco that are bigger than I am?  I got one of those, and I made it smell like me.  I gave it a bit of bodywash and a bit of hair product and a bit of that perfume he likes so much – seriously, it drives him nuts.  I put it in a big box, with a note that said simply “When you’re missing me, hug Lily the Bear”.

He… loved it.  He gave the bear a big hug, then he gave me a big hug and a kiss, and said it was perfect.

Then the silly-billy gave me a necklace.  It had a pretty heart on it with the word “forever”.

I melted.

Awww.

I thought the cake was his gift, but no, that was a decoy gift.

I’ll never understand boys sometimes.  They treat romance like a war.

Hahaha!!!

So we did do that double date.  It was nice.  Liz’s boyfriend was just a tiny bit jealous of how hot Jack is, until she explained that he’s her cousin.  Then he relaxed a bit.  He seems a little insecure.  But he does treat her well, he gave her a nice gift for Valentine’s day, too.  She gave him one back, and a kiss.  It’s really strange to see Liz kiss someone, but..  I’m glad she’s happy.

Boy can really pack the food away, though.  Haha!!!

Okay!  I’m tired.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

We had so much cake left today!!! Jack really outdid himself!!!  Beth and Sabby and I were chowing on cake all day!!!  Liz even came over and had some more too!

The problem is, I don’t know what to get Jack now!  I can’t think of anything I can do to outdo that!  Or should I even try!  Awww!!!

So tomorrow night Liz and I are having a double date with Jack and her boyfriend!!!

It’ll be fun, I think.

I asked Sabby if she had any ideas for what to get him, and she…  giggled.  She said that’s something I had to figure out for myself, but she’d better not get any grandkids for a while.

I blushed.

There’s a lot of traffic at the store right now – Sabby and the baker came up with some new product and they’re selling fast!  And cat-girl is dressed like Cupid!  Hahah!!!

I think she’d like to show more skin, but she knows where the line is now.  She’s got a little suction cup arrow though and she keeps shooting it at customers.  Aww.  But it’s all taken in good fun.

Next bit event is Easter.  It’s amazing how many events there are for a cookie shop!

Okay…  I need to think about what to get Jack!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

AND JACK REALLY OUTDID HIMSELF THIS TIME!!!

So we know Valentine’s day is in two days, right?  Well, the silly-billy coopted the baker!!! He went over to the shop, threw a few bills at her, and said “bake me the biggest, most chocolately cake you can possibly imagine, and then make it about half again as chocolatey.”  And, well, we know how good the baker is, and she delivered!!!

He even had her write on it “I love you more than you love this cake!”

The boy knows me!!!

So he brought the cake over today.  I wasn’t expecting him.  But he knocked on the door, and when I opened it there he was!  With a cake so big it had to be wheeled on a cart!!!  We took it in, set it gingerly on the table, and while the family was admiring it, I kissed the absolute snot out of him.

Sabby cleared her throat like twice before I noticed.

Well…  here’s the thing about that cake.  It was decadent.  I mean, remember what I said about making it about half again as chocolatey as even the baker could imagine?  It was a chocolate cake.  With chocolate pudding.  Chocolate frosting.  Chocolate sprinkles.  Chocolate drizzle.  Chocolate whipped cream.  Chocolate chips.  Chocolate kisses.  Chocolate candy.  Everything she could possibly think of to put on it, she did, and then doubled it.

OH MY GOD.

You know how I like chocolate?  You know how I love chocolate?  You know how I would marry chocolate if it wasn’t for Jack?  You know how I’d have little chocolate babies and watch them grow up into chocolate adults and then feed me chocolate when I’m old???  Well… this cake was almost too much for me.

Seriously.  It actually was almost too much for me.  Me!  Lily!  Lily the girl who loves chocolate!!!

It was so almost too much for me that I called all the girls over for an emergency chocolate-sharing session and we pigged out.

No, Jack didn’t mind.  He said it was my cake, and I could share it if I wanted, and the kiss I gave him was plenty thanks.

Crystal, Diana, even Allison…  they all came over, we served that cake, and omg it was almost too much for them too.  I swear after a piece they were bouncing off the ceiling!  It was hilarious!

Jack just sat there with a smirk.  He was enjoying the chaos!  The chaos HE caused!!!

Allison started running around chasing Grace around, who was squealing like a stuck pig!  I don’t know what a stuck pig sounds like, but if I had to imagine a stuck pig, well, that’s what she sounded like!  Crystal started talking a mile a minute and Beth asked Dave about the pressure washer!  Hahaha!!!!!  Not because of the cat he pressure washed (cat’s fine) but because she wanted to pressure wash something!!!

I think the baker put coffee in there too!  SHE DID!!!!!

Valentine’s day chaos!!!!

Hahahahaa!!!!!!

Marie, of course, did NOT get any.  Chocolate is bad for dogs.  Even though she begged.  Poor Marie.  She got a dog biscuit instead.  She was happy with that.

So a couple of hours later, everyone crashed, and we just lazed around the sofa in a sugar, caffeine, and theobromine induced haze.  And it was the most wonderful thing ever!  Well, except….  ummm…. it was the most wonderful thing ever!!!

“Lily?”, Jack said, snuggled up to me on the couch with Marie AND Grace sprawled over us.

“Yes?”

“I do love you.”

“Jack, after today, I have zero doubts about that at all.”

“you’re supposed to say ‘I love you too'”, he said just a little petulantly.

I blushed.  Aww.

“I love you too,” I said.

I meant it.

I really, really meant it.

All the girls are home now, we’ve all got school tomorrow, but they all told me how lucky I was to have a boyfriend who would give me such an amazing cake.  And I agree.  I’m very lucky.

And I have no idea how I’m going to top that on a PG diary.

And you know what the absolute most hilarious thing is?

Baker did it on the clock.  HE PAID ME FOR IT!!!

HAAHAHAH!!!!!!

(Normally she doesn’t take custom orders like that… yet, anyway… but Sabby said it was fine and no way am I going to get upset over that!!!)

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

Today, Dave took Beth out driving.  He came back looking a bit… stressed out.  Beth just kind of flounced in and said she had a lot of fun learning, and I think Dave wanted to puke.

Haha!!!

They’ll figure it out.

I have a provisional license.  I can’t teach her.  And, well, I’m pretty happy about that.  If I’m being honest.

Beth is really smart but she’s…  well.  I’m not sure how well smarts translate to driving.

Anyway.

Jack and I went on a date tonight.  It went pretty well.  I like spending time with him.  But I did have to bring up the whole cat-girl-maid-thing with him.

I don’t really understand why he feels so strongly about what I wear.

I tried to explain to him that it’s just business and we dress up like that in order to sell things and make money.  He retorted that there’s another kind of woman that uses her body to make money too, and do I really want to be like one of them?

I admit I got a little offended, and asked him if he really thought I was a prostitute.

“No”, he said.  “And that’s the whole point.  You’re not.”

I sighed.  For someone my age, he’s really kind of old fashioned.

It’s… kind of fun to dress up sometimes.  It’s not something I like to do every day like cat-girl, and certainly not exposing as much skin as she does (I don’t think I could cause car crashes like she did) but costumes are fun and I have to admit I don’t like not being able to wear things I like to wear because my boyfriend doesn’t like it.

But I guess I kind of understand why it bothers him.  Would I like for him to walk around outside wearing a banana hammock? (And don’t google that).  Not really, I guess.  Especially if other girls were catcalling him.

So I asked him what I could wear.  After all, some guys might even like it if I wore a burqa.  Right?

That… stopped him for a moment.  I think he was kind of fixated on things like the maid outfit, but he hadn’t thought about that aspect of it.

I told him that I wanted to dress up in something.  And if he didn’t like the maid outfit, well, what would be okay?

That was when he kind of deflated.  He told me what he really doesn’t like is how girls seem to change their attitude when they dress in sexy clothes like that.  Like they’ll put on a maid outfit and get all flirty, or put on a sexy Halloween costume and start swishing and sashaying all over the place.  I know what he means.  Girls do seem to do that.  Cat-girl does it all the time.  He doesn’t want me getting all flirty if I’m wearing something like that.

And…  you know… that’s fair.  I don’t think I get that way, but it does happen.

So… I think I know how to fix this.

There are several different kinds of cosplay.  There’s… the sexy type.  Like maid outfits, bodysuits, etc.  There’s the Japanese type, like kimono, school uniform, etc.  And then there’s the kawaii type – cute, frilly dresses that make you look more like a little girl.  I asked him if he’d mind so much if I dressed in those categories instead.

He…  thought about it, and said he wouldn’t mind so much.

And besides… I like the cute dresses!  And maybe even a little bow in my hair!!!  And if a guy likes me in that, well, that’s his problem, isn’t it???

So I think we have an understanding for now.

I’m glad he and I can talk these things out.  And I have dress shopping to do!!!

It was a nice date, even considering.  His parents gave us a little time alone, and, well…  I feel pretty warm and relaxed right now.  I love that boy.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

Well… this Friday is LITERALLY cool.  A cold front went through.  But it’s not like last week, so it’s okay.

I feel bad.  Sometimes I have all these really interesting things to talk about.  Like when I went to Japan, or whatever.. and lately it’s just been “Dave pressure washed a cat”, and that kind of thing.  I guess that’s alright.  I mean, you can’t have a really interesting life every single day, right?  Then it would be like a soap opera – and those are annoying because every time something interesting happens there’s an organ chord or something.  Hahaah!!!  But in real life, something interesting happens, and absolutely no musical background occurs.

Would be neat if it did, don’t you think?

But in fairness, who pressure washes a cat?  Dave does!  Hahaaha!!!!

Again – cat’s fine.

So, umm…  I’m over at Liz’s tonight.  All the girls are over with Beth, and I’m sure they’re having fun, but I don’t spend enough time with Liz, and she is my best friend.  I love her, did I tell you that?  If she were a boy Jack would have competition!  Hahah!!! But she’s not.  She’s got her boyfriend now anyway.  Oh, did I tell you?  He asked her to be his girlfriend, and she accepted!  She seems pretty happy.  I don’t know if she’s quite as… well…  close to him as I am to Jack, but they go on dates every now and then and she gushes a lot about how nice he is, so…  I’m glad she’s happy.

But she never was really jealous of Jack.  I mean, he is her cousin, but even then, she never was really jealous that I had something she didn’t.  She was just happy for me.  That’s why she’s my best friend.  She might have been a little, but even when I first met him, she was pretty supportive.

We should double date someday.  I think that’d be fun.

Liz and I are eating chocolate and root beer and some kind of Chinese snacks that are delicious, and playing games.  We’ll go to bed soon and cuddle up.  She’s not the most cuddly girl, but she is with me.  Sometimes, anyway.  Awww.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

And it didn’t rain today!  In fact, it was nice!!!

But I was thinking about the title of that song, from Babymetal, “No rain, no rainbow”.  That title has always struck me, because it’s true.  Rainbows are some of the most beautiful things out there!  (At least they are when people aren’t making them political, but oh well!).  But you can’t have a rainbow without rain!

Aww!

It’s also like one of Sabby’s favorite songs, “You’ll never walk alone”, where they talk about walking through a storm and there being a golden sky at the end.  But you can’t have the golden sky without the storm!!!  Sometimes you need rain and storms and bad things for beautiful things to come out of them!

I mean, look at me!  I lost all my memories!  From everything I can piece together, something really bad happened – even though I don’t know what, and that’s a bad thing on its own!  But Mrs. Doily told me that my previous parents were businesslike and not very loving, and my birth mother gave me up entirely!  But now I have a family that loves me and that I love, and a boyfriend, and the best life I could imagine happening!  Would I have that kind of life if the bad thing of losing my memories and previous family didn’t happen?  Of course it wouldn’t!

No rain, no rainbow.

But that doesn’t mean the rain is nice.  Even if you get to see a beautiful rainbow, it’s not nice to be standing in the rain and being wet and cold.  Is the rainbow worth it?

Maybe… maybe it was for me.

I love Dave and Sabby and Beth and David and Jack and Grace and Liz and Crystal and Diana and Allison all the parents and the pastor and the owner and… and Katie and cat-girl and the baker and everyone I met and know since I was found and taken in by my family!!!  And Emiko and Ai and Hiroshi and even Robert!!!  I have a rainbow!!!

I love my rainbow!!!  It’s beautiful and it’s mine and I got it from a storm!!!

And you all too!!! I have you all too!!!

Love you all!!! ❤