Category: Diary

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

So I didn’t post last night.  I didn’t mention it, but Jack and I were going to go on a date Saturday night, but that didn’t work out.  I guess he had a family thing or something,  His parents are being a little more strict about that kind of thing – family first, date second.  I guess I can understand that.  But last night we were finally able to go out, and we had a long talk.

A really long talk.

I don’t know if anything was actually settled, but the talk is important.

We talked about our future together.

After the kind of, er scare I had, it seems like a really important thing to talk about.  Am I serious about him?  Is he serious about me?  What would happen if I were to actually, well, you know?  Would he run away like Katie’s ex did?  How would he support us?  How would he keep Sabby from killing both of us?

Hahah… but I’m only half kidding, honestly.  She might maim, anyway.

So anyway, we talked for way longer than we should – I got home too late.  Sabby wasn’t happy but when I told her what we were doing she was okay with it.  He says the same with his parent.s  We didn’t get any, ummm.. “alone” time but I think that was a good thing this time.

I’m not going to say exactly what we all said, but I think it had a good outcome.  We understand each other a little better now.  I don’t think he’d leave me.  But he knows as well as I do how difficult it would be, so…  we understand each other.

I really do think I lucked out with him.

But we’re both seventeen now, we’re nearly adults… it’s not just teenagers romping around anymore, is it?  We have a future to think about.

We talked about marriage, too, someday.  Not on my 18th birthday – Sabby would kill me – but not wasting a huge amount of time either.  Honestly, with the business, I could probably support us, but that’s not how Jack wants to do it, and I guess I understand.  He doesn’t really know what he wants to do for a career either, and, well, it’s probably a good time to decide.  I don’t really know for myself, either.  Maybe be a businesswoman, but….  I don’t know.

And with all the economic stuff going on right now that Dave’s worried about… who knows what the future holds.

But I can’t imagine a future without him in it.

And maybe that’s what love’s all about after all.

I love you, Jack.  ❤ With all my heart, and my left floppy bit too.  Haha!!!  My right one has reservations, but she’ll come around eventually.

And…

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Beth made a YouTube today!!!

I put it on my channel so you all can find it!!! She wanted to make something fun and educational at the same time!  I think she did a good job!  She wrote the script and did the animations and everything!

… she’s better at that than I am.

Aww.

Anyway, I thought she did a good job!!!

So anyway, this morning we went to church, and you know, stand up, sit down, sing, listen, sing more, and eat chocolate pancakes.  Then after that, it was a nice day – if a little humid, so Dave grilled!!! I love it when Dave grills!!!  It’s one of my favorite things, other than chocolate!!!

But other than that it was a pretty quiet day.  Allison’s tenth birthday is tomorrow, I’m not sure what they have planned, but I have something for her!!!  I hope she likes it!!!

It was a quiet Sunday, I guess.  Other than all that, I just practiced a lot.  I mean, really, a lot.  But I made some pretty good progress on the third movement.  A lot of notes.  Aww.  And some of them are pretty hard!

David stayed up way too late with his new console and fell asleep in church!  Hahah!  The pastor said something loud and he jumped and made noise!  Everyone looked at him!  Haha!!!

But now it’s time for bed.  Aww.

Goodnight!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

I’ve been working on this site!  And I found a picture of the family!  I don’t think I’ve ever posted a picture of Beth before!!!

Didn’t I tell you she was pretty?  She likes to wear fashionable clothing, though around the house she tends to just be comfortable.  Liz is on the right.  She likes to dress pretty too, but not quite as…  provocative as Beth does.  But neither of them can hold a candle to cat-girl, though.  Maybe someday I’ll post a picture of her too!!!  Sabby’s whapping David upside the head for ruining the picture by wiping his nose.  Haha!!

I have much, much more work to do though.  We’re at 317,000 words now, and…  that’s a lot of words.  I think it’d be very intimidating to a beginning reader.  So I have to find some way around that.  My tech friend suggested I train an AI with my diary and then people can chat with me!  It sounds like a great idea!!!

It also sounds like a really complicated idea.

My tech friend is really good with this stuff and even he said he hasn’t the slightest idea how to do that!!!

It stormed a lot last night, but today was pretty quiet!!!  Liz was a little scared, but the storms weren’t severe, so she just shook a little, then sighed with contentment as the girl-pile formed around her, and then she slept pretty soundly.  I’m glad we can do that for her.

Here are some bigger pictures!

I like Beth’s dress.  It’s a pretty color.  I don’t think I’d wear those leggings though.  Not my style!  But she looks good in them!

Today was also David’s birthday!  He got lots of games and a new console!  Couple that with lots of pizza and some of his friends coming over (even Allison) he had a pretty good birthday!  He’s holed up in his room now playing games.  He gets an exception to curfew tonight!

Okay!

Love you all!!! ❤️

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

And it’s Friday!!!

Yaaaayyyy!!!!

Ummm…  I guess.

All the girls are over tonight.  We’re going to do a girl-pile, just like old times!!! It’s been a while.  It’s been either me over at Liz’s, or Beth over somewhere, or no one over anywhere…  so tonight we have pizza and soda and lots and lots of chocolate (of course!) and movies and games.. and I think Sabby’s going nuts with all the giggling and squealing!!!  But… girls will be girls.  I wouldn’t have it any other way.  And I think if she were being honest, neither would she.

I wonder if David holes up in his room with his games sometimes just for self-preservation.

He still hangs out with Little Miss Priss’s brother, but not very often.  They live a bit far away and they’re not best friends, just have a shared interest in games.  But I guess shared interests are important.

I played through the first and second movements of my concerto though, for everyone!  I even set up a video call for Rebecca and her friends!  Everyone was really impressed.  Yu plays violin, like Liz does, but she thought I was pretty good.  Chelsi and Britni, well..  Chelsi thought it was pretty cool, and Britni… well, I think she wondered where Beyonce was.  Still sweetest girl ever, though.  Kari just had a bunch of technical questions I couldn’t answer, but Beth piped up and they had like an hour chat just about music theory.  Way over my head, but I’m glad everyone’s getting along.

I actually wonder how Britni and Kari ended up in the same friend group, but hey.

Some maybe strong storms are coming, but it’ll be fine.  We’ll all be in a pile and we’ll make sure Liz is at the bottom of the pile where everything’s safe and warm.

I really do think she appreciates that.  I’m not really scared by most storms… but they are flashy and loud and boomy, so…  I guess I understand.

Oh…  we’re making all the travel arrangements to Japan now!!!  But there’s so many more people now, it’s gotten pretty complicated!  There’s all of us, Emiko and her family, Robert and his family, and her friends want to tag along too (everyone’s paying their own way because dang it, they’re rich!)  That’s like seventeen people!!! If this keeps up it might be cheaper just to charter our own plane!  Haha!!!

Okay!!!

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

David’s birthday is on Saturday, Allison’s is on Monday…  so there’ll be a lot of parties and hopefully a lot of chocolate.

But it’s their birthday so if they don’t want chocolate, well…  Aww.

I don’t have a whole lot to talk about tonight.  It was another somewhat boring day.  Practice a lot, go to classes, dodge karens… you know, the usual.  My grounding ends this weekend, yay.  It wasn’t too bad, though.  All that really happened was I didn’t get to go to the mall.  Big whoop.  Oh and see Jack, though I did on Grace’s birthday.  We’re still talking, though, so there’s that.  We might go on a date Saturday night, though…  we need to have a big talk.

Sigh.  I hate big talks.  I’d rather just have his arms.

Anyway…  ummm…

Not much else.  Lots of rain this weekend.  Just in time for David’s party.

Well, it’s later than usual… soooo…

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!

And it’s boringly boring today, too!!!

It didn’t even rain!  Though they’re saying we should fix that this weekend.  So much rain…

But as I keep saying, we need the rain.  Rain is good.  Especially in central Texas.

I put Allison’s birthday present together today!  Plus I got David’s too.  Sabby let me go to the mall to get what I needed.  I guess family is more important than grounding.  I think she’ll like it – and you know David’s really easy to please.  Yeah, you can probably guess what I got him.

So I spent today going to class and practicing.  Pretty much nothing else.  That’s not too hard a piece, but it has its moments!  I’ve pretty much got the first movement down, now I’m working on the third!  All those notes!  Especially at the end!!!  Sometimes Sabby just watches me play, shakes her head, and walks off.  I asked her what she’s thinking, and she said it just seems to come so easy to me.  She’s always wanted to play, and never was any good at it.

I told her I play piano, and she makes cookies.  She’s like the Mozart of cookies.

That seemed to make her feel better.

But the thing is, I don’t know if it comes easy to me.  Maybe I practiced for hours and hours since I was three and just don’t remember it!  So…  maybe that’s not fair.  But… maybe it is.  I don’t know.

My teacher told me to have an encore ready too, just in case.  So I’ll just do a Beethoven Sonata or something.  Pfft.  I’ll just do a Beethoven sonata.  Some people really struggle with those.

I’m tired.  And I’m starting to practice in my sleep.  Aww.

Marie and Cat are funny, though.  When I practice, they come around and sit next to the piano and just listen.  It’s the cutest thing.

Anyway, speaking of which, gotta go to bed.  Marie’s whining.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

And today was boringly boring.

But I’d rather have boringly boring, I think.  The past few days haven’t been all that fun.

So the car’s all put back together now and Dave’s driving it around to break the engine in and let the rings seat.  So that’s good.  I didn’t screw it up as far as I know.  Dave said it would have been cheaper to just buy a crate engine and put it in, but then I wouldn’t have learned anything.  He’s right.  I guess education does cost, right?  It always costs something, either money, or time…

The business has been going pretty well, though I haven’t been around much.  The two bakers are really killing it!  One has been doing baked goods, the other has been doing lunch items like gourmet sandwiches, that kinda thing.  We’re transitioning from just a cookie shop to a cookie and lunch shop, and people have been coming in at lunch and even dinner time to pick up a quick, healthy, but really tasty snack.  It’s really working out!

And,, of course, cat-girl is, well, being cat-girl.  We keep having to reign her in from being too revealing or.. other things.  I forget if I mentioned it, but we caught her in back with a customer she thought was “cute”.  She’s lucky she didn’t get fired for that.  After she pulled everything back on, Sabby took her into the back office and had a “come-to-Jesus”, as she puts it, with her.  One more thing like that and she’s out, and she’s really lucky she got that second chance… but truthfully, she makes us way too much money.  We’re keeping her if we can, but she sure doesn’t make it easy sometimes.

Thankfully anime-girl and skintight-girl are getting almost as popular.  Hiring some mini-cat-girls was a really good idea.

The thing is, she doesn’t really mean to cause trouble.  She’s not an awful person, or mean, in fact, she’s usually pretty happy and cheerful, and customers love her (especially that one) – and she’s pretty smart.  She just… loves using her body and has zero impulse control.

Katie’s really starting to show now.  In lieu of pregnancy leave, she’s got carte blanche to eat whatever she wants, and…  well…  she sure is.  Remember how I always say chocolate fixes everything?  Well, fixes cravings too, apparently.

Things are humming along, I guess, and that’s good.  I should be more involved, but classes and, well, drama is a bit more important.  Plus I have a lot of practicing do to.  It’s a hard piece!!!  I’ve been spending a couple of hours a day trying to get it right.  I’ve almost got the first movement down.  That ending!!!

Okay…  I should sleep now.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

So remember that karen yesterday?  Jack told me that she went to Grace’s school and complained about getting kicked out of her party.  She demanded… well, it wasn’t clear what she was demanding, but she demanded something.  The principal said that he had no ability to control what happens off school grounds.  Well, as it goes with karens the world over, that didn’t sit well, and, well, she was eventually trespassed from the school.  Her kid wasn’t, but she’s not allowed to go in anymore without permission in advance.

Some people.

Grace is six!  Allison is turning ten!  David is turning eleven!  Everyone’s getting big!!!  And, of course, I’m only a few months away from being 18.

Me… being 18.  I don’t feel like I’m about to turn 18.  Sometimes I feel like that lost fourteen year old girl sitting in my room crying my eyes out because I don’t have a family or anyone.  Sometimes I feel like that lost fourteen year old girl that Sabby took on a shopping trip, when I had no more tears left and all I could do was just walk around like a zombie.  But… look at me now!  I’m so different!  But… but I’m still the same.  Still lost, sometimes.  Still so very lost.

But found too, I guess.  I always say that I was found by the side of the road.  Because I was!  I was walking down the road and they found me!  And a lot of people took care of me, and I ended up with Dave and Sabby…  and they took care of me.  The doctors took care of me, the church and the pastor took care of me (that’s how I found Dave and Sabby… or they found me), and the social workers took care of me.. an.d.. .and even my “benefactor” somehow.  Even though I don’t have any idea who he or she is, they still helped me to get the trust fund that I didn’t know I would have gotten (and apparently some people tried to take from me), and they greased the wheels a little behind the scenes in ways I don’t understand.  And Liz, my best friend, found me too… or I found her… and now she’s my little china doll and I’m her teddy bear and sometimes when she’s sleeping over and it’s storming I”ll pull her slightly shaking body to me, and she relaxes and we go to sleep.  She tells me that she feels safe when I do that, like no storm can touch her.  And for her part… well… she’s really warm and feels like a big, nice smelling, heated pillow.

That’s the sweetest thing, don’t you think?

I hope she finds the same with her boyfriend.

She’s not really afraid of all storms, but this is Texas, and some storms, well, they’re scary.

But the point being, I’m lost, but I’m found too.  We’re all growing up.  Life ebbs and life flows and soon I’ll begin the next chapter of my life.  Whatever that is.

But I’ve got everyone I care about and everyone who loves me, so…  so it’s good.  Right?  It’s good.

Some days, though…  I have to tell myself that.  Over and over.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

Well… it’s a Sunday, I guess.

Liz went home this morning and we went to church.  It was just church.  Stand up, sit down, sing, stand up, sit down, say some stuff, pastor does his preachy thing, then we get chocolate pancakes.

I almost forgot, though – today is Grace’s birthday!  But thankfully Dave and Sabby didn’t.  I got her a last minute gift and we went to one of those kiddy fun places where she had a pizza party.  She invited all of her school friends and everyone had a blast.  Except one of the kids was just awful.  You know, the kind of kid that just thinks he can do anything he wants?  He was trying to make Grace’s day miserable.  Finally I just told him to sit down, shut up, and stop picking on Grace.

He swore at me and told me in no uncertain terms what to do with myself.

Sabby overheard.  She came over and asked him where his mother is.

He said she dropped him off there and went shopping.

Sabby went Claire Huxtable.  In her dead calm voice, she said “what’s her phone number?”

“I don’t have to tell you.”

Sabby got even calmer.  “I’ll ask you one more time.  What’s her phone number?”

“I don’t -“

She just stared at him, with her patented number four glare.

He told her.

Sabby called up his mother and told her to come and get her child right now or her next call was going to be CPS for abandoning her child without telling anyone.  Sabby just kept using her dead calm voice, you could hear the screaming through the phone.  She just kept quietly saying “come get your child.  Now.”

Finally she hung up.  A few minutes later a woman came storming through the door yelling.

“Which one of you told me to get my child?”

“I did.  Please take your child and leave.”

“You can’t tell me how to parent my child!”

A manager stepped in at that point.  “No, but we can tell you you’re not welcome here.  We saw how your child was treating everyone else.  She’s right.  Leave.”

Sigh.  Why do I have to run into all the karens.

Anyway, she finally left, and not kidding, everyone applauded.  I’m sure the lady heard it.  Well, after that, everyone had fun.  Grace had a cake and got her presents, then they started running around playing arcade games.  It looked fun!  I would have too…  but Jack was there.

Of course we could touch or anything, but we could talk.

He apologized.

I asked him if he knew what he was apologizing for.

He said he wouldn’t have liked it much if I’d disrespected his beliefs.

I asked him what his beliefs are.

He said he doesn’t really have any but he still wouldn’t have liked it much, and he shouldn’t have done it to me.

I gave him a hug.  Of course he hugged me back.  I miss him.

But we still have some stuff to discuss, I think.

Just because I have those pills doesn’t mean that things are… safe.

But that’s for later, I guess.  It was just nice watching Grace running around and having a blast.  Even David was joining in on the fun a bit.  Oh, his birthday is next week, too!!!

Anyway, a six year old’s birthday party is really fun.  I should know more five year olds so we can have more parties!  Hahaha!!!

Anyway, back to the grind tomorrow, I guess.

The waterpark opens in a couple of weeks!!! Yay!!!

Okay…  gotta go to bed now.

Love you all!!! ❤

Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!

They forecasted storms!  And they didn’t happen!   Yaaaayyy!!!!  Well…  sort of.  We can still use the rain.

But not storms like last night!!!

We went to bed and Liz was all cuddled up to me and even shaking a little.  I didn’t know she was that scared!  But it was a pretty bad storm.  I just hugged her and we fell asleep.  She’s noplat all that cuddly but storms seem to bring the cuddly out in her.

No hail thankfully but lots of loud thunder and lightning.  Aww.

They got it worse up north, though.  I saw this morning that a storm went south over Burnet, took a u-turn, and went over it again!  Weird!!!

So anyway, it was hot today too,, but no storms.

So in things that aren’t weather, I made a Youtube today!!!  It’s the first time in a long time!  I think it was pretty good!  What’s it about?  Well, you’ll have to go see!!!  Haha!!!  Liz and I wanted to go to the mall, but I’m grounded (I guess that does mean something) so we just played games and ate chocolate.  I could think of worse things to spend a day doing!  She also got her violin and we rehearsed for her concert.  It went pretty well.  Then she listened to me play my concerto, and she was pretty impresse.d.  I still have work to do on it, but it’s going pretty well!

Liz and Marie get along so well now, whenever she comes over, Marie climbs all over her and then falls asleep in her lap.  It’s cute, but then Liz has to get up and Marie looks all put out!  Hahaha!!!  “I was comfortable, human!!!”

Okay, guess it’s bedtime.  Liz is staying over again tonight, but probably a little less cuddly.  No storms!!!

Love you all!!! ❤