Category: Diary

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

Yesterday was bad.  Today’s a little better.  But I’m in a bit of a bad mood.

I was reading about the concept of a “Mary Sue”.  You see, people seem to write fiction based upon their favorite characters in literature.  I haven’t read much of it but I did see one called “My Immortal”, and it’s so bad it’s hilarious.  But there’s this concept of a character called a “Mary Sue”.  She’s always perfect in every way, everyone in the story loves her, she’s always central to not only the plot, but every plot, she’s beautiful and perfect and…

And sometimes I wonder if that’s how I come across here.  I mean, I know I’m not perfect, but I don’t tell you all my flaws, right?  I know I”m pretty, but my legs are too long and my face is too round and my hair is a little wild.  And I’m innocent, but I’m naive and don’t know much about things.  I don’t think I’m easily taken advantage of but sometimes I wonder.  And some days I get in bad moods and even get snappy with people.  They’re usually quick to tell me to cut it out, but I do have a bit of a temper.  I’m not like Amber Heard, but I can get a little snippy.

Oh, speaking of which, why are people even paying any attention to that?  It’s none of our business!!!

Anyway, I’m not perfect.  I’m just your ordinary sixteen year old girl, with moods and mood swings and… oh.  I think my “special time” might be coming.  That would explain it.  I remember when Sabby first showed me how to use… feminine products.  Ewwww.  I guess that’s not something I remembered.  “That goes there?”. I remember saying, and expressing some doubt about the whole thing.  But it worked out.

Sometimes it’s fun being a girl, and sometimes not so much.  Boys seem to have it so easy sometimes.  They don’t have to buy sooo many clothes, and deal with special times, and… and, I guess they have their own problems.  I guess.  But it’s nice being a girl too….  boys don’t like to hug and cuddle and no one cares if we do, so… there’s that, I suppose.

It’s still hot.  Maybe that’s not helping my mood.

I need to walk Marie.

Love you all!!! ❤

 Hi! it’s me! Lily!

Ever had one of those days where you just wake up and nothing goes right?  I had one of those today.  Marie was sick in her kennel.  Sabby forgot to make breakfast and I didn’t have time to make anything.  I ran out of shampoo.  Then I got to work and people were just… unusually people-y.  Even the owner was a bit snippy.  Then I got home, and tried practicing with Liz, but it just wasn’t going well, and we gave up and just watched a movie.

It was just a terrible day.

But I guess it’s almost over, and…  aww.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

It’s a supermodel day!!!

Hot and boring!!!

HAHAHAHA!!!!!

And it’s going to be hot for a while!!!  Booo!!!

Liz came over tonight and we rehearsed some more.  She’s…  a perfectionist.  Nothing wrong with that, but it does get a little frustrating sometimes.  I think I’m playing it right, and she says “no no… play that note like this, not like this!”.  I have to admit she’s usually right, but it’s still frustrating.  I have to go see her with her violin teacher a little later this week.

Did I mention it’s hot?  Soooo hot.

Like me!!!  hahaha!!!  That’s why I’m not a supermodel!  I’m not boring!!!

Marie wants to spend more time outside…  but it’s too hot!  Even for her!  I take her for a walk in the early morning and late evening, but otherwise, she stays in with the air conditioning.  I think it’s a little boring for her too, but that’s how it is!!!  It’s too hot for playing outside!!!

Emiko’s coming over this weekend and we’re going shopping for our trip in July.  Maybe Allison can come over and play with Aika and Mika!!!  If they’re coming, of course.  David’s not here, so if Allison can’t come over there’s not much to do except go shopping.  But maybe they like shopping!  They’re girls, anyway.

We like shopping.  lol!!!  But chocolate is better.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

HOT Lily!

And not in the way Jack would agree with!!!

OMG is it hot!!!

And it’s going to stay hot for a while!!!

It was sooooo hot that today we all went out in our swimsuits and had a water fight!  We weren’t even mad when Dave got out his pressure washer and soaked us!!!  Sabby came home with a bunch of water balloons and we threw them at each other!!! It was sooo much fun!!!  Marie was running around trying to catch the water in her mouth!!!

But otherwise, it was a Sunday.  A very nice, quiet Sunday.

Oh, Dave and Sabby want me to start going to church with them now that I’m free on Sundays.  I really don’t want to.  I mean, church has done some nice things, but I don’t like it!  They keep talking about things I don’t understand.  God and this guy named Jesus… I don’t get it.

I don’t get why it’s so important to Sabby.  It’s just a waste of a Sunday morning to me.  But oh well.  At least it’s air conditioned.  And they promised me chocolate pancakes after church.  So it turns out I can be bribed with chocolate.

I told Sabby I’m bringing my headphones like I used to, though.  She’s not happy with that, but Dave told her to pick her battles, and at least I’m going.  Sigh.

They’ve done a lot for me, though.  I guess it’s not a big thing.

I’m thinking of fun things I can do for my one year diary anniversary!  But I haven’t come up with any good ideas yet.  Booo.

Tomorrow’s hot too!!!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

And it’s so HOT outside!!!

This morning I took Marie for a walk, and had a run with Liz.  Then we just stayed indoors.  It hit 104 degrees!!! OUCH!!!  Thank goodness for air conditioning!!!

Sabby did take us to the mall, though, and we did mall stuff.  You know, wandered around, looked at the pretty lights, tried on some clothes (Liz wanted a new dress and she found a really pretty one), you know, the stuff us girls do at a mall.

Normally we’d take Marie and play outside, but it was too hot, so we just threw the ball in the house.  She loves it when we stand at the top of the stairs and throw the ball down.  She runs after it, grabs it, and brings it back up.  Silly pup.

Anyway, in other news, David got his hog!!!  Actually, they got a couple!!!  So apparently what they did was took him and a few others out at night, gave them some relatively high power air rifles (after teaching them safety, of course), and let them at the hogs.  They got like five!!  Sabby says she never heard David so happy!!!  Actually, it’s even better than that, apparently his girl friend (not girlfriend, at least I don’t think) found that to be incredibly “manly” (at least for a ten year old) and is now calling him her “pig killing man” (you’d think a girl that age would be grossed out, but it takes all kinds, I guess).  OMG he loves that!!!  The counselors said she’s now the one following him around like a lost puppy.

He’d done his part, so they let him relax in his dorm while a bunch of other kids (the ones who didn’t mind) learned how to clean and cook them.  They had pork for dinner!!!  And the counselors told everyone in the camp who was responsible for killing their dinner!!!  Even the ones who minded still ate the food!!!  And they caught his girl friend feeding him!!!  EWWW!!!!  But HAHAHA!!!!!  I guess they put a stop to that, but later on they were cuddling on a bench watching the sun set.  How cute!!!

Dave and Sabby seemed a little surprised at the fact that the camp was teaching them that, but Dave shrugged.  “Maybe he just needs to know what it’s like to be a man,” he said.  Sabby seemed a bit doubtful but couldn’t deny the fact that David seemed to be having a smashing time.  Is being a man killing stuff?

Dave says no, not really.  It’s not so much about killing stuff as it is about bringing food back for their tribe, and that’s exactly what he did.  There was even a female who appreciated his efforts, and Dave says that that’s certainly a major element of feeling like a man.  I don’t get it.  But I guess when I take care of Marie or Grace or even Cat, or when Jack buys me stuff and protects me, I feel a bit like a woman, so…  I guess I do.  A little.  Like what I said about boys boying and girls girling.  Right?

Doesn’t mean I can’t do what men do and men can’t do what I do, but…  different things make us happy most of the time, I guess.

Dave’s going to go out and get some rifles.  I guess hunting is in their future.  Even though he doesn’t know much about it.

Diana and Crystal are over tonight too, and we’re watching movies and playing games.  So much fun!  It’s amazing how well we all get along, right?  Diana wants us to come over to her house soon.  I think that’d be fun.  Especially if she makes her wonderful tacos.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

And now I understand why adults like Fridays so much!!!

I like my job!  I really do!  Sure, it’s not the most rewarding and fulfilling of jobs, I mean, there’s only so far you can get with shelf stocking and pallet unloading and karen wrangling.  It’s still a good job and pays obscenely well (at least that’s what Dave says).  But still, when it’s Friday, it’s like everything is just that much better!!!  And I go home and usually at least one girl is hanging around, and we get to do fun stuff like watch movies and play games and make girl piles and sleep in (if Marie lets me!) and Saturdays are just soooo nice.

Sabby brought up too that I need to start thinking about college.  I don’t know.  I don’t even know if a college will accept me – I have no transcript.  I don’t even know who to talk to about that.  Maybe I should talk to the lawyer and find out what my options are.  I mean, that’s not his specialty, but at least he knows people.  I’m not even really sure I want to go to college.  I mean I certainly want to get an education, but college just seems like a… not so nice place.  But thankfully I have some time to figure that out.  Maybe if they send me to a private school, they’ll have people who can help.

Dave had some kinda bad news.  He’s willing to build a little workshop, but our house is zoned residential.  He can’t get it permitted.  That’s the bad news.  The good news is that we seem to be in the beginning stages of a real estate crash.  I mean, not good news, but good news for us, because we might be able to find a storefront cheap.  But there’s still lots of legal stuff to get out of the way, and even so, we’ll have to renovate.  Dave certainly can help with that!!!

Anyway.  Liz is over tonight!!!  And we’re not going to practice accompanying!  Her parents came over too, and we had a nice dinner.  Her parents seem to be loosening up a little, which is nice.  Especially since I’m dating Jack, they seem to consider me, and by extension us, family.

Speaking of Jack, the silly billy sent me more chocolate!!!  And the REALLY GOOD kind!  But…  it’s hot, and most of it melted.  Aww.  But melted chocolate is still chocolate, right?  I just got some graham crackers and marshmallows and we’ll have the world’s most expensive s’mores.  And besides, it’s the thought that counts.  I wish I could send Jack what I know he really wants, but Sabby forbids it, and there are laws.  But…  I wrote him a story.  A very nice story.  A very, very nice story.  With lots of, err… descriptions, and stuff.  OMG he loved it!  Boys…

I don’t mind, though.  Boys are not girls (Sabby tells me saying that can get me in trouble in the wrong places but it’s true!).  So he’s gonna boy and I’m gonna girl, and when that happens at the same time, omg… it’s the best thing in the world!!!

Well, that and chocolate.  And at the same time…  well, that’s for the story.  Not for the diary.  Haha!!

Anyway, we watched our movie, and now Liz and Beth and I are going to make a pile.  No other girls this week, I guess Diana’s finally moving back into her house, and Crystal and her parents are taking a much deserved vacation.  Not all that far away, but hey, they’ve come a long way in a few months.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

I don’t feel like posting much tonight.  So I won’t!  I’ll post again tomorrow.  I post all the time so I get a break sometimes too!!!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

So Liz and I need to start practicing for her recital – thankfully it’s before I leave for Japan.  Tonight she brought her violin over and we went over the music.  It’s not too hard but she’s a bit of a perfectionist – she wants it exactly so.  But it’s kind of a back and forth, so it’ll be interesting to see how this shakes out.  It’s a pretty piece and she’s a good violinist, though, so it’ll work out.  I’ll need to go to a couple of lessons with her so I can work with her with her teacher.

Liz is like a different person when she’s doing something like studying… she’s very driven and single minded.  Very businesslike.  Friend before, friend after, coworker during.  But I guess that’s good – maybe I can learn something from her.

She tells me I need a different outfit, though.  My gown is fine when I’m the center of attention, but as an accompanist, I’m not the center of attention, so she wants me to wear something a little more understated.  We went upstairs and she raided my closet, and then suggested a nice long skirt and sleeveless top combo.  She says if I do up my hair I’ll look just fine.  I guess I can see where she’s coming from.  I told her such, but I said it’s a partnership between the two of us.  If the spotlight is on her, that’s fine, it’s her recital, but I’m not going to shrink into the shadows like hired help.  I don’t think she quite understood, but she accepted.

I don’t think we’re going to conflict much, but it’s a very different dynamic and it’ll take some getting used to – actually working with her rather than just being her best friend.  I made her promise to take me out for chocolate after.  Not a Wendys chocolate frosty, but some of the good stuff.  That’s my payment.  She readily agreed.  She’s actually a little intimidating with how competent and single minded she is.

So David is settling into camp life, I guess his lady friend is kind of calming him down a bit.  I guess the food is pretty good, he met some boys (and girls) that are almost as into gaming as he is, and he’s learning a few life skills, like starting fires with sticks and rope.  Turns out they’re having a bit of a hog problem, so they’re taking them hunting for hogs – if they catch one, they’ll eat pork dishes for a week.  Guess that doesn’t happen every year, but the hogs are there, so may as well teach the kids how to hunt.

Dave is fine with that.  Dave’s not a big hunter, but he’s been known to spend some time in the outdoors, and if it’s a bonding experience with David, well, he’ll learn too.  they did have that fishing trip last year, and David proved to be really good at catching fish – we were eating fish for weeks.

Beth is not so fine with that, but Dave sat her down and told her the facts of life about hunting, and hunting hogs in particular.  I guess they’re a huge problem in Texas.  She still doesn’t like it, but wisely picked her battles on this one.  Hey, she’s learning.

Oh, speaking of learning, she’s fifteen now.  She can’t get a license, but she can start to learn to drive.  Dave’s going to take her to a parking lot this weekend and teach her the basics.  She can’t wait!!!  I haven’t been driving everywhere, but I’ve been getting in lots of practice, and I’ll get my real license in August!  I can’t wait!!!

Anyway, time for bed.  It’s quiet here without David.  I kinda miss the little guy.  But don’t tell him I said that!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

And today was pretty boring!  Boringly boring!  It’s hot!  It’s dry!  It’s hot and dry!  But humid!!!  EWWWWWWW!!!!!

I love winter in Texas!  Summer SUCKS!!!!!

In fact, it was so hot that after work Beth and I put on our swimsuits and had a water fight!!!  Liz came over too and we just soaked each other!!! Marie even got into the action!!! It was soooo much fun!!!  Well, until Dave came home from the job site and we ambushed him!  HAHAHA!!!!!

But… he has a pressure washer.

Oh, he didn’t pressure wash us.  That’d be mean.  But he turned it on, set it to wide spray, basically turning it into the world’s biggest super soaker, and GOT US GOOD!!!!

I really need to learn not to get into prank wars with him!!!!

But do you remember what I said, about how he’s clumsy?  He got himself too.  I dunno how, but LOL!!!!!

Anyway, after all that tomfoolery, Sabby told us to get inside, get into dry clothes, and eat dinner.  But we felt so much better!!!  Even Marie seemed a little peppier.  Poor thing.

Liz had fun too!!!  She’s not usually into that kind of thing but I guess she was hot!!!

Not much news on the business front – even when you decide to do these kings of things, they’re slow.  Dave has to design the mini-factory and get permits and everything.  Sabby has to file the LLC paperwork.  My trust administrator needs his tin of cookies.  There’s lots to do, but right now it’s hurry up and wait.  And I’ve still got a trip to Japan to plan for!!!

Sabby took me aside this evening, and told me that she was worried about something.

“Lily,” she said, “I don’t want you growing up too fast.  We’re talking about a lot of adult responsibilities with helping to run a company, and I know you’re up to it, but… but you’re still a child.” She sniffled.  “Or at least in some ways.  I don’t want you to stop doing fun things just because you have responsibilities.  Don’t forget to be a child.”

“I’m sixteen,” I said.  “I’m not a child.  But I know what you mean.”

“I never got to be a child,” she said sadly.  “I’m not letting that happen to you.”

I couldn’t help it.  I gave her a hug.  And I’m not sure which of us needed it more.

大好き　皆さん！！！

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

Did you like Liz’s guest post last night?  She’s so nice!  And I love her too.

And it’s sooo hot outside!!!

Today it went over 100 degrees, and it’s supposed to do that for the next few days, anyway.  I go to work in the morning and it’s already 80!  Booo!  But at least work is air conditioned.

Oh did I mentioned I talked to my Japanese grandparents?  Obaasan and Ojiisan!!!  Well, they wanted me to call them that.  They don’t speak a lot of English, but with their English and my Japanese we made it work, and Emiko translated the stuff that we couldn’t communicate.  They didn’t know about me either, and there was a little bit of tension between Emiko and her parents (I guess she was kind of a wild child, at least by Japanese standards) but they were happy to meet me anyway.  When I go to Japan, they want me and Emiko to stay with them.  I don’t know if we’re taking Aika and Mika, but Bill’s staying home.  He’s met them already, and he has work too.

Sabby called the camp to see how David’s doing…  well…  he’s calmed down.  See, there’s this girl.  Not kidding, actually.  It’s just one of those ten year old crushes but he’s following her around like a lost puppy, and is toeing the line to impress her.  I’m not sure if she’s impressed, but the counselors say they’re thick as thieves right now, so maybe that’s the ticket?  As long as he can keep from pulling her hair.

Anyway more work today, and I’m tired.  And Marie needs walked, while it’s cooling down a bit.

Love you all!!! ❤