Category: Diary

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

So…  it’s been a day, I guess. Thursdays are usually boring.  This one kinda wasn’t.

So… good news.  The glass repair people found a slot, and they were able to repair the glass in my car.  So it’s drivable.  I still need to get it to a body shop to get all the hail dents undented, but that can wait for a while.

The bad news.  Well… remember how I was telling you about those roofers?  Well, one came over today that wouldn’t take no for an answer.  Dave told them no.  A few minutes later they were on the roof and starting to remove shingles.

Well…  Dave’s a second amendment guy…  about twenty seconds later, which was all it took to get into his safe, he had them on the ground and the police on their way.

This is Texas. You don’t do things like that here.

The police came…  gave Dave a bit of crap but he knew his rights, and they took the roofers away – but not until getting their info so he could sue them for the further damage they caused to the roof.  He’ll be lucky to get a penny, I guess, but it’s the principle of the thing, right?

So now he *really* has to call a roofer though.  Sigh.

Why do people do stupid things like that?  Especially in Texas?

Otherwise, you know, the usual.  Studying, practicing, all that fun stuff.  Thursdays really are boring most of the time.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

It’s Wednesday!!!

A pretty boring Wednesday, I guess.

At least it’s not hailing!!!

Yuki’s over tonight.  Liz has a lesson or something, so it’s just me and Yuki.  She seems to like coming over, I think she gets lonely.  Her host family is nice but they don’t do a lot of things with her, they’re older so they just kind of keep to themselves.  I think they like that she’s going out more.  We watched some anime, and played some youtubes of her performing and I asked her what she was thinking about when she was on stage.  She said that she really doesn’t think about anything other than just doing her performance and not messing up too much.

“Too much?”, I asked.

She sighed.  “Being an idol is weird, if you make a mistake, it just makes them like you more.  Sometimes I made a minor mistake on purpose just to be cute.” she sighed.  “You know idols where special innerwear so that they don’t show their pantsu, right?”  She blushed.  “I forgot mine once.  That wasn’t intentional.”

I giggled.  “Well that’s fanservice.”

“I guess”, she said.  “Now twenty thousand of my closest friends know what my pantsu look like.  At least it was clean.”

I giggled a little.  Then I told her how I lost my top at the waterpark.  It was her turn to giggle.  “You didn’t have as much of an audience, but… I can imagine the look on those boys’ face…” she fell over giggling.  “And you’ve got so much… more…”  She squealed with laughter for a few moments, then recovered and sat up again. “I guess everyone has those moments.”

She was quiet for a moment.

“You know, I really would have liked to perform actual music…  I mean, idol music is music, but… not… music.”  She said this wistfully.

‘”Like this?”, I asked, and showed her the video of when I performed that Schumann concerto with an orchestra.

She watched it carefully, then when it was over, said “I am so jealous!”

“You’re jealous of me?” I asked incredulously.  “You’ve got an entire country full of fans.  You’ve sold out Tokyo Dome and Budokan.  You’re… jealous of me??”

She actually sniffled.  “I did all those things,” she said quietly.  “But none of them really meant anything.  I just sang silly songs and danced around and acted cute, and people ate it up.  But did that really require talent?  What you did requires talent”, she said sadly.

I guess so.  I’d never thought of it that way.  Maybe I didn’t sell out HEB Center, or anything like that, but it took a lot of work and it was really fun and not everyone can do it.  She can’t do it.  She’s a little more talented than some idols, she had some training, but…  she can’t do what I did.

Awww.

That actually makes me a little sad, if I’m being honest about it.  I guess everyone has a dream, and sometimes even the people who look like they’re living their dream really aren’t.  Or maybe they are but somewhere along the line they got another dream.

“So… what do you really want to do?”, I asked.

She…  just kind of froze and looked lost.  “I thought… I wanted to be an idol.  And now I was…  and then I hated it.  Would I hate doing anything else I wanted to do?”

“Maybe…  or maybe you haven’t found what gives you life yet.”

Maybe… maybe I haven’t either, if I’m being honest.  I like the stuff I do…  but…  how will that turn out?

Is life about doing what you love?  Or loving what you do?

“Why don’t you take some music lessons then?” I asked.  “I know you took some training as an idol.  Is there anything you’d want to do, like that?”

“I wish I could sing,” she said.  “Like… really sing.  You know, like the singers who do the anime openings.  They’re so good,” she gushed.  “I was never that good.”

Then she played an anime opening for me, and…  she’s right.  That lady can really, really sing.

“Beth’s taking voice lessons,” I said.  “Maybe you can see if you can work with her teacher?”

I guess she’s going to think about it.

An idol.  Jealous of me.

Amazing.

Anyway, I guess it’s bedtime.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

My car still isn’t fixed.  Awww.  But the window repair people did say they could come out early next week – they have the windows, they just need to find the time to come out.  They have a lot of business right now.  Awwww.

There’s a lot of damaged cars and windows and roofs around the neighborhood.  It’s not like snowpocalypse where you hear lots of chainsaws and stuff, though there is a bit of that because of the winds that came with it, just a lot of tarps over cars, etc.  I guess that’s what happens.

So Yuki, Sabby, cat-girl, and I have been negotiating about her job and what she is supposed to do.  We all went down to the shop and just talked it out.  Yuki suggested maybe we have some small karaoke rooms, but Sabby shot that down because she doesn’t think it’d be profitable, and she’s probably right.  I suggested we set up a few tables and chairs, and put up a stage like in Akihabara, and everyone could dress in maid costumes and sing and dance to idol songs.  Cat-girl wasn’t dead-set against it, but none of the girls know how to sing and dance, and she thinks it’d be a bit humiliating.  She’s probably right.  So what we eventually came up with, is that we’re going to turn it into a maid cafe, but Yuki will sing and dance and idol all over the place (we’ll schedule times and stuff) and otherwise the girls will do everything they used to, except they’ll say “irasshaimase goshujinsama” and be a little simpy.  We could all live with that, and cat-girl didn’t think it’d be a problem with the other girls.  We’ll have to have the servers wear the maid outfits too, though.  The costumes are pretty enough, but consistency is key.  And maybe we can have a cosplay night every week or so where the girls can let loose.  Cat-girl really liked that idea!

And of course if any of the girls want to learn to idol, Yuki can teach them.

Basically it’s a part time job for nearly everyone so no one has huge expectations, but it should be pretty fun.  I imagine all we’ll have to do to advertise is tell a couple of the Japanese tourists that somehow make their way over, and it’ll be all over Japan by the end of the day.  Hahah!!!

Yuki is really concerned about people getting out of hand, but I told her that all we expect from her is to sing and dance and do idol-like stuff, but all the lies and stuff that an idol is expected to do?  This is the US.  We don’t do that.  She seemed relieved.  If she’s not having fun it’s not worth doing.

I talked to Sabby on the way home.  She still has a few reservations, but she saw how popular the maid cafes were in Japan, and she thinks it could be a success if we market it correctly.  I mean, not like they’d market it in Japan.  This is Texas.  And at least it’s better than a bikini bar.

So we pretty much have to remodel the front end of the store, but we’ve made so much, it shouldn’t be a problem.  Just have to find the time to do it and shut the store down for a week or so while we do it.  Aww.

I think it’s kind of fun, though.  I’m trying to source some Japanese treats, I think it’d be cool to have some of those for sale too.  And Sabby seems interested in learning how to make some Japanese treats, like mochi, daifuku, and crepes.  Yum!!!

Okay.  Enough of that I suppose.

I didn’t go to church on Sunday.  I’m a bit scared to, to be honest.  No one’s pushing me, though.  That’s nice.

Maybe if I’d prayed the hail wouldn’t have hit.  No, bad me.  Don’t think like that.  That’s too much pressure.  Even when… that… happened… I wasn’t really the one praying.  I don’t think.  I’m so confused.

Anyway…  guess I should go to bed.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

And OMG did it hail last night!!!

Some big bad storm came in from the north and dropped softballs on us!!!

It was awful!!!  THUMP!! BANG!!! CRASH!!!

That crash…  was our cars’ back windows.

Awwww.

Thankfully the main car was spared because it has the kind of back window that’s vertical, but everything had dents and… awww.  And the power went out last night too, so I couldn’t post!!! We got out the flashlights and candles and…  read, and stuff.  Until it was time to go to bed.  Then… we went to bed.  The power came back on sometime during the night. The good news is after the last power outage Dave had a thinky moment and got some beefy power cells.  So we had enough power for phones and emergency lights too.  Yay!!!

So today was calling insurance and trying to find a place that could replace the windshields, which was a problem because everyone else was too!  It looks like it might be a week or two before they can fix it!  Dave went to the hardware store and got some plastic sheets and taped them over, so at least there’s that.  I guess I can drive it but it’s awful!!!

Liz’s car was damaged too… everyone’s car was damaged!  Awww!!!!

Oh well.  That happens in Texas sometimes.  Remember the tornado last year?

Some people went door to door offering to fix our roof, and Dave told them to buzz off.  Apparently those kinds of people are scammers.  But it does look like our roof does need some repairs, so Dave’s been calling the insurance company for that, too.

So that’s been our day.  Sabby took me and Liz to school and back so I didn’t have to drive a car with broken windows.  I bought her a milkshake.  She seems to consider that a somewhat fair trade.

Okay, well…  I guess that’s the big news right now.  Lily gets hit by monster hail!  Film at 11!

Time for bed.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Beth, Diana, and Crystal are off at Crystal’s house, so today it’s just me, Liz, and Yuki.  It’s a little quieter than usual, and that’s not a bad thing.  Rebecca is busy packing (they’re moving soon!) and it’s a bit early for Ai, so it’s just the three of us.

We had an impromptu musical party, I guess you could say.  Liz brought her violin and we did a little concert…  and then we played something Yuki sang as an idol, and… she’s really not half bad, really!  I mean, I know some idols can’t really sing to save their lives, but Yuki took some lessons, and while her singing is more poppy than classical, it actually came out pretty well.  She can even sing “idol”!  How cool is that?  It’s a really hard song.  Some songs phrasing isn’t important, this one it really is.

She told us she wants to take the job at the shop, but she still has some reservations.  I don’t think she wants to be treated like she was as an idol.  I told her that we want her experience in entertaining, but we’re not asking her to be an idol, just to help us build out the shop as an entertainment venue and not just a bakery.  She seemed kind of excited at that.  We’re not going to be some kind of underground band place or something, but karaoke, etc., might be fun.  Sabby and I still haven’t exactly decided what we’re going to do, but we’ll work it out.

Anyway, other than that, we ate pizza and chocolate (Yuki really loves pizza, she says they have it in Japan but not like here, it’s just so much better here) and now we’re watching anime.  We started watching “Bocchi the Rock”, and it’s… so cool.  We haven’t gotten too far but she met Kita, and that’s pretty neat!  She’s a really good guitarist.

I don’t know why I didn’t watch anime earlier.  Maybe I just thought it was all cute cat-girls going “nya nya, master”.  Well, sometimes, I guess… but not all of them!!!  Yuki was telling me there are some with a cooking theme, some with a biking theme… seems anime just seems like a way to take hobbies and set them to video.

Sometimes.

Anyway, we’re going to watch a few more episodes and go to bed.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Autumn is here in a couple of days!!!

… and it’s upper 90s.

I like Texas in winter…

So anyway, not much interesting to talk about today.  Allison’s mother is pretty sick, aww.  I hope she takes care of herself, because I told Allison I’d go over there with a rolled up newspaper and say “bad Allison’s mother!” and bop her on the nose.  When you’re sick, you have to rest and eat ice cream and ginger ale and let people take care of you!!!  And of course I’d bring cookies because you don’t bop people on the nose with a newspaper without offering cookies.  It’s just bad form.

Yuki’s still thinking about whether she wants to work at the shop.  It could go either way,  But Sabby and I were talking, and if she chooses to, well, she really would bring a lot of entertainment experience to the table, and we could learn a lot from her.  But we’re not pushing, we know she stopped being an idol for a reason.  But then… this isn’t really being an idol.  It’s being an entertainer using her idol skills.  That’s a little different, I think.

I watched the third episode of “Akebi’s Sailor Uniform” today.  It’s really cute..  But… umm…  Sabby thinks it was written for men.  She might be right.  But it’s still cute!!!  this episode was Akebi trying to decide which club to join.  Everyone wanted her!!! And who can blame them?  She’s adorable!!!

Anyway…  umm…  I don’t know what else to talk about.  It’s a quiet day.  I like quiet days, but they don’t give me a lot to talk about.  And I like talking!

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

I ran out of stuff to put in the topic.  Bad me.

So today after school I took Yuki to the shop to meet everyone.  Baker didn’t care, she was too busy baking.  Same with other baker.  But the cosplay girls – cat-girl recognized her, and after a little uncomfortable fangirling which I shut down pretty quickly, it was down to business.  Yuki kind of turned on her idol charm (she’s that popular for a reason!) and everyone was eating out of her hand.  Figuratively, of course.

She and the girls actually got along pretty well, though.  Friends?  Maybe not yet, but they were chattering a lot.  Turns out Cat-girl being an internet model has some similarity to being an idol, and they spent a bit of time talking about how much they hated some of their fans.

Aww.

But I heard some of the stories.  I don’t blame them.

I talked to Sabby about the maid cafe idea.  She’s really hesitant but she did go to a maid cafe in Japan (I didn’t know that!) and she thought it was a pretty cool concept.  But I’m not going to push.  What we’re doing now works pretty well too!

She’s a part owner too, so we have to agree on the big things.  She trusts me though, so she doesn’t just shut me down when I have an idea.  We talk about it.  Like it should be, I guess.

While we were there a Japanese tourist showed up and immediately recognized Yuki, and, well…  there was a lot of bowing and greetings and Yuki had idol mode turned on, and…  that’s pretty much a sight to behold.  She has them eating out of her hand!  Like she did Cat-girl.  Finally she said she had other things to do but said it with such cheerfulness that the guy seemed happy.  She did give him an autograph though, and he looked like he just won the lottery.  Aww.

Then he looked at me.

Man…  if Beth takes those lessons she’ll be insufferable!  Haha!!!

“densha kara desu ka?” he said excitedly.

I haven’t blushed that hard in a very long time.  Dang sisters!!!

Anyway, he got my autograph too.  Hah!!!

Yuki just looked at me funny.

“You know that prank my sisters pulled?”

“No… oh…  oh… OH,” she said, then giggled.  “They got video!”

“Yeah, they did,” I said mortified.  “It went viral.”

She giggled.  “You’re famous too.”

I sighed.  “Well…  I guess so.”

She flopped on the ground and laughed until she wheezed.

Sigh.  My sisters have no sympathy for me.  Oh well.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

So…  I talked to Sabby today about maybe giving Yuki a job, if she wants it.  She’s…  of two minds, and I don’t really blame her.  On the one hand, we get a lot of Japanese tourists, and she’d be a major draw – plus, she has a lot of experience on the performing side and could help with the cosplay girls side of things.  We’d have to handle that carefully, but… yeah.  On the other hand, if word gets out, things could get out of hand, she might not want to do it anyway, and Sabby’s already a little hesitant about the direction the shop’s taken – though she admits readily that it makes us a lot of money.

That’s why she puts up with cat-girl.  Well, “puts up with” is a strong term, I mean, cat-girl is a bit of a polarizing figure in some ways, and Sabby accepts the schtick because having cute girls in cute costumes doing cute things is really good for business.

Ultimately, she said if Yuki agrees, we can figure out something to do with her.

So then I talked with Yuki about it today.  She… didn’t dismiss it out of hand, but she’s really hesitant.  Of course she’s worried about what happens when word gets back to Japan that a beloved idol can be found somewhere in Texas, with cat-girl as a bonus.  But she does miss performing and being an idol in some ways, and… maybe she can scratch that itch with us.

She’ll come over soon and Sabby, her, and I will have a chat about it and see if we can come up with something everyone can live with.

I asked cat-girl how she and the girls would feel about it, and she shrugged.  “As long as we can keep having fun here, the more the better,” she said.  She really does love what she does there – I mean, getting to dress up in cute costumes and acting all cute and raking in the dough while she does?  That’s like a dream for her!

I’m tossing around an idea – I asked her how she felt about everyone dressing in maid costumes instead of different cosplay.  She shrugged, but said she’d ask the others.  I’m thinking maybe we should just go full bore into becoming a maid cafe, but… I haven’t run that one by Sabby yet, yeah, I know she reads this.  It’s just an idea, Sabby…  we’ll talk about it soon.

I also wonder if we should add karaoke…  hmm.

I know, I know… we’ll talk about it, Sabby!

But my instincts aren’t usually wrong, and we really do get a lot of Japanese tourists…

Oh well.

Beth still goes there a couple of times a week to be a server, it gives her a little pocket money and she’s pretty good at it.  Remember when I said she’s like supermodel beautiful?  Well, when she’s wearing that frilly dress costume with the black tights…  omg everyone loves her!

I’m not even as beautiful as she is… though Jack doesn’t agree.

Speaking of Jack… apparently he’s thrown himself into his studies.  Aww.  That makes me happy.

Anyway…  got some studying to do then I should go to bed too.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

You know, it just hit me today that I’m eighteen.  I’m a woman.  I’m not a girl anymore.  But I still think of myself as a girl.  I mean, I even like Mary Janes and frilly dresses and knee high socks with little bows!!!  I don’t feel like a woman sometimes, but I guess I am.  Or at least the law thinks I am.

But I still have a weapons grade pout.  If I look at someone with puppy eyes and pout and say “pwease?  PWEASEEEE?” people just melt!  Or, if they’re Sabby, they tell me to cut it out and act my age.  That’s my Sabby!!!  But Dave can’t resist.  And, strangely enough, Liz can’t either.  Hahaha!!!

But I only use my weapons grade pouts for good!  Not evil!!!  Using weapons grade pouts for evil isn’t fair at all!!!

Crystal doesn’t have a weapons grade pout.  She just has a death glare, and HOLY CRAP is it effective.  Beth just starts cussing.  And I have no idea what Diana is saying when she gets that way, my Spanish isn’t that good.  I’m pretty sure I heard “pendejo” a couple of times.

And we saw what Yuki can do with weaponized cuteness.  I asked her if she took classes for that as an idol.  She blushed and refused to answer.  So, naturally, I assume she did.  SMAIRU HURRICANE!!!! Hahaaha!!!

Poor men will never know what hit them when she gets going.  Fortunately, she’s not really all that interested in dating right now.  She just wants to get an education and stay away from the craziness.

Actually…  I should offer her a job.  I bet she’d be really popular at the shop… though we do get some Japanese tourists and they might recognize her.  So… up to her, I guess.  She’s already got a lot of the skills we need in a server – knows her way around a costume, knows how to be cute, and maybe she’d even want to perform every now and then.  I’ll talk to Sabby and see what she thinks.  She could bring in a lot of customers, if we can keep the tourists under control.  Her call, though, and wouldn’t blame her if she said no.

Oh!  Speaking of the shop!  I haven’t talked about it in a while, ever since I got back from Japan I’ve been really busy!  I guess this is a good time to talk about it.  It’s humming along.  We have a few catering engagements every now and then where the cosplay girls dress up like maids and serve treats.  It actually really goes over well, and we even had to hire a couple more cosplay girls to keep up with demand.  Cat-girl is still in charge, and she seems to be figuring out how to set boundaries.  Or at least live within the boundaries we set.  There haven’t been any repeats of the bathroom incident that we know of, she’s been pretty fair with the girls and everyone seems to be a big semi-happy family.  She’s actually pretty smart, she just…  has chosen a really odd career.  But she has good business sense and knows how to give the customers what they want.  Too well, sometimes.

Baker is doing pretty good as a manager while Katie’s out on leave, and stuff’s getting baked.  We’re ordering other food items like sandwiches and similar light snacks, and those are selling really well.  Business isn’t amazing, but it’s pretty good, and we’re still turning a profit.

I’m not sure Sabby’s really happy with the direction the shop’s taken, but she can’t deny it’s been hella profitable.  Those cosplay girls really attract the customers.  Actually, we should set up a booth at an anime convention.  I bet the cosplay girls would love that.  I’ll ask Sabby what she thinks.  There’s a big one in Houston every year…  though there’s been a bit of controversy lately with that one. Aww.

And speaking of Katie… she’s doing alright.  Sabby’s babysitting little Sabrina a couple of times a week, and Katie’s taking some online courses, which is good.  I don’t think she wants to be a manager at our shop forever, and I don’t blame her.  She’s got a little mouth to feed and we can’t pay as much as we’d like.  But she’s doing pretty good with her courses so maybe she’ll get a nice office job someday.  Sabby seems in her element when taking care of little Sabrina, and she’s giving Dave the side-eye.  Uh-oh.

Little Sabrina’s busy being a baby, just, well, eating, drinking, pooping, and flailing her little arms and legs around.  She’s particularly fascinated by Cat.  Cat isn’t really returning the favor, though it does come around and sniff every now and then.

Once we caught Marie resting her chin on Sabrina’s little belly.  We thought it was really cute, took a photo, and then put a stop to that.  Dogs and babies really don’t go all that well together.  We’ll let them play when she’s old enough.

Oh!  Marie!  She’s fine.  Just doing dog stuff.  She’s happy she gets to go out more because the temperature is a lot better now.  She loves walks – but not many dogs don’t.

Alright, I guess that’s enough.  Yuki and I are both studying from our classes tonight, and we’re texting back and forth questions and answers and stuff.  It’s pretty fun.

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! LIly!

And as promised, there was no church today.

I kinda missed it and I kinda didn’t, if I’m being honest.  It’s always nice to go and say hi to the old ladies and get my cheeks pinched, but after last week, I’m not sure I like it there much anymore.  Maybe it wasn’t supposed to be, but it was kind of a traumatic experience.  In a way, anyway.  Sabby did pick up Yuki, though, and she went with them.  Sabby likes Yuki.  She doesn’t like everyone, so I’m happy about that.

Apparently the sermon was about spiritual gifts and how everyone has a role to play in a functioning community, and that people are to be treasured for their gifts and allowed to flourish, not used and beaten down.  That was nice of him.  I hope they listen.  There isn’t anyone else in the congregation with those kinds of gifts, but I learned that in some sects there are prophetesses and other folks who have a direct line to God like I seem to sometimes.  So my kind of gift isn’t unheard of, but it’s really rare in my sect.  Maybe I should find one of those prophetesses.

Liz came over while everyone was gone and we watched another episode of “Akebi’s Sailor Uniform” – this one was about getting to know her new friends.  It’s really a beautiful anime, with gorgeous backgrounds and everyone’s so happy and cheerful, most of the time.  This episode had the famous lip balm scene, but it was pretty innocent, and a little funny.

Sometimes you just want to live in another world, you know what I mean?

Anyway, after everyone got back, Sabby wanted to talk to me.

She read my entry the other day and asked me if I was really worried about them kicking me out.

I said, obviously not.  I even said so in the entry.

She paused, for a bit.  “What did you mean we’re your family… but we’re not?”

Sigh.  I shoulda not said that.

“I meant,” I said slowly, “that you adopted me, but you didn’t give birth to me.  We don’t share genes or anything physical.”

“Does that bother you?”

“No!”, I said.  “Why should it?  My biological parents abandoned me.  You didn’t!”

She was quiet.  “I remember when I was put in a foster home,” she finally said.  “After my parents… well…”  She was quiet a little longer.  “I cried.  Like you did.  Almost as hard.  And I never really thought of them as my parents.  I mean, they took care of me, as best they could…  they even kind of loved me… but they weren’t my parents.  I wonder, sometimes, if that’s how you feel about us.”

“You knew your parents,” I said.  “You remember them.  I don’t.  Well, I do now, but I didn’t.  It’s different.”  I glomped her.  “Why on earth would you think I didn’t think of you as my parents?”

“You said…”

“I ALSO said I was being thinky and not to take me seriously!  So let me be thinky and don’t take me seriously!”

She sighed.  “Alright… I just…”

“Well stop it!”, I said.  “You know when you adopted me, I adopted you too?”

Her eyes widened.  “I never thought of it that way.”

“Well think of it that way,” I snapped.  “I didn’t have to say yes.  I mean, you might have anyway, but I still didn’t have to.  But I did.  And I’ve told you how I feel lots of times.  So just cut it out and don’t take it personally when I’m trying to figure out my life after a rather strange and…. somewhat traumatic event!” I glomped her again and she returned my hug.  “OK?”

“Fine,” she said, but with a smirk.  “Did you just go Claire Huxtable on me?”

I frowned.  “I don’t think I could pull that off.  But I did go Lily Smith on you.  It’s almost as bad.”

She giggled and went off to do what Sabbies do on a Sunday.  I think we’re alright.

I went out with Jack this afternoon.

I like – no, I love Jack.  He always treats me well, he’s never said or done anything offensive or awful, he’s the sweetest guy… and… and…

And.

We talked some today.  I think the stress of knowing we’re going to have to make a decision that’s coming up like a freight train is starting to wear on us.  Sabby told me two years ago, when I first met him, that one or both of us was going to have to give up something to be with each other…  and it’s starting to become clear to both of us what that means.  If I go to school in Japan, then…  he’s probably not going to go to school in Japan, and…  and…

I don’t want to think about it.

Neither of us know how to solve this right now, absent the “nuclear” option, which I don’t think either of us are ready for.

Long distance relationships can work.  Long distance relationships literally halfway around the world…  well, that can work too.  But how well?  Neither of us know.

On the bright side, he did see his career counselor, and he told me he’s thinking of taking up electronics engineering.  That’s a pretty cool job, I did a little of that myself with that lab Dave set up in the garage (which David still uses a lot, he’s pretty good at that stuff).  But he needs to pick up some more math and stuff.  I think he can do it, he just has to put his mind to it.

He’s not a dumb boy.  He’s pretty smart even.  Just a bit unmotivated sometimes. 

But I told him that when he has a good job then we can have a couple of kids, and I hear making kids is pretty fun.

He blushed hard.  And his mother called and asked what I told him, because apparently he’s studying.  That was my turn to blush.

Anyway, enough of that, I guess.  Back to class tomorrow.

Love you all!!! ❤️